An ELF's Love Pt 5
Title: An ELF's Love Pt 5
Genre: Romance, Drama
Pairing: Eunhyuk[guy], Donghae[girl]
Rating: PG13
Summary: What happens when they become closer and keep secrets from everyone else but themselves? Is everyone going to take it well?
Spot for grace_uni
I woke up to the sound of chirping morning birds outside my window, and the bright burning sun. My curtains were open so my room was free access to any wandering light. I sat there reminiscing the days I was back home when I would wake up like this too. Except I wasn't in Korea, except I wasn't so called 'friends' with Eunhyuk's girlfriend, Hyoyeon, except I wasn't in this dream-like state of mind. I was happy back home, where I could watch Eunhyuk from the screen of my computer. Where the only thing that actually could hurt me was him not knowing someone like me existed in this world. Some days it got too much, and I would wake up to a beautiful morning with tears streaming down my face, and some days I'd just be as dead as a walking corpse. Those were the affects of life without him knowing me. But today of all days, I was happy, but not to the fullest. Somehow I just didn't feel like I was at the right place at the right time. Somehow it just felt like I didn't belong here. Like I didn't have the right to be in Hyoyeon and Eunhyuk's life whatsoever.
One love, one love~ The memories are beautiful, always be my girl. One love, one love~ The memories are beautiful, I don't wanna ever say goodbye~
Instantaneously my thoughts of life were interrupted by the ringing of my phone. I looked at the clock and it was only 8:30 in the morning on a Saturday. Who wakes up this early? I grabbed my phone, already having a bad feeling about the caller, and looked at the caller ID. It was Hyoyeon. My stomach dropped. I didn't mean for it to drop. I didn't mean to have these negative feelings for her. But somehow I just do. I can't pin point it though. Whether its because Eunhyuk loves her and I'm jealous of that, or because she has him that's why I'm feeling this way.
"Yoboseyo?"
"Yoboseyo. Hae-ah~ Are you up yet? I didn't wake you up did I?"
"Oh? Ani, aniyo~ I was up already. Don't worry about it."
"Okay then. Well I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch with me and the other girls?"
"Other girls? Who are the other girls?"
"You know, the other members of SNSD."
"Oh. Yeah, sure thing."
"Great! We'll come pick you up after our schedule this morning at twelve okay?"
"Okay sounds good."
After our little talk about our lunch date later today she hung up the phone in a hurry. She must have been really busy to not even say bye. I let out a small sigh. Did I really want to have lunch with Hyoyeon and the other SNSD girls?
"Hae, get yourself together. It's just lunch. Just lunch." I kept repeating to myself over and over hoping that I could at least convince myself of this truth and stop overreacting, and not suddenly cancel on Hyoyeon. I couldn't let myself be that much of a jerk to someone who's treated me so nicely this whole time just because I didn't like the fact that she was dating the one person I wanted most.
Not having anything to do for the first part of the day I decided to get on my laptop and search for new videos on Eunhyuk. I swear I've looked him up so many times he could be ranked as number one most searched.
As I waited for the laptop to turn on there was a ring at the door of my hotel room.
"Who is it?" I yelled not moving from my spot but just eyeing the door like there's not going to be another tomorrow if I opened it.
"Roomservice." answered the guy standing outside my door after what seemed like 10 seconds. I quickly got up and at the speed of light opened the door. I felt so bad for thinking of him being the end of my life that as I opened the door I immediately apologized to him.
"Sorry. Sorry!" I kept bowing and suddenly the roomservice guy started to laugh out loud, but it was more of a mannerly chuckling. That's when I whipped my head up to look at him and ask him why he was laughing at me, but instead of coming face to face with who I expected to be a stranger, I came face to face with.. Eunhyuk. Our faces were barely centimeters apart from eachother, and my breathing stopped.
"Eun-Eunhyuk sshi. W-What are you doing here? At my room?" I could hear the shakiness in my voice and the nervousness. I was nervous, but happy at the same time. This was a feeling I hadn't experienced in a long time.
"I came to say sorry to you, but I guess you beat me to it huh?" I couldn't help but look at his lips and the way they moved when he talked. I even memorized how they moved, but to see it up close and personal was a whole different story. How I had the urge to grab onto him and just kiss him without any relent. I immediately looked back up at him as I realized I was staring at him for too long.
"Oh.. haha. Yeah, I guess." We just stood there awkwardly. I mean we weren't friends, yet, but we weren't total strangers either. "Do you.. want to come in? I mean! Uh... standing here is kinda awkward." There was a rush of fire from my neck to my face, and I was pretty sure that my face looked like a red apple.
"Sure, why not."
So he came in. My room was small. It had a simple living room, a simple kitchen, and a simple bedroom, which were all kinda connected to eachother. The only room that had walls seperating it from the rest was the bathroom, and yet it was still simple and elegant looking.
"This is a pretty humble room you got," he walked to the wide windows that overlooked the city. "And you have a nice view too." Then he just stood there without saying anything. I was standing by the kitchen counter just watching his every movement. He was too beautiful. Really like a shining star, and he wasn't even on stage or on a show or anything like that. Eunhyuk was simply standing by the window. His back was beautiful. From the jet black, short hair, to the broad strong shoulders, to the muscular arms, to the small waist, and to the skinny yet toned legs. He looked absolutely stunning.
"You know," he turned around with that pretty smile of his. Showing his perfect teeth and gums, and as that face came into the picture, it made everything so much better. "I wouldn't mind living in a place like this on my own. But it's kinda far from the company." I closed my eyes for two seconds and just relaxed into his melodic voice. And after those two beautiful seconds I opened my eyes again and we made eye contact. His eyes were so clear and pure. So perfectly shaped with those long lashes bordering them. In Eunhyuk's eyes I couldn't see anything. He covered up so much with those eyes, but somehow it seemed as though I could look into them and tell him anything, and he'd keep it with him forever. And it seemed as though he had so much in them to tell me, but couldn't find a way to.
Who knows how long we stared into eachother's eyes, but as we broke our eye contact it seemed as though I was out of breath. It was such a strong emotional contact, maybe not for him, but for me.
"So, where was I?... Oh yeah~! I came here to apologize."
"Apologize for...?"
"For Hyoyeon yesterday. She was being rude to you when I was going to say something. I'm sorry if you felt offended by it."
"She was being rude?" So I really wasn't just imaging things then?
"Yeah, she told me that she felt bad about it after we got into the car and drove off. Hyoyeon said she would make it up to you somehow."
