today in the mail, i received a debit card from my family. it comes glued to a piece of paper which describes what the fucking deal is with the card. all of this information has been cut off of the paper ( Read more... )

i got brain freeze in ODE today. i wonder if anyone noticed.

my grades from fall quarter were really wearing on me for the past few weeks. and i didnt even notice. i dont know why i never actually thought about this. like a week ago, i thought this in as many words, and it was a huge relief. hoooray being human.

tonight dinner was:
scotch,
butter top bread,
camambert with herbs

i think im losing my ability to feel things intensely and be unfazed ( Read more... )

awful awful awful awful day.

i want to grow up to be someone who thinks about things other than work when he leaves work.

im undeniably making progress at feeling comfortable with myself

to preface: detail 1: one of my uncles is named billy. he's a mathematician at depaul and he's all pumped that im studying algebra and shit. detail 2: lately my gchat statuses have been about math. for example, the status is currently "fundamental theorem of finite abelian groups ( Read more... )

i get knots in my upper back/neck

sometimes i feel like im becoming more like my parents lately

i just want to go to sleep

im not going to write up my complex for class tomorrow.

just algebra.

and sleep.

i got so little done. i have no idea how to prioritize work tomorrow and the next day.

i feel like i am going to fail my exams.

the past few weeks have just been a return to previous years of college.

our lives are all just huge piles of steaming self-deceit-flavored shit.