brighter days

[rankida]

Well, since my last entry was pretty depressing...but I've felt a lil better the past few days...still struggle with self-image stuff, but that's a non-stop problem for me anyway...it doesn't help that there's been a bunch of good but unhealthy stuff around recently for me to eat...don't feel like I have much discipline, but I'm tryin' to work on

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[iggin]

hey miss rankin, sorry to hear you're feeling down, but I just thought you should know that I'm willing to hang out anytime...and if you ever wanna talk please call me, cause there is absolutely nothing you could tell me that would make me not want to be your friend (nothing at all, seriously...even if you told me that you secretly harbor feelings of murder against me) anyways, ummm eat a cookie, it'll make everything better...oooo and ice cream. you're definitely the most disciplined person I know, no worries there. hooowever, I am procrastinating on responding to email, eating lunch, and reading a chapter for speech, boy do I wanna sleep, sounds so good, okay well seeya

[rankida]

lol, well just so you know, I don't secretly harbor murderous feelings against you. =^) I think my problem recently is a confidence thing and when I'm face to face w/people, it just seems different sometimes...like, I know I can talk to quite a few girls about lots of personal stuff...it's just hard to get started...I used to be really good at the random "so this is going on..." stuff, but not so much anymore...I need to practice that again, I guess. =^) but yeah, I haven't been that disciplined this week...I keep fluxuating in lbs and it's frustrating me...but c'est la vie, I guess... Anyway, thanks Janet. =^)

[squirtxero]

I don't believe there's any need for you to worry about your weight. Your beautiful! I know, but you deserve to treat yourself once in a while, take the time to do that now while the foods there in front of you! when your depressed you wanna eat those kinds of foods as it is! so ya might as well! I mean! I've been there, many times before! But Im not the type to step on the scale on a regualr basis. so when I do (like at the doctors when i get sick) it shocks me! I know how you feel to jump up a few pounds! but I've (kinda sort of) desided, if you don't notice a difference in the way you look, then whats a few pounds? I mean, look at me! I've let myself slip many times, most people don't notice it. and then of course I regreat it, and then take the wrong route to try and fix it! just promise me you won't do anything foolish that will harm yourself or your well-being ok?! I love and care about you! for crying out loud! I see you almost everyday! anytime you need to talk Im here! ok?! anytime. . .I mean it! and about the school work, I

[rankida]

The only thing about the few extra pounds is that I've noticed some of my clothes fitting different...and that's not great...and I'm pretty good, I guess, at being disciplined after a splurge, like eating healthier the day after...and I know I'm on the "lighter end" of what someone my height should weigh, but 1: I've got Prom coming up w/Nate, so I wanna look and feel great for that and 2: summer's coming and that means swimsuits and laying out in the sun! I'm looking forward to the sun, but I'd like to get back down to what I was before summer's here...I've had a certain weight in mind recently that I've never been and would like to be...but I'm feeling motivated again to stay on the "healthy track"...it's just hard when people tease me about how healthy I try to eat, too...but people don't see it when I slip...ach, it's all complicated anyway... But thanks for the support, Jazz. You're so awesome! Love ya!