"Oh.. I see." Somehow as we talked I couldn't make eye contact with him again. It just seemed too awkward after what happened. "So what were you going to say to me last night then?"
"Oh! I was just going to say that you looked cute." He let out a big smile, and my heart rate sped up.
"Uh.. T-Thank you Eunhyuk sshi."
"Donghae-ah, please stop using honorifics with me. We can't get closer if you don't start calling me Hyuk-ah." Eunhyuk said it in such a serious voice it scared me.
"W-We can't?"
"No, cause if you do, I don't want to unless you call me without using honorifics. Araso?" he gave me a smile to indicate that he was joking, but at the same time wanting me to stop using formal language with him.
"Araso.. Hyuk-ah."
And with that he smiled at me again. He's smiled a lot in the past 20 or so minutes that he came here, and I was happy that he did. I could never get tired of Eunhyuk's amazing smiles, not for a second. Futhermore, I'd actually want to see them more and more.
He left after we said our goodbyes and I closed the door.
"Ahhhhhh~~!" I screamed out in happiness as I plopped onto my bed. That had to be the beginning of a great day. Eunhyuk showed up at my door, he made eye contact with me, he called me cute, and he said he wanted to get closer to me. I was happy, no, I was estatic about it.
Then I suddenly remembered about my laptop. My MSN had signed in automatically and I had recieved an offline message from Monkey this morning at 5.
"Who the heck wakes up that early?" Then I read it. "Fishey, you must be sleeping huh? You're so lazy. Anywho, I have a question to ask you. If a person is in a serious relationship with someone and feel that they're in love, but one random day out of the blue a new person shows up in their lives. They both like that person, but one of them seems to be developing some stronger romantic feelings for this new person who they barely know. How do you think the other person in the relationship would feel, and what should the person who's having those feelings for the new person do?"
I started typing back a reply as soon as I read the end of the little note.
"Monkey, I'm sorry that I can't help you in a situation like this. I'm not good with these terms, so sorry again. But I guess, you should keep your girfriend and stop having feelings for the other girl. It could possibly hurt both of them in the end. Sorry if this doesn't help." and I sent it, somewhat regretting that I was butting into someone else's business. Plus Monkey was someone I didn't even know. He was just some stranger online that I started talking to yesterday because of a little arguement over Super Junior. And yet he's already asking me for relationship advice like we're friends.
I looked at the clock and it was almost tweleve, so I shut off my laptop and got ready to go meet Hyoyeon and the rest of the gang.
As I walked into the lobby of the hotel I could already see the van outside waiting for me. And as I came into view Hyoyeon stepped out of the car.
"Hae-ah!~" She ran up to me and hugged me tightly. "Ready?"
"Yeap." I gave her a smile. I was happy to see her. I have to admit I absolutely adore her, but if its something to do with Eunhyuk, I can't help but feel a bit of resent towards her, even if I didn't want to. Jealousy, is a part of who I am. I'm the jealous type of person when it came to relationships and the person I liked.
I got into the car with her, and to my surprise there was no one in the car, even though she said "we" were going to pick me up before. I didn't want to say anything to her about it cause it wasn't like it was that big of a deal.
When we got to the restuarant the other eight members were outside waiting for us. They were all beautiful beyond words. No wonder they were such a big hit in Korea, and the rest of Asia, and across the seas.
"Annyonghaseyo~ Cheonun SNSDimnida." They all said to me. Then they all introduced themselves one by one. As if I didn't know them already. I remember the first time I laid eyes on them online. I didn't like them whatsoever because they seemed too feminine, too girly, too perfect. Everyone liked them, and I couldn't understand why. I thought they were the dumbest girls to step foot on the face of this earth. Because like every other anti fan who didn't like them, I was jealous. I was jealous that they were close to 2PM and them. And then I came across Super Junior and started to like them because of them. I started to see that there were really good singers in the group such as Taeyeon, Jessica, and Seohyun. Not saying that the other's weren't good, just saying that they were the ones whose voices stood out to me. And now to have them standing in front of me looking just like perfect beings, I was amazed.
"Annyonghaseyo. I'm Lee Donghae. Nice to meet you all." I gave them a smile, but I didn't know if it was a geniune smile. I still had lingering feelings from the past in me, so I wasn't all that sure.
After the greetings everyone went inside. I got to sit by Hyoyeon like I expected, but what I didn't expect was the girls to have such a high interest in me. Throughout lunch they kept stealing glances at me, without really saying anything to me. Hyoyeon and I were talking about her schedule, and the one thing we had in common, well it isn't the only thing, but we talked about dance. And after she finished her food she went to the bathroom to wash up. The other girls then surrounded me and started asking me questions.
"Donghae sshi, do you like Eunhyuk?" asked the blunt and straightforward Taeyeon.
I practically choked on my water. "What? Why did you ask me that question out of no where?"
"I don't know. Hyoyeon told us that she thinks you like him."
"What??"
"So do you like him?"
"No!" I shouldn't have said that to them. I shouldn't have said anything to them at all. Somehow I had the feeling this moment was going to bring me trouble later on.
"Well... if you don't like him do you love him?" and just as I was chugging down my water I choked on it and started having a coughing fit.
"Hae-ah! Are you okay?" came Hyoyeon's voice. She had come back from the bathroom and the first thing she heard, and saw was me choking on water.
"Y-Yeah, I'm fine."
My throat had gone raspy from coughing so much, and it felt like someone was constantly stabbing me in the jugular. Hyoyeon had given the rest of them a what-did-you-do-to-her look. She carefully consoled me the rest of lunch apologizing to me on behalf of her members. It was comforting that she actually cared for me that much even though we barely knew eachother. And the only thing that made us know eachother was because I bumped into Eunhyuk at the airport when I first came here.
Her and some of the SNSD members took me back to my hotel. Hyoyeon got out of the car and said her goodbyes to me and gave me a tight hug. As I turned my back on them I could hear whispers and mumbles.
"Hyoyeon-ah, why are you so nice to her? You know she likes him a lot already? Why not just tell her that you don't want her to be around Eunhyuk?" came Sooyoung's voice.
"It's okay. I have him, she doesn't. It doesn't matter that she likes him or not, he loves me and that's what matters. Besides, it's not like he's ever going to leave me for her. She's just a crazy fan 'in love'."
