hey diddle, diddle, the cat and the fiddle ( Read more... )

you know the feeling of wanting to hang out with someone specific, just one person who you know will complete you while you're together (even though it's just hanging out), but you don't have that specific person anymore? you just have the memory of the person who used to be that for you? music has become that person for me. music is the one thing ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night that i was raped. i became pregnant and i was overjoyed. no one wanted me to keep the child, my parents were devastated that i was even entertaining the idea, but there was just no other option in my mind. i wasn't going to abort the child and take a life that fate created for me. i couldn't punish the innocent and ( Read more... )

in "judevine" there is a picture ( Read more... )

i'm still here.

i've been staring at the same wall for weeks now. it says "fuck you for thinking you'd go further." am i ever going to stop feeling restless and confined? if i do will i be able to handle it or will i need the comfort of more familiar emotions, as unsettling as they are ( Read more... )

wow, my last entry sucked, i must have been in a shitty mood (checks) oh, why yes, i was ( Read more... )

so it's almost 4am, i haven't updated in awhile and now i'm going to ( Read more... )

all i have to say is that it has been an AMAZING weekend. thank you, you all know who you are.

peace and love, v-style.

*sigh* so much has happened in the past few weeks. i talked myself out of feeling, more than platonically, for a friend of mine. i finally became apparent to me that i was reading into things that meant nothing. ironically, i have been asked to wait a year by another person occupying a place in my heart. we will see where that leads me to. by we, i ( Read more... )