i am reading SUCH a good book right now. id recommend it to everyone. but im not going to unvail the title till im done with it so there. :)

i am so happy to have the ppl i have. the good ppl that will always be there.

i think ill give jen a call.

i am a lucky lucky girl.

its a sin to be this happy. <3 ( Read more... )

i just want to be with my mom.

fuck MA.

but my heart is going in two entirely seperate directions and i dont know which path to follow.

i miss my mom. i love jeff. i cant chose. family or the love of my life. i cant chose.

i just cut my hair all on my own. it looks wicked cute.

i dyed it too. meh... i had to strip the black out so its in an inbetween stage.

only got an hour and 1/2 of sleep last night. :(

i wish i wasnt a problem. i wish i was welcome.

wishes are a waste i am learning. what is the point in it?

i am trying. that is all.

hahahahahahaha!!!

yup thats that.

too good.

btw i dont care.

A few months ago... that might have injured me pretty bad to know that someone who said till forever didnt really mean it. things change and ppl change and im not upset or angry. i am accepting how things are. it is not a matter of blame, i dont blame a single person on either side. ppl grow apart, grow up, move on... its life and im sorta becoming ( Read more... )

so here we are again. i have not updated in a while. not much has been happening. pretty much the same ol' same ol'...

my body continues to go nuts and my mind is finally settling down. i am happy. the past few days with jeff were wicked fun. i had a long convo with my dad the other day, and i am trying my very hardest to not take things to heart ( Read more... )

THE WORLD CUP IS AMAZING!

I MISS SOCCER SOOOO MUCH!

in other news. i got a flat last night. gonna hopfully get that fixed today and get my car inspected. blah.

need to pay my tickets.

been talking more and more about moving to maine.

i dont wanna leave certain ppl. but i need to look out for me you know. with what i do have... it is not enough. i ( Read more... )

breaking news. i love my boyfriend.

oh yeah! btw... i might be moving to maine.

that was the real news if you didnt catch on. the two tie into eachother. they relate i suppose.

things may finally start falling together. i just felt so happy. i am excited and i feel extremly hopeful.

i dont know what i am doing. i dont knoe what i am feeling, but one thing i do know is that it is wrong... i think it is at least... and its gonna burn me if i take ne action towards it. i always go by my heart... this time... i think it could get me into trouble ( Read more... )

things are good. i have been enjoying my writing. it is helping me get focused.

i am overlooking my potential... i am overlooking my life. i will change. i promise.