I could hear the disgust in her voice when she said those words. Then I heard the door of the van close and they sped off. Her words were hurtful. I knew all this already, and having to hear it from someone, especially the girlfriend of the man I adored, was too much. I could feel my heart breaking as I took each step to my room. I couldn't see clearly at all. The walls of the hallways in the hotel seemed blurry, like something was in my eyes. I felt light headed, and my heart ached like no other. I could hear her voice and the tone she used over and over inside my head as I opened the door. Then as I went into the bathroom to check my eyes to see if there was anything in them, I felt a hot stream of liquid on my cheeks. I looked into the mirror and saw a sad looking girl staring back at me. She had long brown hair, average looking eyes, average sized lips, and an average body figure. She looked like she had just died and came back but still had the after affects. I was scared for a second wondering why there was a girl that didn't look anything like me standing in my bathroom. Then as I tried to reach out and touch her, I realized it was me. I was the sad looking girl who seemed like she just died and came back. Like someone had just stabbed her in the heart and never healed it. I looked so lonely, so vunerable, so...
Tears started running like rivers down my face, showing no mercy no matter what. I could feel the heaving of my lungs and the whimpers at the back of my throat as I soon realized I was full out crying. I hadn't cried like this in over a year, I haven't cried at all in over a year, because a year ago I told myself that I was going to see Eunhyuk, and until that day comes, I'm not wasting a single tear for anyone else. Now that I actually know that I was crying it seemed pathetic. Little words like that could hurt me at such a deep level. I wasn't as strong as I thought I was.
I don't know how long it had been since I was sitting on the bathroom floor crying out my tears nonstop. But when the cries, and whimpers became weaker and weaker I decided not to pity myself anymore like this.
"Hae, its not the end of the world. You know that all Hyoyeon said was true. You have said those words to yourself hundreds, no, millions of times already. One more time can't hurt this much. Get yourself together and stop crying over a useless thing like this." I had a little pep talk with myself like usual whenever I felt weak. Whenever I felt like I couldn't go on, these little talks with myself helped pull me through. Because in the end, I still have a little bit, even if not a lot, of hope that my dream and hopes would come true one day. Even if that day is far.
I got off the floor, wiped my tears clean from my face, washed it to refresh myself, and went into the 'bedroom' and turned on my laptop. After waiting for a minute or so it came on. My background was the same as my computer at home. Tons of Eunhyuk's pictures were on it, changing from one to another ever ten seconds. My MSN came on and Monkey sent me a message thirty minutes ago. He was still online.
"Dear Fishey, thanks for the advice, and I'll try my best at this."
Fishey: glad that i could be of help
Monkey: hey there, and yeah thanks
Fishey: no problem... btw, i never got your name. what is it?
Monkey: my name's spencer and yours?
Fishey: oh, mine's aiden
Monkey: aiden.. nice name
Fishey: thanks ^^
Monkey: so how was your day?
Fishey: hrmm. it was okay, then great, then it went down the drain
Monkey: why is that? what happened?\
Fishey: well this person called me up really early, and i like them, but not really at the same time. its really confusing. then the person i like shows up at my door, and then i went out to eat with the person who called, and as i was coming back, i heard what she was saying about me. i dont think she meant for me to hear.
Monkey: icic. hopefully you didn't feel bad did you?
Fishey: what do you mean?? how could i not feel bad??
Monkey: well idk, ppl like that just don't know how to appreciate other's feelings
Fishey: yeah, i guess. ... well how was your day?
Monkey: mine was busy like usual. i have so much going on today. woke up extra early to for all that happened.
Fishey: yeah and wrote me a note right before you had to go to do your busy things huh?
Monkey: haha. yeahhh~
Fishey: hey spencer?
Monkey: yeah?
Fishey: if you like someone so much it hurts, should you tell that person or keep it to yourself so that you dont end up making that person feel burdened by it?
Monkey: hrm... well i'd rather regret my actions, then regret never doing it in the first place. its my personal philosophy :)
Fishey: thanks.
Monkey: yeah. no problem.
Monkey: i'm hungry~
Fishey: huh? lol. go eat then.
Monkey: but there's no one home to cook
Fishey: don't you know how to cook?
Monkey: yeah i do, but... too lazy :P
Fishey: HA~! and you called me lazy this morning.
Monkey: :P i'll just get some strawberry milk from the fridge
Fishey: yum. i like strawberry milk too. wanna share with me?
Monkey: nope! its all mine :)) brb
Fishey: alright
And Spencer was gone from our conversation for a while. We had known eachother for barely a day or two and we were already talking like friends. Weird. It's also weird that I'm feeling nervous and my fingers aren't working well at the moment because I was talking to him, and waiting for his replies.
Monkey: back!~~~
Fishey: okie dokie
I had nothing else to say so I didn't write anything else to him. Instead I started looking for the Eunhyuk videos I didn't get a chance to look at this morning.
Monkey: what are you doing?
Fishey: just watching some vids
Monkey: what kind? super junior i'm guessing?
Fishey: woah~~~ how did you know?
Monkey: i'm smart that's why. you gotta learn how to be smart :)
Fishey: psfh :P
Monkey: why do you like super junior so much?
Fishey: hrm. i guess i like them because there's so many of them unlike the other groups. they all have great personalities and different ones at that. they all have their own special talents that make a whole lot of diff. ppl like a certain one. and as singers, performers, dancers, and entertainers they can show the potential of being the greatest out there.
Monkey: icic. well who do you like most?
Fishey: Eunhyuk
Monkey: why?
Fishey: because he was the one who introduced me to them, because he was the one that stood out from the rest of them to me, because he was the one that showed me that there can be more than just listening to music, but enjoying and flowing with music, because he's the one who made me feel again.
Monkey: he did that much for just you?
Fishey: yeah, and i bet he does more for a lot of other ppl out there. he just doesnt know it
Monkey: yeahhh~ i guess
Monkey: well everyone's back so i gtg. besides i've been on too long.
Fishey: kk. bye.
Monkey: bye
Monkey appears to be offline.
I turned off my computer after Spencer got off. I didn't feel like staying on if there was no one on, and I couldn't find any videos of Eunhyuk either. Well the one's that I haven't already watched a million times. So I got up and fell onto my bed. Replaying everything that had happened today in my head once again. Sigh. This was going to be one long trip
***
Weeks had passed after the incident of me hearing Hyoyeon saying that stuff about me. We had gotten farther apart since it was kind of awkward talking to her when I knew how she actually felt about me. On the other hand Eunhyuk and I have been getting closer and closer. As friends that is. It was fine with me that we were just friends. I'd rather have that, than have us not be anything.
One day as I was getting ready to go out for a jog early in the morning Eunhyuk called me.
"Yoboseyo?"
"Yoboseyo. Hae-ah, are you busy?"
"Oh!~ Eunhyukkie, I'm just about to go for a jog. Why?"
