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looking at jag and realizing his haircut and weight training could be his way for compensating for his high pitched and depending on who you ask, effeminite, voice. he's been called a girl every since he's started i'm guessing. i wonder if he realizes it purposely, what he does to disprove everybody. either way when i think about it, it depresses me. he has to assemilate his masculinity because his voice is like a women's? lol wtf is masculinity.
what the fuck is anything..
it's one of those moods where i hate everything. i cry for 10 seconds. i'm back to normal and regret ever thinking something that would make me uncomfortable. but i'm still paranoid. and i have every reason to be.
i'm damn tired. and thinking about how much i hate when i realize people like to see me cry or react because i don't react usually. why are people so fucked up
it makes me worse....
some added paranoia to that crippling social anxiety with a side of cluttering. what a great life.