Wish my final entry could be a good one, but I'm afraid it's not. Yeah, you guessed it-another night of absolutely horrible sleep. My nose is having another bad spell, so I'm snoring and woke up having to pee, and at one point, I had a foot cramp as well. There's always something no matter what I do. Honestly, I'm just about ready to give up trying ( Read more... )

Another night of sleeping shitty, but I'm up now and having a second cup of coffee. Looking forward to 2025 as it gets closer and hoping it's better-the year I finally get rid of this fatigue, or at least most of it. Each day that I wake up feeling anything but refreshed only ups my determination to get that damn CPAP back and get used to it.

Good ( Read more... )

After I scold Jessie (not directly) in my mind or journal for not checking in more often, I end up feeling bad-especially since there usually seems to be a reason why, or so she says. Anyway, we got to chatting a bit, and she's not as anti-women as I thought. She said that while she agrees abortion is okay in cases of medical emergencies, rape, or ( Read more... )

Is Jessie really a true friend if she often takes forever to respond to my messages? I understand that she works and has health issues, but still. Aly also worked and dealt with health problems, yet she never left me hanging for days-or even weeks. Sometimes I wonder if Jessie is avoiding me because of our differing political views.

Maybe it’s wrong ( Read more... )

Decided to take clonazepam last night because I was having trouble falling asleep. Woke up feeling a little hungover. The night was full of nightmares, although not the kind I need to worry about. I don’t think the clonazepam had anything to do with it. This is just my usual pre-demented nightmares.

In one dream, I was at a mall that was virtually ( Read more... )

Wish I had something interesting to say, but yesterday was like any other day. The main highlight of my life is what it has been for a while now, and that's fatigue-along with the stress, of course. I worry about how long it's going to take to get resolved and if it's even going to be resolved in the first place.

No new spots, so that's good.

Other ( Read more... )

Slept reasonably well, even though I didn't wake up feeling very refreshed. I still do have sleep apnea, after all.

Dear Tom was kind enough to clean our small fans yesterday. We have ceiling fans, but we also have portable fans to reach areas where the ceiling fans don't reach well, and they were filthy. I would have cleaned them a lot sooner had ( Read more... )

Yay, I have a little more energy today! I still woke up a million times-once due to struggling to breathe out of my nose and finding one side completely blocked-but I was able to fall back asleep quickly enough thanks to the Clonazepam.

My dad briefly showed up in my dreams, but I don’t remember what was said.

Then I was witnessing or watching a ( Read more... )

Ugh, woke up a dozen times or more. I snored 3 or 4 times and seem to be bouncing back and forth between parents and termites in dreams. Last night, I was staying at a hotel with my parents and one other person on the top floor. Some guy that worked there told us we had to move down a floor. I said, "Are you kidding? There are four of us. I can't ( Read more... )

And we're back to the breathing issues and broken-up sleep. ☹ Knew I would be sooner or later. Yesterday, I noticed my nose was getting stuffy again, and I woke up struggling to breathe through my nose a few hours after I crashed. Naturally, this left me tired when I got up later on. That wasn't the only time I woke up. Seems like I woke up half a ( Read more... )