my life sucks. I suck. my girlfriend's the only aspect of my life that's any good, and I'm always upsetting her and making her hate me. it's like I try to make myself miserable sometimes. I try to live each day at a time, and make each one feel like maybe it was worth something. Days like this make me wish I hadn't woke up at all, and that I ( Read more... )

So the grounded life is pretty dull and frustrating, for the most part. This whole past week of only school and work has been pretty much hell. This weekend has been good though, so it looks like everything is going to get a bit better ( Read more... )

It's been about a year since I've had a blog of some sort. I just realized my old ass xanga was still up. I quit posting in it once I made a myspace, but I got rid of the myspace, because it was sucking the life out of me, and I was scared my evil insane mother would find it and flip out ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here home alone right now. There's a plumber downstairs trying to put in a new water heater and he's about to flood my whole downstairs. I really miss Vlada right now. Saturday night was pretty much my last wild night of my life at home. I finally got caught drinking and smoking pot. There was some kind of freaky sex type things ( Read more... )

happy three months to me and Vlada alright everybody!

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It's the last day of a pretty long break from school. It's been fun, I guess. I spent a lot of time with Vlada, which of course was excellent. I didn't work too much, I got to sleep in. I got drunk again since my last entry, with Andy in a hot tub, doing some man bonding or something. Tamir showed up and did the whole shamu show. I called up ( Read more... )

You know , sometimes, I don’t know why ( Read more... )

Yesterday was pretty shitty. I finally got caught stealing food from my work, and I almost got fired. My boss made me feel really bad and he gave me a 15 minute lecture about it. It wasn't even like angry, he's one of those guys that just doesn't get angry. I'd rather get yelled at then get that long drawn out dissapointed kind of speech ( Read more... )

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I think Camdizzle is coming back down to California. He's gonna live with me, or Brandon, or Blake. Hopefully things will be going more awesome than ever. Between my best friends being all back together again, and the greatest girlfriend ever, I don't see how things could be much better. I hope I'll be in a better mood by then than I am now, ( Read more... )