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to go eat something with me for breakfast since I won't be able to see you today because of my tight schedule."
"Oh, I see. Well you can come jogging with me and then we'll go eat?"
"Alright. I'll be there in a sec."
"'Kay, bye."
"Bye."
And just as I hung up the phone my door bell ring. It couldn't have been Eunhyuk could it? I opened the door and standing there with a wide grin was Eunhyuk.
"Mornin'"
"You too."
"Ready?"
"Yeah." I looked at how he was dressed. It was as though he knew I was going to ask him to join me jogging since he wore sports shorts, a t-shirt, and running shoes. I just chuckled at him and it made him grin even wider.
We were jogging along the beach, the sun rise in the distance emmitted red, orange, and yellow lights all around, making the quiet road we were jogging on even more beautiful. Especially since the road curved and had tress lined up along the sidewalk.
"You know Hae, I think we spend more time together than me and Hyoyeon." Eunhyuk looked at me.
"That's not a good thing. She might start hating me. Especially since we're not that close anymore." I turned to look at him too. Our eyes met again and I felt my heart pumping blood faster and faster. Not because I was getting exhausted from running, but because we had our little connection.
"She's not going to hate you. She understands we're just friends. Besides she's not the jealous type, and she isn't the type to hate people like that." I could hear the tone in his voice. He sounded kind of mad that I said she would hate me.
"Eunhyuk-ah," I stopped and so he stopped to and turned around to face me. "I'm sorry if I offended you."
"What? No you didn't. What are you talking about?" His voice had a high pitch to it, and he wasn't looking into my eyes. Eunhyuk was lieing to me.
"Eunhyuk, don't act like you didn't get offended. I'm sorry. I really am." And then he looked at me.
"Kenchanayo. It's no biggy." Eunyuk sounded sincere this time and he even placed his hand on my shoulder.
"Okay then."
I started jogging again and he followed me. After our hour long jog we headed back to my hotel room.
"I'm gonna take a shower so don't come into the bathroom. Araso?"
"Araso, araso." Then he plopped down on the sofa and turned on the t.v.
As I got into the shower I could hear the voices from the t.v. He was watching the news about last night's performance at Music Bank. Usually when he watched that he'd be very loud and cheery for his other members, but when it showed him, he'd always have something to criticize about how he performed. Like how he could've made the dance steps smoother, or he should've kept in pace with the others, or she should've not done something with his voice when he rapped even though that made it better. He was very self concious at times. As I got out of the shower I could hear him screaming in the living room.
"Hae! Hae!! You're missing the best performance ever!!" I sighed silently because he was so childish sometimes, but it was cute. It wasn't a bad sigh, but more of a happy sigh that he was here with me at this time and at this moment.
"Hae!! Come watch!!!"
I didn't even realized that his voice got louder and louder, as he opened the door to the bathroom. Luckily I had on a bra and underwear, and the moment he saw me his face turned beat red, and he turned around and closed the door immediately.
"Hae, I-I'm sorry. I t-thought you were done dressing because you turned off the shower for such a long time. I'm really sorry." I could hear his scared lovely voice from the other side of the door.
After I got fully dressed I came out of the bathroom and he was still standing there. His face towards the ground.
"Babo! Don't ever do that again! Araso!?" I yelled at him teasingly as I nudged his head lightly.
"Araso araso." and he finally looked up at me. "Ready for breakfast then?"
"Yeap."
This was going to be the first time I was going out to eat with Eunhyuk by myself even though we've become close friends for a couple weeks now. And during broad daylight too. As we walked through the streets fans of Eunyuk's and Super Junior's stopped and stared at us walking side by side. I knew what they were thinking and whispering to one another. 'Why is oppa with that girl and not Hyoyeon unni?' 'We're just friends.' I wanted to say outloud to them, but didn't have the guts to and just kept walking to the restuarant. When we got there SNSD were just getting out of their car and heading in when Sunny saw us together and nudged Hyoyeon. She turned around and saw us together and walked over.
"Hyukkie oppa, Hae, what are you two doing here together? Oppa, I thought you had a schedule today?" She sounded irritated. This wasn't the first time he blew her off for me. He's blown her off on the phone to talk to me tons of times because we were friends, and he needed to talk to someone about his relationship other than sharing the same feelings that he and Hyoyeon had for eachother to her because she already knew.
"Hi Hyoyeon-sshi." I didn't call her 'Hyoyeon-ah' anymore because I was afraid she'd hate me even more than she did now. Besides I only called her that once or twice.
"Yeah, I do, but I wanted to spend some time with Hae today since I won't have time to see her at all today."
"What about me? You're girlfriend?"
"Since we're all here already lets just have breakfast together. Okay?"
"Fine." She didn't sound fine at all, so he grabbed her shoulders and put his arm around them and started walking towards the restuarant with me following them. I could feel the glares of SNSD as I passed them, and as they walked behind me. Whispering and gossiping like schoolgirls about this and that.
While we ate I didn't say a word to Eunhyuk, afraid that Hyoyeon would glare staggers at me. He sat at the other end of the table, while I sat at the far end with Seohyun and Yoona. They were talking about school and other things younger people talked about. I could hear Eunhyuk and Hyoyeon laughing on the other end, and I wondered what they were talking about. After that whole fiasco we all went our seperate ways. Eunhyuk's manager came to pick him up and SNSD left for their schedule as well. I was left waiting for the bus to go back to the hotel.
Ding!
I opened my phone and there was a text message from Eunhyuk.
'Sorry about before. I'll make it up to you. -Hyukkie^^'
'It's alright, you don't have to. -Hae♥' I texted back. After ten seconds I recieved another text from him.
'No I'm going to. I feel bad~ -Hyukkie^^'
'Fine fine. :P -Hae♥'
'Good:) Well gtg so ttyl. Bye~ -Hyukkie^^'
'Kk. Bye~ -Hae♥'
I closed my phone just as the bus came and boarded it. I selected a window seat and stared out the window. How had I become this close to Eunhyuk? I didn't get it at all. And how had I made Hyoyeon, SNSD, and possibly fans hate me so much now? Questions were all lingering and swarming inside my head as I stared at the passing city and people. Blurry in the somewhat fast bus, and in my unfocused view.
A/N: Sorry for the really really~ long update on the story. I didn't have inspiration to write the story for so long! Hope you liked it and I'm pretty sure the next part to this will be a lot faster than this one. :) And please don't hate me for making Hyoyeon and SNSD seem bad. I really do like Hyoyeon and them, its just the story you know? Haha.... Well comments would be loved. ^^
Genre: Romance, Drama
Pairing: Eunhyuk[guy], Donghae[girl]
Rating: PG13
Summary: What happens when they become closer and keep secrets from everyone else but themselves? Is everyone going to take it well?
