Did I really choose this?

It's supposed to hurt more before it gets better right?

Well, it's now 2007. The tradition is to make a resolution for the coming year. I don't generally follow this since most resolutions aren't carried beyond the end of january. I prefer to make goals for myself that are independent of any holiday. This year I've decided that I need to stop bottling. That I need to try saying what's on my mind when it ( Read more... )

Can you relate to any of these ?

I know I do.

Well, Christmas is over once again. It was a pretty good day all in all... family and presents, the usual. Now we're heading towards New Year's Eve and it looks like once again I'm hanging with the girls... which is fine. Better than sitting alone in ones room (Which I've also regretfully done before). I'm hoping this year will be a good one. I ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm SLIGHTLY "Merry" now... spending all yesterday baking and wrapping and decorating the tree (yes we're late doing that) kinda makes it hard NOT to be at least a little in the christmas mood.


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Ok, so I've decided I want to go to Maui for my birthday... the best part is I"M ACTUALLY GOING TO DO IT!!!! I'm in the process of booking my flights and since my cousin is living there right now I don't have to worry about a hotel!! I'm SO excited. I SO need a break from everything. I just want to go and sit in the sun far far away from all the ( Read more... )

Ok, so I may have overreacted earlier... Although I'm not happy with my life in general there are certain aspects that I'm ok with. As you can tell I've calmed down a bit.

I AM SO NOT HAPPY WITH MY LIFE IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM!

I WANT OUT AND I WANT OUT NOW!!!

Ok, so you know how as you grow up Christmas just doesn't feel the same as when you were little? I have a theory as to why that is. First of all when you're little the magic of Santa is real. I still remember putting out hay on the front lawn and waking up in the morning to find it eaten and the snow trampled by hooves (I still don't know how my ( Read more... )