Drowning in a bathtub, at least it is half full!

[randompseudonym]

Oh crap, it isn't midnight and imma 'bout to pass the fuck out. Today was nuts I was all over place. I woke up drunk on emily's couch without a blanket because I passed the fuck out. She had to go to work and I drank more beers and talked to Spike and Cat for like an hour

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[_digitalpaper]

you never told me about an underage drinking offence

[randompseudonym]

Yeah I thought I said something to you. It isnt a very big deal though.

[nfinitedreams]

upside of brookfield...its so close to nicole! ive been really super busy with school (i had 3 exams last week and a big paper due this week) so im not really up for hanging out at the moment...too much pressure.
anyway, feel free to call me. i remember when i was so sad in platteville and youd call and cheer me up. whatever happened to those times? oh yea, i left that place and came back home; however, you know that we can both still use some cheering up once in a while:)

[randompseudonym]

We can hang out soon, why don't you give me a call next time you feel like seeing me, I would love to see you soon.

[nfinitedreams]

Definitely. Just let me know when it is best to get a hold of you. Sorry if its later rather than sooner (because of the school situation), but I have off a whole month from school the mid of december to the mid of janurary, so if it doesnt work out before then, I promise it will during that time.

[randompseudonym]

Well I am pretty much free all the time. I don't have much to do, I am sorry you are so busy with school, that must suck.

[agentbea]

Theres a bigger picture here in my perspective. Because feelings you feel and they are real, and when you had feelings for people, and had a feeling they had feelings back, they were real and you still ignore them in this rant.

Simply I wholeheardly believe that you cannot love others unless you love yourself. Maybe that has something to do with your problems, maybe its completly irrelavant. Its just something to ponder. So in other words, maybe the ones you love get pushed away becuase you are not ready yet to love them. You can give them the world only if you apprieciate yourself, your worth in its entirity.

And i know you didnt ask for my say in this but hell we're still LJ buddies so i figured why not.

A different perspective never hurt anyone if they are truely openminded.

[_digitalpaper]

you cannot love others unless you love yourself

i agree with this, but i would say it's more like you can't love others in a healthy way unless you love yourself. because i believe that allen loves, but i don't think he loves in a very mature/healthy way. self love i think would help solve this problem. i think that he disagrees.

I dont want to be an ass

[randompseudonym]

I'm not what one would entirley refer to as mentally healthy. So what if I put people before I put myself.
I do not care about myself because all people have ever shown me that there I am not worth caring about. Bunch of fucking naysayers, why doesn't anybody ever show by example?