Spot for grace_uni
I woke up to the sound of chirping morning birds outside my window, and the bright burning sun. My curtains were open so my room was free access to any wandering light. I sat there reminiscing the days I was back home when I would wake up like this too. Except I wasn't in Korea, except I wasn't so called 'friends' with Eunhyuk's girlfriend, Hyoyeon, except I wasn't in this dream-like state of mind. I was happy back home, where I could watch Eunhyuk from the screen of my computer. Where the only thing that actually could hurt me was him not knowing someone like me existed in this world. Some days it got too much, and I would wake up to a beautiful morning with tears streaming down my face, and some days I'd just be as dead as a walking corpse. Those were the affects of life without him knowing me. But today of all days, I was happy, but not to the fullest. Somehow I just didn't feel like I was at the right place at the right time. Somehow it just felt like I didn't belong here. Like I didn't have the right to be in Hyoyeon and Eunhyuk's life whatsoever.
One love, one love~ The memories are beautiful, always be my girl. One love, one love~ The memories are beautiful, I don't wanna ever say goodbye~
Instantaneously my thoughts of life were interrupted by the ringing of my phone. I looked at the clock and it was only 8:30 in the morning on a Saturday. Who wakes up this early? I grabbed my phone, already having a bad feeling about the caller, and looked at the caller ID. It was Hyoyeon. My stomach dropped. I didn't mean for it to drop. I didn't mean to have these negative feelings for her. But somehow I just do. I can't pin point it though. Whether its because Eunhyuk loves her and I'm jealous of that, or because she has him that's why I'm feeling this way.
"Yoboseyo?"
"Yoboseyo. Hae-ah~ Are you up yet? I didn't wake you up did I?"
"Oh? Ani, aniyo~ I was up already. Don't worry about it."
"Okay then. Well I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch with me and the other girls?"
"Other girls? Who are the other girls?"
"You know, the other members of SNSD."
"Oh. Yeah, sure thing."
"Great! We'll come pick you up after our schedule this morning at twelve okay?"
"Okay sounds good."
After our little talk about our lunch date later today she hung up the phone in a hurry. She must have been really busy to not even say bye. I let out a small sigh. Did I really want to have lunch with Hyoyeon and the other SNSD girls?
"Hae, get yourself together. It's just lunch. Just lunch." I kept repeating to myself over and over hoping that I could at least convince myself of this truth and stop overreacting, and not suddenly cancel on Hyoyeon. I couldn't let myself be that much of a jerk to someone who's treated me so nicely this whole time just because I didn't like the fact that she was dating the one person I wanted most.
Not having anything to do for the first part of the day I decided to get on my laptop and search for new videos on Eunhyuk. I swear I've looked him up so many times he could be ranked as number one most searched.
As I waited for the laptop to turn on there was a ring at the door of my hotel room.
"Who is it?" I yelled not moving from my spot but just eyeing the door like there's not going to be another tomorrow if I opened it.
"Roomservice." answered the guy standing outside my door after what seemed like 10 seconds. I quickly got up and at the speed of light opened the door. I felt so bad for thinking of him being the end of my life that as I opened the door I immediately apologized to him.
"Sorry. Sorry!" I kept bowing and suddenly the roomservice guy started to laugh out loud, but it was more of a mannerly chuckling. That's when I whipped my head up to look at him and ask him why he was laughing at me, but instead of coming face to face with who I expected to be a stranger, I came face to face with.. Eunhyuk. Our faces were barely centimeters apart from eachother, and my breathing stopped.
"Eun-Eunhyuk sshi. W-What are you doing here? At my room?" I could hear the shakiness in my voice and the nervousness. I was nervous, but happy at the same time. This was a feeling I hadn't experienced in a long time.
"I came to say sorry to you, but I guess you beat me to it huh?" I couldn't help but look at his lips and the way they moved when he talked. I even memorized how they moved, but to see it up close and personal was a whole different story. How I had the urge to grab onto him and just kiss him without any relent. I immediately looked back up at him as I realized I was staring at him for too long.
"Oh.. haha. Yeah, I guess." We just stood there awkwardly. I mean we weren't friends, yet, but we weren't total strangers either. "Do you.. want to come in? I mean! Uh... standing here is kinda awkward." There was a rush of fire from my neck to my face, and I was pretty sure that my face looked like a red apple.
"Sure, why not."
So he came in. My room was small. It had a simple living room, a simple kitchen, and a simple bedroom, which were all kinda connected to eachother. The only room that had walls seperating it from the rest was the bathroom, and yet it was still simple and elegant looking.
"This is a pretty humble room you got," he walked to the wide windows that overlooked the city. "And you have a nice view too." Then he just stood there without saying anything. I was standing by the kitchen counter just watching his every movement. He was too beautiful. Really like a shining star, and he wasn't even on stage or on a show or anything like that. Eunhyuk was simply standing by the window. His back was beautiful. From the jet black, short hair, to the broad strong shoulders, to the muscular arms, to the small waist, and to the skinny yet toned legs. He looked absolutely stunning.
"You know," he turned around with that pretty smile of his. Showing his perfect teeth and gums, and as that face came into the picture, it made everything so much better. "I wouldn't mind living in a place like this on my own. But it's kinda far from the company." I closed my eyes for two seconds and just relaxed into his melodic voice. And after those two beautiful seconds I opened my eyes again and we made eye contact. His eyes were so clear and pure. So perfectly shaped with those long lashes bordering them. In Eunhyuk's eyes I couldn't see anything. He covered up so much with those eyes, but somehow it seemed as though I could look into them and tell him anything, and he'd keep it with him forever. And it seemed as though he had so much in them to tell me, but couldn't find a way to.
Who knows how long we stared into eachother's eyes, but as we broke our eye contact it seemed as though I was out of breath. It was such a strong emotional contact, maybe not for him, but for me.
"So, where was I?... Oh yeah~! I came here to apologize."
"Apologize for...?"
"For Hyoyeon yesterday. She was being rude to you when I was going to say something. I'm sorry if you felt offended by it."
"She was being rude?" So I really wasn't just imaging things then?
"Yeah, she told me that she felt bad about it after we got into the car and drove off. Hyoyeon said she would make it up to you somehow."
"Oh.. I see." Somehow as we talked I couldn't make eye contact with him again. It just seemed too awkward after what happened. "So what were you going to say to me last night then?"
