I slept a whopping 10 hours! Ten hours! Just like the day before, I had energy for hours but lost it way too soon. Tom says it's just going to take time to recover. Hopefully, he's right. I still have sleep apnea and haven't gotten the CPAP yet either so that’s a factor too. It's going to be a while, but the clonazepam is definitely working wonders ( Read more... )

I saw Rhonda yesterday and felt really awful when I first got there. I was horribly exhausted and anxious, but it wasn’t the anxiety I get from the medication if I’m not careful. It was just being wound up from feeling so shitty and hopeless. My first BP reading was 210/90! The top number eventually dropped to the 160s and then finally, the 130s. ( Read more... )

My fatigue has been off the charts, and I’m feeling more hopeless than ever. Maybe when I see Rhonda in a few hours, I can get some answers, but I’m not holding my breath. I hate how much longer it takes to get things done the old-fashioned way. I miss Galileo so much!

Anyway, I’ve been really wound up, and not because of any medication. I’m worried ( Read more... )

I hit a new low of 154.1 lbs and the plants are adorable and look healthy!

I might finally be getting better!!! Huge relief after having such a rough 8 or 9 days! Just a little short of breath when laying down just now.

Here’s the thing: I slept for 6 hours, only waking up briefly here and there for no apparent reason, which is normal for me as an ( Read more... )

I’m still struggling with constant sleep disturbances and overwhelming fatigue. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll even have the strength to walk into Rhonda’s office on Monday and the dentist’s office on Wednesday.

On top of that, I’m still dealing with this cramp-like sensation in my lower abdomen, and yesterday I noticed a spot on my underwear. The ( Read more... )

The liver test seems to have disappeared altogether, but my thyroid antibodies are at 135 when they should be under 9. So, the attack is still going on. I'll have to ask Rhonda if this would stop with a thyroidectomy.

Anyway, it's not a very happy 59th birthday at all so far. I'm not quite as breathless, likely caused by the medication. This is the ( Read more... )

I skipped today’s dose. I’m still a little winded and anxious but getting a bit better. I still have a lot of fatigue too, but I think I’ve finally stopped suffocating in my sleep. That doesn’t mean I’m free from nasal issues or sleep apnea, but at least the medication side effects are slowly being eliminated-unless it’s connected to something else ( Read more... )

We can't figure out how the hell she knows, but Tinkerbella can tell when groceries are about to be delivered. She always gets excited when they're on their way. It must be something in the way we behave that clues her in.

Either way, it scares me to think I might suffocate awake anytime I feel anxious, CPAP or not (though I'm so desperate to get ( Read more... )

Although I managed to get more sleep, it’s been another long and shitty day for me. I’m utterly exhausted and still quite worried. I got about 8 hours of sleep, but it was far from restful due to numerous disturbances. If it wasn’t trouble breathing, it was a nightmare about someone strangling another person, or me having to get up to pee, or the ( Read more... )

I'm going to start drafting this entry as I lie here feeling exhausted, depressed, anxious, and totally hopeless. Damn, do I miss my healthier days! I miss so many aspects of the old me, but I fear more and more that these things are permanently in the past. The harder I try to take control of my health, the further it seems to slip away. I just ( Read more... )