YAY! I have finally dealt with my issue that was bursting in my brain. Me and thy beau are most wonderful now. For some reason it never occurred to me just to talk things through with him...you know...the more logical thing to think about instead of leaving him...not very bright. When I saw those tears streaming down his face I fell in love all ( Read more... )

At my bestest mates house and i need a minute to decide what i want to occur in my life. i want a baby...no i'm not pregnant...and that seems to be the best bet i have going on for me right now. if you knew me you'd understand...but since you don't just smile and nod. it will keep you from being overly confused...if that's possible around me. i ( Read more... )

How do you tell someone you love that you don't want to be with them anymore? I could have potential feelings for someone else and I'm just not feeling it anymore. I'm not worried about what will happen to me...I know I will be fine, but I don't want to hurt him and I don't want anything bad to come of this. I gotta find a way to do it...I dont ( Read more... )

So I just got all my locks cut off. OKAY...not all my locks. But you know...w/e right??? I feel pretty good now that the back of my neck is TOTALLY exposed. I really hope I can dye it black tonight. I am feelin' it a bit more these days. Not like I'm super depressed or anything, i just need to be myself. I don't want to fit in but I'm trying to be ( Read more... )

So I gotta love the school. 22 days left...and they expect me to be thrilled about doign work .Cmon...its not like its college. I'mm finishing my senior year and personally I see no point in me doing any more work. I want to do more important things...like finishing my book, and figure out how i'm going to end up going to a FOB concert. Cuz I need ( Read more... )

I have just been notified that the guy I idolize and admire for his pure talent has a pic of his *cough cough* on the internet. A dear friend, who knows that I swoon for this man, sent me the pic. Though it was quite lovely and blissful I feel somewhat guilty. If I knew how to get in contact with him I'd be like "hey your *cough cough* is all over ( Read more... )

So technically I'm not related to the guy anymore...blood or marriage, but how is it that he keeps fuckin' up my life??? Well not mine directly, but it sure is screwin' with my lil' bro. Poor kid....ever since he got back from his dad's and that horrid ass visit he's been outta control. People always trying to find a fix for everything with ( Read more... )

Wow...today is so much colder than yesterday...and rainy. I'm actually kinda happy about that. This STL heat become so damn muggy. Its nice to cool off with a fersh rain. I have to work today...guess that is what I get for being out of school. I'm flippin' bored. I want to go shopping online but I gotta check the bank account and see if I can even ( Read more... )

When people commit suicide do they ever think of how it will affect the lives of the people around them? ESPECIALLY their beloved children? When tainting a place of great fun and innocence, did he ever think of what it would do to her? To my most beloved friend...my greatest sorrows to your loss and best wishes for you to realize that everything ( Read more... )

Here is my first entry. I'm not much of a writer, but getting the words out allows me to release what is in my head without having to talk to anyone about. Not that would mind sharing my thoughts, I just don't think people can understand me totally, which would end up making it a total waste of my time. I don't want to trouble people's simple minds ( Read more... )