I want a fire. Not a fire in my fireplace. In my heart. I want the kind of passion that just drives me beyond what I could try to drive in myself and the kind that makes every single narcissistic thought move to the back of my head and my sole focus in life is: love God, love others. WHOLE HEARTEDLY. I WANT THAT. I hunger and thirst for something ( Read more... )

Today in choir we were talking about our song "Horizons" and what it's meaning is and how we can better understand the song and expression so that we can give that off to the audience. The song is about the bush people from a tribe in somewhere in Africa that got invaded by the British and were killed off. Anyways, we are talking about a section of ( Read more... )

I really have an urge to watch the movie "Pretty In Pink" or some other easy, mellow 80's movie. But I won't get to today because I have a monster load of homework this afternoon and I should probably get on that. So far I've had lunch and watched the Disney movie "Pocahontas" and haven't done a single article of homework. Oh well ( Read more... )

I came home sick today. AGAIN. This is the third time since quarter started and quite frankly, I am SICK of being SICK!!!

AAAAAH.

I left school today. Again. Not because I skipped. I was sicky. I think my medicine has an effect on me and my tolerance for mandarin oranges. I can take my medicine and eat regular oranges and feel just fine and dandy, but when I eat mandarin oranges, it's like I become mandarin-intolerant. I used to always eat oranges before my new medicine. So ( Read more... )

Today is my half birthday. I am OFFICIALLY 16 1/2. Nobody told me happy half birthday. I told my mom it was my half birthday and her response was "no it isn't." Yes it is. Then she counted. And just said "oh ( Read more... )

life can be a funny little thing. I care so much about things that are really not my problem to worry about and I get all pent up with these thoughts and problems and when I think about it. . .will this even matter? How is this affecting my future? Sure, part of me says it greatly affects my future, but part of me says, well if God really knows ( Read more... )

I change my mind. Life is good.
I'm on my way to finally getting things going. I hope. God is already answering prayer. I'm still praying that it all works out though. For the meantime! Yay God for what you've done so far!

I don't know what to think right now. I feel like I want to just have a breakdown and get all of this released but I know that in reality nothing will be released or made better by just having a meltdown. I don't know what to do. I tried e-mailing. I tried calling. Neither worked to reach the person. What if I never get to talk to them again? I'm ( Read more... )

I come home from Mexico and life just. . .happens. I don't know what I was expecting. A day. . . a week, maybe, to unravel myself. pick my own thoughts, and figure all these emotions and discoveries out. But life won't stop for me. Time won't stop. I returned to school with a heavy heart and at the same time a rejuvenated heart. My day was rather ( Read more... )