"Oh! I was just going to say that you looked cute." He let out a big smile, and my heart rate sped up.
"Uh.. T-Thank you Eunhyuk sshi."
"Donghae-ah, please stop using honorifics with me. We can't get closer if you don't start calling me Hyuk-ah." Eunhyuk said it in such a serious voice it scared me.
"W-We can't?"
"No, cause if you do, I don't want to unless you call me without using honorifics. Araso?" he gave me a smile to indicate that he was joking, but at the same time wanting me to stop using formal language with him.
"Araso.. Hyuk-ah."
And with that he smiled at me again. He's smiled a lot in the past 20 or so minutes that he came here, and I was happy that he did. I could never get tired of Eunhyuk's amazing smiles, not for a second. Futhermore, I'd actually want to see them more and more.
He left after we said our goodbyes and I closed the door.
"Ahhhhhh~~!" I screamed out in happiness as I plopped onto my bed. That had to be the beginning of a great day. Eunhyuk showed up at my door, he made eye contact with me, he called me cute, and he said he wanted to get closer to me. I was happy, no, I was estatic about it.
Then I suddenly remembered about my laptop. My MSN had signed in automatically and I had recieved an offline message from Monkey this morning at 5.
"Who the heck wakes up that early?" Then I read it. "Fishey, you must be sleeping huh? You're so lazy. Anywho, I have a question to ask you. If a person is in a serious relationship with someone and feel that they're in love, but one random day out of the blue a new person shows up in their lives. They both like that person, but one of them seems to be developing some stronger romantic feelings for this new person who they barely know. How do you think the other person in the relationship would feel, and what should the person who's having those feelings for the new person do?"
I started typing back a reply as soon as I read the end of the little note.
"Monkey, I'm sorry that I can't help you in a situation like this. I'm not good with these terms, so sorry again. But I guess, you should keep your girfriend and stop having feelings for the other girl. It could possibly hurt both of them in the end. Sorry if this doesn't help." and I sent it, somewhat regretting that I was butting into someone else's business. Plus Monkey was someone I didn't even know. He was just some stranger online that I started talking to yesterday because of a little arguement over Super Junior. And yet he's already asking me for relationship advice like we're friends.
I looked at the clock and it was almost tweleve, so I shut off my laptop and got ready to go meet Hyoyeon and the rest of the gang.
As I walked into the lobby of the hotel I could already see the van outside waiting for me. And as I came into view Hyoyeon stepped out of the car.
"Hae-ah!~" She ran up to me and hugged me tightly. "Ready?"
"Yeap." I gave her a smile. I was happy to see her. I have to admit I absolutely adore her, but if its something to do with Eunhyuk, I can't help but feel a bit of resent towards her, even if I didn't want to. Jealousy, is a part of who I am. I'm the jealous type of person when it came to relationships and the person I liked.
I got into the car with her, and to my surprise there was no one in the car, even though she said "we" were going to pick me up before. I didn't want to say anything to her about it cause it wasn't like it was that big of a deal.
When we got to the restuarant the other eight members were outside waiting for us. They were all beautiful beyond words. No wonder they were such a big hit in Korea, and the rest of Asia, and across the seas.
"Annyonghaseyo~ Cheonun SNSDimnida." They all said to me. Then they all introduced themselves one by one. As if I didn't know them already. I remember the first time I laid eyes on them online. I didn't like them whatsoever because they seemed too feminine, too girly, too perfect. Everyone liked them, and I couldn't understand why. I thought they were the dumbest girls to step foot on the face of this earth. Because like every other anti fan who didn't like them, I was jealous. I was jealous that they were close to 2PM and them. And then I came across Super Junior and started to like them because of them. I started to see that there were really good singers in the group such as Taeyeon, Jessica, and Seohyun. Not saying that the other's weren't good, just saying that they were the ones whose voices stood out to me. And now to have them standing in front of me looking just like perfect beings, I was amazed.
"Annyonghaseyo. I'm Lee Donghae. Nice to meet you all." I gave them a smile, but I didn't know if it was a geniune smile. I still had lingering feelings from the past in me, so I wasn't all that sure.
After the greetings everyone went inside. I got to sit by Hyoyeon like I expected, but what I didn't expect was the girls to have such a high interest in me. Throughout lunch they kept stealing glances at me, without really saying anything to me. Hyoyeon and I were talking about her schedule, and the one thing we had in common, well it isn't the only thing, but we talked about dance. And after she finished her food she went to the bathroom to wash up. The other girls then surrounded me and started asking me questions.
"Donghae sshi, do you like Eunhyuk?" asked the blunt and straightforward Taeyeon.
I practically choked on my water. "What? Why did you ask me that question out of no where?"
"I don't know. Hyoyeon told us that she thinks you like him."
"What??"
"So do you like him?"
"No!" I shouldn't have said that to them. I shouldn't have said anything to them at all. Somehow I had the feeling this moment was going to bring me trouble later on.
"Well... if you don't like him do you love him?" and just as I was chugging down my water I choked on it and started having a coughing fit.
"Hae-ah! Are you okay?" came Hyoyeon's voice. She had come back from the bathroom and the first thing she heard, and saw was me choking on water.
"Y-Yeah, I'm fine."
My throat had gone raspy from coughing so much, and it felt like someone was constantly stabbing me in the jugular. Hyoyeon had given the rest of them a what-did-you-do-to-her look. She carefully consoled me the rest of lunch apologizing to me on behalf of her members. It was comforting that she actually cared for me that much even though we barely knew eachother. And the only thing that made us know eachother was because I bumped into Eunhyuk at the airport when I first came here.
Her and some of the SNSD members took me back to my hotel. Hyoyeon got out of the car and said her goodbyes to me and gave me a tight hug. As I turned my back on them I could hear whispers and mumbles.
"Hyoyeon-ah, why are you so nice to her? You know she likes him a lot already? Why not just tell her that you don't want her to be around Eunhyuk?" came Sooyoung's voice.
"It's okay. I have him, she doesn't. It doesn't matter that she likes him or not, he loves me and that's what matters. Besides, it's not like he's ever going to leave me for her. She's just a crazy fan 'in love'."
