take these used tissues and cry for me...
my mind has wondered off today. but i dont think thats a bad thing. cause its like friday. except not.
i hate the way i keep confusing myself. i either still have feelings for you or i dont. simple as that right? i have to choose one. but i cant. i keep like tricking myself. cause i think everythings fine between us like were just friends but then little things always happen that make me miss you and make me wish that there was more between us. when we hang out its great. i love it. but i always get the feeling that something more is gonna come from it but it never does. im stupid for getting my hopes up i guess. you cant tell me the reason you dont want anything to happen between us is because yer scared of hurting me again. thats selfish. it makes it sound like yer planning on doing that again. that like theres this plan out to try and hurt nicole. well...not cool. i swear im fine. i dont care about what happend before. maybe thats stupid of me. but thats just the way i am. stupid. maybe i just want to know if things can kind of start over between us. cause you know i still have feelings for you and you said you feel the same, and im scared that im gonna screw things up by being with you know who because thats how i deal with rejection. maybe im just wanting too much. just know that i had a great time today. i missed little stuff like that. that feeling i get when we hang out hasnt gone away yet, and thats what scares me. maybe, if you want, we could do something this weekend. oh yea...im glad you liked yer present from me and cc.