another night without him.

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 Last night was one of the first nights that I've actually layed in bed and cried. Zac put me to bed and he was so cute and everything was good and then I just sat there and started thinking about how much I really miss Matt and how everyone is changing day by day. They're not drastic changes or anything but obviously we're all going to be

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Everyone is allowed to grieve differently. Last week was the one year mark since my grandma died. And I couldnt stop crying. It was the first time I've really cried about it since she died. It felt good in its own way.

And people definately do change. Look at our friendship with Matti since Travis died. I havent seen matti since. And we rarely talk. I really miss him as a friend.

sometimes its nice to cry yourself to sleep.
take care kiddo