I could hear the disgust in her voice when she said those words. Then I heard the door of the van close and they sped off. Her words were hurtful. I knew all this already, and having to hear it from someone, especially the girlfriend of the man I adored, was too much. I could feel my heart breaking as I took each step to my room. I couldn't see clearly at all. The walls of the hallways in the hotel seemed blurry, like something was in my eyes. I felt light headed, and my heart ached like no other. I could hear her voice and the tone she used over and over inside my head as I opened the door. Then as I went into the bathroom to check my eyes to see if there was anything in them, I felt a hot stream of liquid on my cheeks. I looked into the mirror and saw a sad looking girl staring back at me. She had long brown hair, average looking eyes, average sized lips, and an average body figure. She looked like she had just died and came back but still had the after affects. I was scared for a second wondering why there was a girl that didn't look anything like me standing in my bathroom. Then as I tried to reach out and touch her, I realized it was me. I was the sad looking girl who seemed like she just died and came back. Like someone had just stabbed her in the heart and never healed it. I looked so lonely, so vunerable, so...
Tears started running like rivers down my face, showing no mercy no matter what. I could feel the heaving of my lungs and the whimpers at the back of my throat as I soon realized I was full out crying. I hadn't cried like this in over a year, I haven't cried at all in over a year, because a year ago I told myself that I was going to see Eunhyuk, and until that day comes, I'm not wasting a single tear for anyone else. Now that I actually know that I was crying it seemed pathetic. Little words like that could hurt me at such a deep level. I wasn't as strong as I thought I was.
I don't know how long it had been since I was sitting on the bathroom floor crying out my tears nonstop. But when the cries, and whimpers became weaker and weaker I decided not to pity myself anymore like this.
"Hae, its not the end of the world. You know that all Hyoyeon said was true. You have said those words to yourself hundreds, no, millions of times already. One more time can't hurt this much. Get yourself together and stop crying over a useless thing like this." I had a little pep talk with myself like usual whenever I felt weak. Whenever I felt like I couldn't go on, these little talks with myself helped pull me through. Because in the end, I still have a little bit, even if not a lot, of hope that my dream and hopes would come true one day. Even if that day is far.
I got off the floor, wiped my tears clean from my face, washed it to refresh myself, and went into the 'bedroom' and turned on my laptop. After waiting for a minute or so it came on. My background was the same as my computer at home. Tons of Eunhyuk's pictures were on it, changing from one to another ever ten seconds. My MSN came on and Monkey sent me a message thirty minutes ago. He was still online.
"Dear Fishey, thanks for the advice, and I'll try my best at this."
Fishey: glad that i could be of help
Monkey: hey there, and yeah thanks
Fishey: no problem... btw, i never got your name. what is it?
Monkey: my name's spencer and yours?
Fishey: oh, mine's aiden
Monkey: aiden.. nice name
Fishey: thanks ^^
Monkey: so how was your day?
Fishey: hrmm. it was okay, then great, then it went down the drain
Monkey: why is that? what happened?\
Fishey: well this person called me up really early, and i like them, but not really at the same time. its really confusing. then the person i like shows up at my door, and then i went out to eat with the person who called, and as i was coming back, i heard what she was saying about me. i dont think she meant for me to hear.
Monkey: icic. hopefully you didn't feel bad did you?
Fishey: what do you mean?? how could i not feel bad??
Monkey: well idk, ppl like that just don't know how to appreciate other's feelings
Fishey: yeah, i guess. ... well how was your day?
Monkey: mine was busy like usual. i have so much going on today. woke up extra early to for all that happened.
Fishey: yeah and wrote me a note right before you had to go to do your busy things huh?
Monkey: haha. yeahhh~
Fishey: hey spencer?
Monkey: yeah?
Fishey: if you like someone so much it hurts, should you tell that person or keep it to yourself so that you dont end up making that person feel burdened by it?
Monkey: hrm... well i'd rather regret my actions, then regret never doing it in the first place. its my personal philosophy :)
Fishey: thanks.
Monkey: yeah. no problem.
Monkey: i'm hungry~
Fishey: huh? lol. go eat then.
Monkey: but there's no one home to cook
Fishey: don't you know how to cook?
Monkey: yeah i do, but... too lazy :P
Fishey: HA~! and you called me lazy this morning.
Monkey: :P i'll just get some strawberry milk from the fridge
Fishey: yum. i like strawberry milk too. wanna share with me?
Monkey: nope! its all mine :)) brb
Fishey: alright
And Spencer was gone from our conversation for a while. We had known eachother for barely a day or two and we were already talking like friends. Weird. It's also weird that I'm feeling nervous and my fingers aren't working well at the moment because I was talking to him, and waiting for his replies.
Monkey: back!~~~
Fishey: okie dokie
I had nothing else to say so I didn't write anything else to him. Instead I started looking for the Eunhyuk videos I didn't get a chance to look at this morning.
Monkey: what are you doing?
Fishey: just watching some vids
Monkey: what kind? super junior i'm guessing?
Fishey: woah~~~ how did you know?
Monkey: i'm smart that's why. you gotta learn how to be smart :)
Fishey: psfh :P
Monkey: why do you like super junior so much?
Fishey: hrm. i guess i like them because there's so many of them unlike the other groups. they all have great personalities and different ones at that. they all have their own special talents that make a whole lot of diff. ppl like a certain one. and as singers, performers, dancers, and entertainers they can show the potential of being the greatest out there.
Monkey: icic. well who do you like most?
Fishey: Eunhyuk
Monkey: why?
Fishey: because he was the one who introduced me to them, because he was the one that stood out from the rest of them to me, because he was the one that showed me that there can be more than just listening to music, but enjoying and flowing with music, because he's the one who made me feel again.
Monkey: he did that much for just you?
Fishey: yeah, and i bet he does more for a lot of other ppl out there. he just doesnt know it
Monkey: yeahhh~ i guess
Monkey: well everyone's back so i gtg. besides i've been on too long.
Fishey: kk. bye.
Monkey: bye
Monkey appears to be offline.
I turned off my computer after Spencer got off. I didn't feel like staying on if there was no one on, and I couldn't find any videos of Eunhyuk either. Well the one's that I haven't already watched a million times. So I got up and fell onto my bed. Replaying everything that had happened today in my head once again. Sigh. This was going to be one long trip
***
Weeks had passed after the incident of me hearing Hyoyeon saying that stuff about me. We had gotten farther apart since it was kind of awkward talking to her when I knew how she actually felt about me. On the other hand Eunhyuk and I have been getting closer and closer. As friends that is. It was fine with me that we were just friends. I'd rather have that, than have us not be anything.
One day as I was getting ready to go out for a jog early in the morning Eunhyuk called me.
"Yoboseyo?"
"Yoboseyo. Hae-ah, are you busy?"
"Oh!~ Eunhyukkie, I'm just about to go for a jog. Why?"
