well...alot has changed since my last entry. I found out I'm pregnant...again....not sure if i should be happy or scared. I have my first appointment on thursday...I don't know if everything will be ok. I'm scared that the same thing will happen again....and besides i kinda feel that everything is gonna go wrong again. If that's the case it's time ( Read more... )

this weekend was a quite interesting chain of events...went to charles' co-workers wedding...thankfully it was not a traditional flip wedding but little residues here and there made me shudder. sunday i bought a bike...charles, andy, and i went on a short bike ride to blockbuster and back. it was nice and tons of fun...and good excercise (my ass ( Read more... )

all i have to say is that my ex boyfriend is quite funny. yeah i lied and cheated...but hell....get the fuck over it! im not surprised that he cannot be mature about things....comes to show you that he is exactly the same way. you can think whatever you like of me....but you far from know me. im not the same person i use to be... i was concerned ( Read more... )

Well haven't wrote in awhile...starting to be my habit. Talked to Tim today...kinda weird to talk about why i wouldn't date him. I'm really glad I never went out with him...i mean...he's hot as hell and really cool...but I could bet that our relationship would go no where. He has really been going downhill...he has like 6 girls he's seeing...but ( Read more... )

well here's another weekly update. work on saturday sucked big balls....my coworker is really pissing me off. she is a bitch...but hopefully today will be better. i think my coworkers find me weird because i dont talk about my personal life much....but to me i dont feel that it is relevant to disclose...im more to myself. i just have always been ( Read more... )

yeah...that describes how i have been feeling lately. i think i might have an iron defiency again. im not too sure...i just feel tired all the time even if i get tons of sleep. this is how i felt when i had this problem before. im thinking about seeing a doctor, but im scared to see what they might find out. what if it is something more than what ( Read more... )

Im at my parents house....kinda weird to come home once again. i miss it here....i had such a huge room and i had my own bathroom! I was spoiled and got everything i wanted pretty much. but that all has to come to an end eventually. not much has been going on.....work and school as usual. i start my marketing class in like 2 weeks. ive realized i ( Read more... )

well...my parents pretty much threatened me and such...so i can't have my ever so lovely kawasaki ninja ( Read more... )

lately i've been really depressed. i just feel so lacking in alot of areas. I feel fat...but im not gonna sit and complain...im gonna workout now that im not sick anymore! I feel that school doesn't make a bit of sense....esp. accounting! I feel completely helpless and stupid...it seems like no matter how much i read and study i still don't ( Read more... )

well...went back to palos verdes for the weekend. this morning the hubby and i took his parents to trump national golf course for brunch. we saw the lead singer from filter and caroline from the appretice!!! caroline was tiny and i was kinda in aw of her...people always think she is bitchy but i think she is a good business woman. i wanted to talk ( Read more... )