I tried so hard to avoid him. I shouldn't have gone to the Tower, now I feel like all my defenses have gone. I feel like one word of his was enough to reduce any defense I could have had and now I'm just feeling empty again. I could have told him why I can't find enough courage to forgive him. But I didn't want to hurt him any more than he already ( Read more... )

Hello Benjy,

I talked to Remus. He seemed to be looking for you.

Amara, are you done with your girlfriend troubles yet?

I haven't seen Ant in ages. He's been avoiding me, I'm sure of that. I just can't seem to fathom why. I couldn't have made him angry. I barely see him. Except for in classes, and then after them he disappears anyway. I would be mad ( Read more... )

I don't know how to describe last night. It wasn't the most pleasant evening, because of what happened at the bar, but what happened after came very close to it. I felt like I got to know this side of Ant that no one would ever be levy to. And the way he fell asleep on me until the next morning when his mum found us like that. She didn't say ( Read more... )

Amara
Bottle of 1968 Shiraz Carbernet with a box of chocolates
"Don't keep worrying about my love life. Take Monty out for a good time with this red wine. Merry Christmas. -A"

Benjy
Bottle of 1967 Merlot with a gold pen
"Be more proactive, treat Remus to a good time out someday. Merry Christmas. -A"

Caius
Bottle of 1968 Chardonnay with a silk tie
"I ( Read more... )

I don't...
I can't believe
It's not true

Am I not good enough? After all this...
why does it hurt so much?

I... Amara? I don't think I'll go for classes. I don't feel too well. Benjy? Can you help me take notes? Thanks.

I spent Halloween night with Ant. It was perfect. Better than anything I could have hoped for, in fact. And for once, I didn't have to worry about being caught by stragglers or being seen by Filch, or about how uncomfortable lying on the cold stone floor of the Astronomy tower was. It was... beyond nice. Simply indescribable.

Even detention was a ( Read more... )

I'm still not entirely sure what happened back there.

One moment I was kissing him. And the next it was out of my mouth.

I had been thinking a lot about it lately, and I was sure after I kissed Regulus. But I hadn't expected to actually say it. It was quite a surprise to myself. I thought I would have been prepared for the kind of reaction he had ( Read more... )

Headmaster Dumbledore,

it is with all due respect that I seek your permission for the abscence of my son, Amycus Carrow, from school for a day. There is an urgent family matter that I must have him attend to. I do beg your understanding on this matter. He will return to school as soon as I deem the matter settled.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Archibald Carrow

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That was admittedly, rather stupid of me. To have told Amara when I knew he was going to blow his top about it. Now I can't even walk past his bed to go out till he leaves the room, because apparently, we are so very mature like that. I completely understand his inhibitions, and his concern. But in the more childish way of putting it, it's okay for ( Read more... )

There must be something terribly wrong with me. That was immensely stupid. That was totally uncharacteristic of me. Maybe this is a symptom of insanity, this random, spontaneous... kissing. First with Amara, and now with.. him. Maybe that concussion hasn't been healed fully. Maybe I damaged some vital part, that's making me feel this way...

I wish I ( Read more... )