Death Death in my house Watching someone die The hospital in my living room Unknown family members Silent stares Lost memories The sound of labored breathing Upcoming mental breakdowns Losing chances Not caring enough Caring about the wrong things Lost privacy Frailty
Not getting my Govenor's School resume turned in because I'm scared.
I always just try to appreciate the person's existence. That's even if I don't feel like I miss them as much as I *should*, or care about them dying as much as I *should*.
I'm still very much a sociopath in many ways, so I can't technically be sad about or miss anyone- but I can try hard to appreciate their being here, even if I wasn't as close to them as I should haven been, or feel awkwardly about their loss because of stuff between me and that person (or lack of stuff between me and that person...)
You can be afraid if you want to; there's nothing wrong with that. We're here to talk to you if/when you need it.
*hugs* I'm sorry I haven't been here for you lately on LJ. But feel free to call me anytime, literally. If you call my cell, it's free. ^__^ So call me when you need something, when you're feeling down, whenever you feel like it, I'm here for you.
It's easy to be scared, it's human nature, sadly. But don't worry, not EVERYONE'S dying anytime soon. I'm sorry about your.. grandma, right? I'm sorry.
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Death in my house
Watching someone die
The hospital in my living room
Unknown family members
Silent stares
Lost memories
The sound of labored breathing
Upcoming mental breakdowns
Losing chances
Not caring enough
Caring about the wrong things
Lost privacy
Frailty
Not getting my Govenor's School resume turned in because I'm scared.
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I always just try to appreciate the person's existence. That's even if I don't feel like I miss them as much as I *should*, or care about them dying as much as I *should*.
I'm still very much a sociopath in many ways, so I can't technically be sad about or miss anyone- but I can try hard to appreciate their being here, even if I wasn't as close to them as I should haven been, or feel awkwardly about their loss because of stuff between me and that person (or lack of stuff between me and that person...)
You can be afraid if you want to; there's nothing wrong with that. We're here to talk to you if/when you need it.
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It's easy to be scared, it's human nature, sadly. But don't worry, not EVERYONE'S dying anytime soon. I'm sorry about your.. grandma, right? I'm sorry.
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