I've just been really depressed lately.
I use my live journal as a vent so I don't explode. It's the only outlet that I feel I have sometimes to get everything out. I hope that things will start getting better any day now....Lets hope so

I have to dispel this these thoughts from my mind,
I know that every time I cut,
I destroy part of my soul.

I'm breaking down
I can't handle much more.
WHy can't anything work out for me
why can't things go the way I want them to?

AM I do awful that I don't deserve it?

Because everytime I think there could be, I turn out to be wrong!

No wonder I don't like many people.

I just want to give up today.

I need some serious chemical intervention.

I see you ( Read more... )

This who thing stems form logging on to myspace yesterday, and reading an antiabortion bulletun ( Read more... )

that's why I'm so fucked in the head

nothing seems to feel right right now....things haven't been the same for a while now. Up seems like down, left seems like right.....my head is all fucked up....I find myself laughing for no reason out of the blue. I feel like I'm losing it.

sometimes I wish I had been smart enough

sometimes I wish I wouldn't lie.

Never good enough.

I hate myself.