it's now midnight...a little after actually...and still no sign of heidi...well...of her speaking anyway...she's still signed into both aim and msn...eh...she's probably sleeping...but still....i'm just getting a wiered vibe from it...:\

well it's now 11:10 and i'm still sitting here drowning in depression and suffocating from lonliness...but hey...thats life...or maybe not..but i'd like to think so...i don't feel so....alone...that way..:\...she's still not on...and still not idle....so i'm still thinking she's avoiding me...:/

well it's 10:40 and heidi isn't on...her names on..on AIM and msn...and i've been on for about two hours now, and her name hasn't even idles :\ she's probably avoiding me, but that's probably me just being paranoid...but still...i still have the worry there :/..eh...

i sit here bored and lonley contemplating things in my head...needed to finish the lyrics to this fucking song...dreading tomorow...family...>.< they all fuckin hate me..whats so good about spending a day with people that all think you're socially unacceptable??? can anyone answer that?

i wish i had the strength ( Read more... )

i got MuDvAyNe's new cd today..it kicks ass...long live MuDvAyNe and all the MuDvAyNiAnS

one more time the fucker burns...
one
more
time

i'm so alone i can't see shit
i'm so fucking cold i can't feel it
and theres nothing in this life for me
and this shit in my face, that i'm forced to see
as you break down my will
i lay perfectly still
as you force feed me lies and deciet
and more fucking bullshit that i can conciev

this is a survey i got of my girlfriends LJ chibi_goth, she got it from someone else, so it's a damn chain thing now ( Read more... )

my friend and i bought a fish today and we started an aquarium...we have one fish in a 10 gallon tank...damn money, didn't have enought to buy more then one cause we needed a filter and some food...

anyway, heidi just called, be back later, fuck off and bye

well, this is my second journal, my girlfriend (who is the most wonderful person in the world for getting up off her butt and editing my post so i dont have typos, all hail the almightly chibi_goth ... who actually enjoys doing this a lot more than i know) set up the account for me, and it looks fuckin awesome...anyway...i also have a dead journal, which i' ( Read more... )