Comments | raotzu: The alcohol, I hope it burns coming out

raotzu

The alcohol, I hope it burns coming out

Jan 12, 2005 20:05

Hmm. I havent truly updated in a while. I have been sober since December 11, which really isn't any kind of a feat because I was in Fort Collins pretty much the whole time, and my best friends don't drink. Tonight, however, is the first wasted wednesday since arriving back at UNC. My roommates drink. My supposed friends drink. I am essentially ( Read more... )

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moonmarket January 13 2005, 03:33:32 UTC

I wish I had some amazingly wonderful words to say to you in response to the first topic, but as I'm in a similar position, it would not be wise of me.
And when you start working at Finest you can put a star on my application too? :) Good luck.

raotzu January 13 2005, 04:14:30 UTC

Fo sho. However I would be workign at the greeley one.

simplypekyulear January 13 2005, 05:52:58 UTC

Maybe words on a page don't mean enough, but it's been sufficient for me to begin other things. Try it out; when you start, you write different words than when you finish. Write a poem or a song, and then read it over. Go smoke a cigarette (or drink a glass of water, whatever you non-smokers do. I'm out of touch) and then come back and read it again. Then write another one. There are other techniques I use, too. Try attaching your feelings to related imagery. For example, I use Fog or other kinds of obscurances (NOT A WORD) to analyze my feelings or blocks to that. Or, as with the old psychoanalytic technique, put a pen to paper and flow. Write whatever comes out. Words, a picture, whatever. That picture that you drew in one of my poetry notebooks is a prime example. (When we were on the way to Disney-park) words accentuated by visceral imagery made for a telling picture of what you felt at that moment ( ... )

simplypekyulear January 13 2005, 05:53:18 UTC

I hope that was at least mildly amusing.

userblackrose January 13 2005, 09:19:50 UTC

I'm not the coolest person. I'm not the smartest person. But, I am one of the best listeners. If you ever need me... Drop a line. 970 226 2436.

-The Pink Liz

So sad for you anonymous January 14 2005, 19:38:21 UTC

All vacation I wanted to connect with you, but couldn't quite figure out how to do it. I know you're in pain, but I don't know how to help, or even if I can. I get the releationship thing, too. I was desperate for a relationship in high school and college. And the dorm scene just doesn't cut it. Getting into higher level specialized classes can help. Maybe if you can get involved in something off campus that will help. Ultimately, you just really need to find a group that suits you, and that's not easy. But keep looking. The Finest would be the absolute coolest job for you.

I am so impressed with your decision to avoid using alcohol as a crutch. It's shows a lot of character and maturity that you've figured out that whole thing as early as you did.

Depression: Thought about counseling? Thought about the spiritual end of things?

I love you.

mom