Can
You Open My Safe?

1st
Number:

Number of guitars I own.

2nd
Number:

Bad karma always comes to me in this number

3rd
Number:

My Geek Squad badge number. Clues ( Read more... )

So I managed to get called an asshole by one of my very good friends. Sad part is that I did deserve it and it was over something to fucking stupid and insignificant. For the most part, I'm pretty apathetic about everything that goes on with my life. I basically have no ego whatsoever and that's probably a very bad thing because I sell myself ( Read more... )

I just absolutely hate it when I'm just so dead tired after a long day, yet my body totally gives up the desire to just crash and fall into a comatose. I even gave up a rare chance to hang with some good friends in an attempt to fall into a warm bliss of slumber. My mind just seems to be running all over the place lately. I keep having ( Read more... )

So I'm back home after a fun filled day of snowboarding with Amanda and biffing it on jumps at Brundage Mountain. I know I'm probably not at the point where I feel I can handle getting involved with someone but I've been having the tendency of going with my instincts even though they may get me in trouble. She's an absolutely nice person and I'm ( Read more... )

Wow! It's been a really fucking long time since I posted here! And I really do appologize for not responding to those that commented in my last post. I want to let you all know I am doing pretty ok for the most part. I'm still playing and making music, I have a pretty cool job and money matters probably stress me out the most. I've gone ( Read more... )

I really could use some help. I don't like to ask for help unless I absolutely have to. I'm broke and I just got forced out of my house over a certain person's drunken rage and I refuse to go back. The swelling has gone down at least. I won't have money for a month. My next paycheck will be withdrawn for bills. So finding an apartment will be ( Read more... )

I can't begin to explain how I felt after really sitting down and listening to this song for the first time. After a month of absolute hell and chaos, it seems this song has given me the closure that I so very need. Almost like I'm walking into the edge of the horizon at the end of a movie before the credits are rolled. I've often described this ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been quite awhile since I updated this thing. I don't know where to begin. As far as my belief system, I don't know where the fuck I fall under. I'm definately not an atheist, I'm not someone you would call a Christian and I don't fall under agnostic. Yes there are times I don't really care but I think I do care in the end. What do ( Read more... )

After months of deliberating what was wrong with me, I'm sorry to disapoint everyone to say that there really isn't anything wrong with me. That is to say, there wasn't anything wrong with my head to cause me to feel how I did. I cut off some "fat" in my life. And it's extremely refreshing. It took a hard kick in the balls for me to really see ( Read more... )

I have an uncomfortable feeling
Where my mind tells me completely different things
One can be happy
The other sad
One reasonable
The other rebellious
I end up hurting those I love the most
I really don't mean to
I know how to fix my mind
So I blame myself
And drown in my own pity
I didn't choose to be this way
So why must I constantly fight these