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This rain feels very appropriate.
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I grow tired of this war and the suffering it brings to my Kingdom's people. There is nothing I can do, when neither Risath's king nor myself can see eye to eye long enough to agree on stopping this disaster. There is no proof Raytin was behind Prince Ryoga's death, and Nanjiroh see's nothing but the pain of a lost son and misplaced blame. Though it is not as simple as shouting "stop!", and laying arms down. If Raytin were to buckle, Risath would sweep in and take the land.
I will admit, sometimes that does sound like a much better idea. But when I think of what will happen to my people as a result, I don't know if they would conform or fight back. And I am not willing to risk their safety, simply because it was easier to give in. This is not Raytin's way of doing things. We will fight until Risath is pushed back to their own shores, and cower at the mere thought of trying to invade us again.
But despite this, I worry what this war does to Kuranosuke. It pains me to see him fearful that something will happen to his loved ones. I see the panicked look in his eyes when reports come in, and how closely he keeps me when we sleep. He has had such a traumatic year, and most of all I wish that I could whisk him to some far off land where none of this ever touches him again.
If not for my people, I will stop this war for him. To see him smiling and carefree again.
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I grow tired of this war and the suffering it brings to my Kingdom's people. There is nothing I can do, when neither Risath's king nor myself can see eye to eye long enough to agree on stopping this disaster. There is no proof Raytin was behind Prince Ryoga's death, and Nanjiroh see's nothing but the pain of a lost son and misplaced blame. Though it is not as simple as shouting "stop!", and laying arms down. If Raytin were to buckle, Risath would sweep in and take the land.
I will admit, sometimes that does sound like a much better idea. But when I think of what will happen to my people as a result, I don't know if they would conform or fight back. And I am not willing to risk their safety, simply because it was easier to give in. This is not Raytin's way of doing things. We will fight until Risath is pushed back to their own shores, and cower at the mere thought of trying to invade us again.
But despite this, I worry what this war does to Kuranosuke. It pains me to see him fearful that something will happen to his loved ones. I see the panicked look in his eyes when reports come in, and how closely he keeps me when we sleep. He has had such a traumatic year, and most of all I wish that I could whisk him to some far off land where none of this ever touches him again.
If not for my people, I will stop this war for him. To see him smiling and carefree again.