Some thoughts...

[ramzour]

It's not easy to feel like this. It's kind of confusing. I'm not sure whether I'm happy or just confused about it. I know I'm not sad, because I've been there and I know I'm not there now. I almost feel immune to everything. No, not quite...more like I've just been wiped completely clean. I don't feel bad. I'd venture to say what I'm feeling is:

Comments

[teh_jenninator]

I'm sorry that you feel that way. I'm sorry that I feel that way, most of the time. You said everything I wanted to say.

Like you know there's more out there, but you don't know what, so you don't really feel anxious OR content. Waiting. Like the instant between seeing a person raising their fist and the moment of impact. You know the punch is coming--you tense up, you hold your hands up, and the worst part: the other person drops their hand, and you were all prepared for nothing.

Let down. Let down because you weren't punched. Weird how we humans work, huh? Don't let it get you down--we're young. We're going to be young for not much longer--enjoy it. Revel in not knowing what's next, before you get old enough to be omniscient like adults keep telling us they are.