In Memory of my Father

[rappelezmoi]

Not an hour goes by that I don't contemplate picking up the phone and calling my father to find out how he's doing or tell him what's new and exciting with me because since I have been married and lived nearly 3000 miles away from him, it had become a routine thing. Of course, his number isn't my phone anymore but I had it memorised and could

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[wahlee]

he sounded like an awesome guy.
i'm sorry he's not around anymore for you.
my father died of cancer years ago also.
i still miss him.

[rappelezmoi]

a lot of people keep telling me it will get easier for me but right now, I just feel kind of abandoned and alone. I still have my mom and my sisters but it's not the same. thank you.

[rappelezmoi]

Thank you.

[ramaba]

Thank you for sharing all that. I can't imagine what you're going through, but this gives some idea.

I have some issues with my own parents (though never divorced) and I have seen my father incredibly ill. But I have no idea how it will go when they go.

Sigh. I'm so sorry.

[rappelezmoi]

It's a strange thing because I have known for a while that my father was going to die but you can never truly prepare yourself.

And thank you.

[christyedna]

Call me if you need a hug, or even just one shoulder. :-*

I love that photo of you guys. I can definitely see now how Dante looks just like you. Give the little dude a hug for me too.

[rappelezmoi]

Thanks. I appreciate that.

[vodgut]

I don't know what to say, except, I'm sorry, and this was very well written. In a way, it's a bit of a wake-up call for those of us who haven't lost a parent.

Perfection is overrated. 'Mistakes' are what often make people interesting.

[rappelezmoi]

I wasn't really sure anyone would read the entire thing but I appreciate that you did. This is truly the hardest thing I have ever been through. I thought I was ready but it's harder than I thought.