If words were my only option, I still don't think I could find the words. Emotions, feelings, and yes, even fuzzies are in infinite-regress of reoccuring content. But if I told you I was content, would you think those words as truth? If I told you I was confused, would that be more accurate? If I told you that what this is, whatever this is, is a ( Read more... )

my emmer is in town. that makes me so very happy. i can't wait till tomorrow when i get to spend the day with her and mel. wahoo! and i'm off work tomorrow. thank god for sri. he rocks my face off. working a double shift just so i can spend the day with my buddy. i owe him a 6 pack. haha. actually, he owes me one cuz i covered his ass the ( Read more... )

too stubborn. we're too goddamned stubborn for our own fucking good. and nothing is going to get better. because it just seems to get worse every day. things can't keep going this way. i can't continue to be a part of something like this if no efforts are made for improvement. but what's going to lead to improvement? communication. too bad ( Read more... )

something is wrong but i can't tell what.

You know what i fucking hate more than anything? when people are bothered about shit, especially concerning me, and they don't let someone (mainly me)know. they just keep it to themselves and then blow up and are total assholes. i mean, if you're upset, pissed off, bothered about something, just fucking say something about it. how the hell can ( Read more... )

just got off work. whew! it was a crazy day. our espresso machine was whacked out so we had to steam milk on a home machine. it took like 15 minutes to steam 1 pitcher of milk when it usually only takes about 1 or 2 minutes. i wanted to claw my face off. hah. anyway, i gotta go take a test in an hour. planet earth. it's such a bullshit ( Read more... )

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why do i let the smallest little things piss me off? i try not to, but it just creeps up. i hate it.

Since 2:00 yesterday, i have worked for 16 hours. yes. that's right...for the past 24 hours, i have had class for 1 hour and worked for 16 hours. and sleep you ask? a whopping 2 hours sporadically placed between 1:00am and 5:00am. this little girl is about to fall over. that means bedtime cuz i gotta be alive and kickin for valentine's day ( Read more... )