I feel like I can bearly breathe. my chest hurts and burns...I want to cry.I want to make everything go away, everything that hurts in life. My heart hurts.

I really don't know what to say...
I feel so empty...

so I'm getting impatient because No matter how little I eat...i can't seem to loose any more. so I got the bright Idea to mix diet pills. I took 1mega tea 2 Nv's, cortislim and a multivitimin. I felt like I was going to die. I was so neauious, and felt all cloudy and floaty. needless to say I'm never doing that again ( Read more... )

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thank you!

I feel Like I'm transforming into something that I haven't been in a while. I feel like everything is pressing down on me.....like tons ans tons of weight when I can only hold 10-20 pounds. I can bearly breath sometimes....it makes me question all choices that have come to pass recently. did I make the right ones?

so I finally went back to the gym after a long break of 2 months ( Read more... )

I could say so many things that i didn't deserve ( Read more... )

Does anyone ever feel like this isn't the direction they should be going? I feel kind of in a bit of a rut. Maybe I just need to get a little bit of motovation.....

So today I find out that my mom is paying for my brothers school. This really set me off! It's bull shit that she has carried him all of his life! He never actually passed a grade on his own till he droped out of high school and went to adult ed. Every year since kindergarden I remember my mother beating the shit out of him for not passing....and ( Read more... )

I realize why I'm such a loaner.....

I hate people....