One Way Of Becoming-Animal: Furriness and Abuse

[rax]

This post discusses trauma, abuse, gender, furry, and theory. It's written kinda flowery-like, but fuck it, I feel flowery. Please read it if you'd like. <3

Comments

[merin_chan]

Love the creative use of D&G as always, and the metaphorics/practice of stitching in. Have you ever read Shelley Jackson's hypertext novel "Patchwork Girl"? You might like it!

[rax]

I have not read Patchwork Girl! Unfortunately I found it online and it doesn't run on any computers I own. :( I might be able to set up a virtual machine to read it on? I'll keep it in mind as a project, at least.

Thank you for reading, and I'm glad the stuff I'm doing here made sense! I'm still trying to figure out how to take D&G (and other crazyawesome theoretical stuff I've read) blowing my brain open and use it to say things that will make sense to people who haven't read it; it's hard, because there's so much in there! But hopefully I'm getting little bits of it through. :)

[scaleness]

I feel like this, while being radically different in many (most?) ways, overlaps in some significant sense with my own processes.

When I developed monstrosity, it wasn't a defensive move or a re-construction, but it felt like something I needed to have in order to be whole. In a way it was like a protective charm against forces, both internal and external, that would surpress emotion and reverie.

I love as a human does only in that these are ways a human can love and is loving.

That seems like an important distinction to make. It's human, but maybe not the associated memetic baggage around "human".

Being around other sexually weird people helped me realize that those "ways a human can love" existed, too. And that it was OK to pursue them, no really, because there are people who're making it work. When I look at the various kink communities, they all seem kind of ridiculous, but at the same time there's a comfort in that, that other people are doing ridiculous things (and it's not like the forms of sexuality that aren't considered

[rax]

Being around other sexually weird people helped me realize that those "ways a human can love" existed, too. And that it was OK to pursue them, no really, because there are people who're making it work. When I look at the various kink communities, they all seem kind of ridiculous, but at the same time there's a comfort in that, that other people are doing ridiculous things (and it's not like the forms of sexuality that aren't considered kink didn't look ridiculous, either).

This is super true and one of the most useful things about people being open with their sexualities/kinks/what have you, I think.

Thanks for sharing how some of this stuff works for you!