career advice
so i've been talking to a few people today about this, but i really am starting to rethink the path i'm on careerwise. currently, i'm going for a pre-med: biology degree. i want to be a chiropractor. at least that's what i've told myself. why do i want to be a chiropractor? because in high school i took a few health occupations classes and really enjoyed them so i decided i wanted to do something in medicine. at first i wanted to be a heart surgeon, but i'm just not smart enough for that. then i decided that i wanted to be a chiropractor because i just wanted to do something in the medical field and chiropractors make a lot of money. that's all. i don't love chiropractic. i just thought it didn't require much math and it'd be an easy way to make a lot of money. i absolutely suck at math! i have taken algebra a total of 6 times since middle school. SIX TIMES!!! if i don't understand it by now... i'm never going to get it. just a fact. i've not studied. i've studied my ass off. i've been tutored... free (provided by school) and private (uber expensive) and it has not helped! now i'm in statistics. it's one of the courses that is a prerequisite to get into chiropractic school. why am i on this path? i HATE math! i'm beginning to think that i will not like chiropractic. i certainly will not love it.
now comes the question... what do i love? i absolutely love english. proper grammar is next to godliness to me. now i know that i still make mistakes, so please don't go back through this entry looking for grammatical errors to throw in my face, but i would like to think that i have fairly good grammar. also, i like to think that my vocabulary knowledge and use, while certainly limited on lj and blogs where i'm not worried about being so formal, are quite expansive. i adore poetry! i LOVE reading poetry and really digging down into the meaning. not so wild about prose, though. poetry is just fun to me! i like looking up definitions in the dictionary and finding double meanings through the words and phrases used in the poem. one of the reasons i idolise e.e. cummings is his incredible use of double meanings. at first glance, his poems look like utter nonsense, but when you look closer you can find amazing things in his crazy use of words and seemingly erratic puncuation and grammar.
what else do i love? i love people! yes, they are very annoying and i want to kill them, but at the same time i love them. one of the most amusing things in the world to me is socialising and bullshitting with people. i don't bullshit with everyone. like my friends... i don't bullshit with them. but complete strangers and people that i just kind of know... it's the most fun to bullshit with them. this bullshitting is also known as public relations. p.r. mmmm... now we're getting somewhere. now we're getting to a soft place in my heart. i talked to a friend of mine ealier and he suggested law or something of the sorts since they deal with people, often deal with medical cases, and they BULLSHIT like nobody's business. they have to know a lot about law, though. i don't like law. i follow the rules, but i'm an anarchist at heart. ;P what i love is going to galas, parties, etc. and talking to people. acting like i care. knowing that they're doing the same thing. i am fascinated with the artificialness of it all. i'm drawn in by my ability to do it so well. i know what people like and i can imitate it, seemingly giving them exactly what they want. i'm very adaptable. i can read people. when in certain situations, i can act one way and then change to act a totally different way in a different situation.
one last thing... i love business! remember, i suck at math. i certainly won't be able to own my own business or anything like that as it would require math far beyond my own mathematical capacity. businesses need public relations people, though. *ding ding ding* i really think that i would like to go into public relations and work for a business. what do you guys think? your comments would be much appreciated.
really, they would. i don't want to give you guys the wrong idea. i'm not a fake person. i'm a real person with the ability to fake. there's a difference. i have friends and i am very real to them. i don't put up any fronts to the ones i love and care about. i don't put up fronts to the folks that i consider to be friends. i usually don't put up fronts even to co-workers, classmates, and the like. i put up a front when i'm in a social situation in which a front is not only acceptable, but necessary. this is me. this is amber. it's always been me. this is my heart. it's a real heart. it beats just like yours. do not judge me as a fake person. judge me as a real person. judge me as me. but only if you must pass judgement. judgement is not what this entry has been about. my self-defense is merely a disclaimer. i just want your thoughts and opinions on my current career path versus the path of a public relationist. thank you.
now comes the question... what do i love? i absolutely love english. proper grammar is next to godliness to me. now i know that i still make mistakes, so please don't go back through this entry looking for grammatical errors to throw in my face, but i would like to think that i have fairly good grammar. also, i like to think that my vocabulary knowledge and use, while certainly limited on lj and blogs where i'm not worried about being so formal, are quite expansive. i adore poetry! i LOVE reading poetry and really digging down into the meaning. not so wild about prose, though. poetry is just fun to me! i like looking up definitions in the dictionary and finding double meanings through the words and phrases used in the poem. one of the reasons i idolise e.e. cummings is his incredible use of double meanings. at first glance, his poems look like utter nonsense, but when you look closer you can find amazing things in his crazy use of words and seemingly erratic puncuation and grammar.
what else do i love? i love people! yes, they are very annoying and i want to kill them, but at the same time i love them. one of the most amusing things in the world to me is socialising and bullshitting with people. i don't bullshit with everyone. like my friends... i don't bullshit with them. but complete strangers and people that i just kind of know... it's the most fun to bullshit with them. this bullshitting is also known as public relations. p.r. mmmm... now we're getting somewhere. now we're getting to a soft place in my heart. i talked to a friend of mine ealier and he suggested law or something of the sorts since they deal with people, often deal with medical cases, and they BULLSHIT like nobody's business. they have to know a lot about law, though. i don't like law. i follow the rules, but i'm an anarchist at heart. ;P what i love is going to galas, parties, etc. and talking to people. acting like i care. knowing that they're doing the same thing. i am fascinated with the artificialness of it all. i'm drawn in by my ability to do it so well. i know what people like and i can imitate it, seemingly giving them exactly what they want. i'm very adaptable. i can read people. when in certain situations, i can act one way and then change to act a totally different way in a different situation.
one last thing... i love business! remember, i suck at math. i certainly won't be able to own my own business or anything like that as it would require math far beyond my own mathematical capacity. businesses need public relations people, though. *ding ding ding* i really think that i would like to go into public relations and work for a business. what do you guys think? your comments would be much appreciated.
really, they would. i don't want to give you guys the wrong idea. i'm not a fake person. i'm a real person with the ability to fake. there's a difference. i have friends and i am very real to them. i don't put up any fronts to the ones i love and care about. i don't put up fronts to the folks that i consider to be friends. i usually don't put up fronts even to co-workers, classmates, and the like. i put up a front when i'm in a social situation in which a front is not only acceptable, but necessary. this is me. this is amber. it's always been me. this is my heart. it's a real heart. it beats just like yours. do not judge me as a fake person. judge me as a real person. judge me as me. but only if you must pass judgement. judgement is not what this entry has been about. my self-defense is merely a disclaimer. i just want your thoughts and opinions on my current career path versus the path of a public relationist. thank you.