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to go eat something with me for breakfast since I won't be able to see you today because of my tight schedule."
"Oh, I see. Well you can come jogging with me and then we'll go eat?"
"Alright. I'll be there in a sec."
"'Kay, bye."
"Bye."
And just as I hung up the phone my door bell ring. It couldn't have been Eunhyuk could it? I opened the door and standing there with a wide grin was Eunhyuk.
"Mornin'"
"You too."
"Ready?"
"Yeah." I looked at how he was dressed. It was as though he knew I was going to ask him to join me jogging since he wore sports shorts, a t-shirt, and running shoes. I just chuckled at him and it made him grin even wider.
We were jogging along the beach, the sun rise in the distance emmitted red, orange, and yellow lights all around, making the quiet road we were jogging on even more beautiful. Especially since the road curved and had tress lined up along the sidewalk.
"You know Hae, I think we spend more time together than me and Hyoyeon." Eunhyuk looked at me.
"That's not a good thing. She might start hating me. Especially since we're not that close anymore." I turned to look at him too. Our eyes met again and I felt my heart pumping blood faster and faster. Not because I was getting exhausted from running, but because we had our little connection.
"She's not going to hate you. She understands we're just friends. Besides she's not the jealous type, and she isn't the type to hate people like that." I could hear the tone in his voice. He sounded kind of mad that I said she would hate me.
"Eunhyuk-ah," I stopped and so he stopped to and turned around to face me. "I'm sorry if I offended you."
"What? No you didn't. What are you talking about?" His voice had a high pitch to it, and he wasn't looking into my eyes. Eunhyuk was lieing to me.
"Eunhyuk, don't act like you didn't get offended. I'm sorry. I really am." And then he looked at me.
"Kenchanayo. It's no biggy." Eunyuk sounded sincere this time and he even placed his hand on my shoulder.
"Okay then."
I started jogging again and he followed me. After our hour long jog we headed back to my hotel room.
"I'm gonna take a shower so don't come into the bathroom. Araso?"
"Araso, araso." Then he plopped down on the sofa and turned on the t.v.
As I got into the shower I could hear the voices from the t.v. He was watching the news about last night's performance at Music Bank. Usually when he watched that he'd be very loud and cheery for his other members, but when it showed him, he'd always have something to criticize about how he performed. Like how he could've made the dance steps smoother, or he should've kept in pace with the others, or she should've not done something with his voice when he rapped even though that made it better. He was very self concious at times. As I got out of the shower I could hear him screaming in the living room.
"Hae! Hae!! You're missing the best performance ever!!" I sighed silently because he was so childish sometimes, but it was cute. It wasn't a bad sigh, but more of a happy sigh that he was here with me at this time and at this moment.
"Hae!! Come watch!!!"
I didn't even realized that his voice got louder and louder, as he opened the door to the bathroom. Luckily I had on a bra and underwear, and the moment he saw me his face turned beat red, and he turned around and closed the door immediately.
"Hae, I-I'm sorry. I t-thought you were done dressing because you turned off the shower for such a long time. I'm really sorry." I could hear his scared lovely voice from the other side of the door.
After I got fully dressed I came out of the bathroom and he was still standing there. His face towards the ground.
"Babo! Don't ever do that again! Araso!?" I yelled at him teasingly as I nudged his head lightly.
"Araso araso." and he finally looked up at me. "Ready for breakfast then?"
"Yeap."
This was going to be the first time I was going out to eat with Eunhyuk by myself even though we've become close friends for a couple weeks now. And during broad daylight too. As we walked through the streets fans of Eunyuk's and Super Junior's stopped and stared at us walking side by side. I knew what they were thinking and whispering to one another. 'Why is oppa with that girl and not Hyoyeon unni?' 'We're just friends.' I wanted to say outloud to them, but didn't have the guts to and just kept walking to the restuarant. When we got there SNSD were just getting out of their car and heading in when Sunny saw us together and nudged Hyoyeon. She turned around and saw us together and walked over.
"Hyukkie oppa, Hae, what are you two doing here together? Oppa, I thought you had a schedule today?" She sounded irritated. This wasn't the first time he blew her off for me. He's blown her off on the phone to talk to me tons of times because we were friends, and he needed to talk to someone about his relationship other than sharing the same feelings that he and Hyoyeon had for eachother to her because she already knew.
"Hi Hyoyeon-sshi." I didn't call her 'Hyoyeon-ah' anymore because I was afraid she'd hate me even more than she did now. Besides I only called her that once or twice.
"Yeah, I do, but I wanted to spend some time with Hae today since I won't have time to see her at all today."
"What about me? You're girlfriend?"
"Since we're all here already lets just have breakfast together. Okay?"
"Fine." She didn't sound fine at all, so he grabbed her shoulders and put his arm around them and started walking towards the restuarant with me following them. I could feel the glares of SNSD as I passed them, and as they walked behind me. Whispering and gossiping like schoolgirls about this and that.
While we ate I didn't say a word to Eunhyuk, afraid that Hyoyeon would glare staggers at me. He sat at the other end of the table, while I sat at the far end with Seohyun and Yoona. They were talking about school and other things younger people talked about. I could hear Eunhyuk and Hyoyeon laughing on the other end, and I wondered what they were talking about. After that whole fiasco we all went our seperate ways. Eunhyuk's manager came to pick him up and SNSD left for their schedule as well. I was left waiting for the bus to go back to the hotel.
Ding!
I opened my phone and there was a text message from Eunhyuk.
'Sorry about before. I'll make it up to you. -Hyukkie^^'
'It's alright, you don't have to. -Hae♥' I texted back. After ten seconds I recieved another text from him.
'No I'm going to. I feel bad~ -Hyukkie^^'
'Fine fine. :P -Hae♥'
'Good:) Well gtg so ttyl. Bye~ -Hyukkie^^'
'Kk. Bye~ -Hae♥'
I closed my phone just as the bus came and boarded it. I selected a window seat and stared out the window. How had I become this close to Eunhyuk? I didn't get it at all. And how had I made Hyoyeon, SNSD, and possibly fans hate me so much now? Questions were all lingering and swarming inside my head as I stared at the passing city and people. Blurry in the somewhat fast bus, and in my unfocused view.
A/N: Sorry for the really really~ long update on the story. I didn't have inspiration to write the story for so long! Hope you liked it and I'm pretty sure the next part to this will be a lot faster than this one. :) And please don't hate me for making Hyoyeon and SNSD seem bad. I really do like Hyoyeon and them, its just the story you know? Haha.... Well comments would be loved. ^^