Ahhhhhhhh aaa hahaahahahaaaa ... we live in for countdown ( Read more... )

Why does she tug at my very being ( Read more... )

I had a good night. it was filled with thinking in depth and serious moments.. telling a man that if he desired to end his life.. that if he did not see any reason to see the next day that he should in fact end it.. to talking about my years of youth as an 18 yr old in Helen Georgia with drop kicking a giant plastic santa in the balls and slipping ( Read more... )

for anyone who doesn't know... or even cares. I've had an odd look at life for awhile now. I embrace it. I love living.. don't get me wrong.. but if I died right now oh well. I mean I wish I was dead alot, not suicidal.. not going to kill myself or anything like that.. it's just I wish my heart didn't start beating again that one night. It hasn't ( Read more... )

I'm constantly tired these days of thinking. I'm tired of figuring out every outcome and how I could do this or do that.. and I hate that I can't shut my mind off ( Read more... )

So my cousin is older now. she's adorable when she drinks. We had absinthe and an orange gatorade cooler filled with so much mixed drinks you don't know what to do with em all. I know how to make the gasoline liquors taste like heaven and I gave her guests a party. it was fun as hell.. cuz we started at applebee's and Justin and I were laughing our ( Read more... )

I have no connections now, no holdbacks or regrets. I'm training every night again. getting quicker, getting stronger.. and I just get bigger. yet my pants are falling off.. instead of losing weight in the waist why not my beer gut? argh ( Read more... )

Why is it that when I have a good night.. somehow my one part of my past comes back and kicks me in the pants ( Read more... )

I made a friend who is awesome. I go off of first impressions and regardless of what I might find out.. she's super nice... like way too nice. Where in my protective nature... good lord give her the world. ahahaha. She's super cool too. I mean she actually laughs alot and it's nice.. most of the time it's the guys I hang out with that laugh alot ( Read more... )

I'm so proud of Devon.. she's doing what I always have to do.. have alone time and think about everything.. I've always wanted her to face herself and find out who she really is. I've been trying to get her to do that for like 2 years ( Read more... )