Hm, dun get me wrong, I know how it is to have a crush for a long time on someone. One that won't go away. Buuut.
In the end, you have to decide: What's better -- Familiar uncertainty or unknown happiness?
People have a way of sticking with one person that keeps being wrong for them, just because they haven't felt that way for someone else... yet. That "yet" is a big key. If you don't let go of the familiar, you'll never welcome the unknown. Not that it'll be easy, but I'll tell you, it'll be better when that real deal does come along.
And either way, giving this person time to decide who they are is also key. Nobody can love without knowing themself first. :)
Woo... maybe I've been at the office too long, too... Sorry if I ramble. >.
It actually feels more like a choice between familiar certainty, and very well known unhappiness. People often also tend to stick with something or someone they can't get. I think what I have, and had, and nearly lost completely because of him, is that "real" that has come along. Neither my bf nor I, despite being split up for the time being, can see ourselves being away from each other. As for Eric, it's not really a question of me knowing him, or him knowing himself. Not any more anyway. It's just that I can only take so much, and after so long, it just seems like the closer we get and the better I know him, the more I realize that not only will I never have him because he would never want me, but that, frankly, there are too many problems he himself has that I don't think I would want to bother dealing with either. I guess in a way it's a good thing that my bf and I split up and I got a chance to get REALLY close to Eric, and I guess also in a way a good thing that what happened happened. I got a chance to see what I couldn't
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Ack. Eh, this is the most recent non-friend viewable post here, so I'm gonna say it here. I'm gonna guess that by the time I bumped into ya over the weekend, things were better, hehe.
Here goes: HIYOHHHHHHHHHHH! Dude! Great to see ya again! It was a crazy time at Kains, and it was cool to be there and see folks like you again. Eh... I'm PRETTY sure I had met ya before, lol. Anyway, great stuff, and I hope to see ya again sometime soon. Best wishes.
Nah, if it's something I don't want others to see, I post it elsewhere. Having trouble remembering who you are, though. Might you be the person whom I scared the heck out of while driving you in my tiny Festiva car on the way to a funeral?
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In the end, you have to decide: What's better -- Familiar uncertainty or unknown happiness?
People have a way of sticking with one person that keeps being wrong for them, just because they haven't felt that way for someone else... yet. That "yet" is a big key. If you don't let go of the familiar, you'll never welcome the unknown. Not that it'll be easy, but I'll tell you, it'll be better when that real deal does come along.
And either way, giving this person time to decide who they are is also key. Nobody can love without knowing themself first. :)
Woo... maybe I've been at the office too long, too... Sorry if I ramble. >.
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HIYOHHHHHHHHHHH! Dude! Great to see ya again! It was a crazy time at Kains, and it was cool to be there and see folks like you again. Eh... I'm PRETTY sure I had met ya before, lol. Anyway, great stuff, and I hope to see ya again sometime soon. Best wishes.
*teh hugs*
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Glad to hear you're back in school.
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