i cant believe i'm writing in this

[rawkandroll]

i really cant tell what i miss anymore. do i miss her, or do i simply miss the company? thinking about this sort of thing gives me a killer headache. could things ever be the same again? will they ever be the same again? its the small things i miss. i miss writing notes and drawings to eachother in a small notebook on a boat headed toward istanbul

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[_burningxalive]

i kinda know the feeling. i can't imagine being completely away from home and everything i know for three whole months straight. i wouldn't have been able to do it. but you'll be home soon, and things will be more normal, though theyll never be the same i guess. but that doesn't gotta be a bad thing. once you get home you could still see her. try the long distance relationship thing like i'm doing. its a little rocky that way, but if you really matter to each other, itll be okay in the end. just enjoy the time youre in england because its doubtful you'll ever experience anything like it again (unless you choose to study abroad again), and know that youll be home soon. i'm finding college isn't as fun and awesome as its cracked up to be, i was talking to ian and he agrees, but you still gotta live it up

[rawkandroll]

we broke up before we left and ive slowly come to grips with it. i just dont knowwhat things will be like next time i see her.

we should have a show where peter blood opens for....

PUKEY!

[_burningxalive]

i didnt know that before. i see.. after so many great times though, i doubt you two would even be reduced to such awkward hugs as i'm sure she's feeling at least similarly. so even if you can't be together, i don't think anything would be awkward.

haha i miss pukey in a way. being in a band was so badass. especially the lying to nuns, playing really loud, being awesome in general, kicking lots of ass, and kicking lots of titties.

[rawkandroll]

im serious. get that keyboard and guitar out. pukey is going to kick titties with rock and roll once again.