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Decisions...
Right now I am caught up in a black hole of decisions. And not one of those decisions ends happily for everyone. Do I go along with what makes others happy or do I take the selfish route and do what makes me happy. Most I'm sure would go with the more obvious, but I just have such a hard time making decisions that affect others as well as my self ( Read more... ) -
Time to revive?
So it's been years since I've used this little blog site. Having come on here to review something for a friend I feel that perhaps it's time to start using this again. I forgot how nice it was to just let it all sometimes. So here is to the hope of possibly putting this to use. -
Trusting is overrated
My mind is twisting, on the verge of falling apart. My thoughts are scattered across oceans as I try to suppress all that I feel right now. At the risk of sounding emo I don't want to feel right now. After over 3 years I would've hoped things would've been better not worse. And after allowing myself to become comfortable and trust again. I ( Read more... ) -
I pretend that you're still standing by...
So I finally get to do it. I'm going out to Lakeland Saturday to go to Lance's grave. I haven't been able to go back since the funeral...which was almost five years ago. It will be five years September 16th of this year. It doesn't feel like five years... of course it doesn't feel that long at all, except for the longing and grief I feel has ( Read more... ) -
Busy, busy, busy!!!
As a bee. For some odd reason last semester I felt it necessary to attempt to take 18 credit hours along with the millions of other things that I have going on. As an RA I pretty much have a 24 hour/7 days a week job as well as a part time campus job and still manage to find time to participate in campus stuff. Such as the Vagina Monologues!! ( Read more... ) -
And they're off...
Everyone but me. So that writing thing is going great aside from the fact that I haven't written anything yet. I feel like a huge procrastinator because I don't even really know whta I'm going to write. I have a sort of idea, but no plot and not even any really strong characters. I'm off to a horrible start. Oh well I'm out like a trout in a ( Read more... ) -
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Poll Help -
I have a favor to ask...
I am going to be doing this writing competition thing in November. I'm going to post my writing up here and would like you guys' feedback. Story writing isn't my specialty by any stretch of the imagination, but I think this would be good for me as it forces me to write. So if you guys get bored and want some entertainment stop on by and give it ( Read more... ) -
Down and out...
Had a huge fight with someone tonight... it wasn't even intended, but shit always happens like that. Oh well there's not much to say about it. I'm back in contact with a very old friend of mine. I've missed him. He's going to come and see me some time this week. I'm excited. I also started talking to Gear again. He wants to hang out sometime ( Read more... ) -
Happy Birthday weekend to me....
My Birthday is on Sunday and it looks like my weekend is going to be as much fun as Russian Roulette with a fully loaded gun... not fun. I'll be 20 years old... I guess it's not a big deal... of course I never make a big deal out of anything involving me. Maybe my birthday will good next year. Doubt it I haven't had a good birthday since my ( Read more... )