hunny... wow... i didn't know u felt that way.. But that's how i feel and I've tried cutting, not eating, O.D-ing.. I've tried everything... just so people notice you. man it's hard but i donno just be you and people will notice, maybe not today, maybe not tommrow it mught take a while but trust me... they'll notice, I love you girl. it's the people who do notice the little things you do that matter. try to block out what people say, and what peoiple think, and trying to be with the 'popular people' and stop everyhting, it's like stopping everyhting you are, but be you, and i bet u'll et noticed, when ui least expect it people will notcie, they will
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Wow ashley. I didnt rly think you cared at this point. I mean, i knew you cared but i didnt know that you cared so much that it would bother you. And i'm sorry but like, lately its seemed like you just dont even wanna talk to me.. I mean you get on the bus and automatically sit with Jessica, Kendallyn, or Pat... and to be honest, when you started doing that, THATS when i started feeling this way.. Like youd picked them over me.. that in some way i needed to be a giggley, or a ditz, or a lesbian (No offence to ANY of them cuz i love them all!)just for you to be like "I'ma sit with Taylor today".. i mean hell i dont mind when you DONT sit with me but daymn.. i like to talk to you once ina while. And we're doing the whole 'pair-up' thing again. Like youve got pat/kendallyn/jess/hope, and ive got corey/kayla/sam/heather, and jamies got shannon/naomi/rob/nique, and its like, what ever happened to us just being together?...we all used to be in-seperable but now its like, well, me and you dont even HUG anymore..i member the last time we
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i don't even no wut to say honestly I'm speechless... i'm writing this in some reply so u no i read that i'm i'm crying now and like wow... dude... we havent hungged since that long ago... i dunno... taylor... i really love u and like... i have issues showing that.. lol.. u have to be lesbian lol... I'm bi- so... yea, wether u knew that or not i dunno, but i feel bad now that u didn't feel like that until i hurt u, i never meant to hurt n e one, it's just so hard, i mean trying to make eveyrone happy,. trying to please the world... makes me sad. i love u and to no u feel a little better now makes me feel a lot better. just, don't forget that no matter wut i say or wut i do i love u and no one ever is gonna change that, other than me or u... i love u taylor... We gotta hang out soon...like this weekend soon. i looove u!
Wow, i am so good!lol.. a while ago... like begining of the year i figured it all out..Like what was gonna happen with everyone... i thought We'd end up hating someone who we thought was a great friend (Katelyn), i'd become friends with someone i never thought possible (Kayla), and one of us would go bi!.. but anyways.. its not that you hurt me, its that once that started happening i started thinking... a lot. None of this is your fault..!And with the whole trying to please everyone, hun i know your like that. I understand it. I've even said it to you before.
And just a little refference... i think this is something you need to hear... You need to start putting yourself first. Taking everyone in your life and moving them a step back. ASHLEY should be the FIRST person you please every day. There is no way in hell you should have to deal with someone else's problems before your own. Just remember that..
Hmm, I don't think I have ever heard anyone really say it that way. It's good though, how you put it, I understand it now. Before it was just trying to fit in, just trying to be like everyone else, not trying to get away from the average. I have so longed to do that, get away from the "norm" that society has created. Taylor, people notice you now, sometimes, you just don't see it because, however small it may be, it just doesn't stick out. We all want to be loved by the world, some of us, well a lot of us, just can't seem to find out how to. The thing is, the whole world can't love you, the whole world is full of some people that just don't give a crap. But see, your world can love you. Make yourself a place, make a life that you like. This world you create might not be as big as the real one, but it is as close as you are going to get. Fill it with your friends that love you, and care for you, pets, nature, family, whatever you want. Just know that there is another world, and you have to acknowledge it. There will always
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Wow sam. I dont think anyone has ever said something like that to me before. Well, not in that way atleast. I mean yeah, some people tell me i am a good person to talk to but a lot of people are. A lot of people are better than me. Like i know that even though people tell me im the "easiest" person to talk to they dont mean it. I mean like when me ashley jamie and heather used to have those talks in mrs. carriers office (without mrs. carrier!) Heather and Ash used to say it but like i dont think im a very good person to talk to. I mean like, i get upset. And sometimes i feel like im telling people what they DONT want to hear. And if i was any good i'd be able to say something they dont wanna hear in a way they wanna hear it, but i cant. I just cant
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:) How do you stand out? Well, I guess it is just your matter of being you. Some people don't think as deeply as you do. It is just too hard to explain why Oprah is so famous, why Einstein was so smart, they just are/were. You just stand out, not by being loud, anyone can do that. Maybe it is what you say, not how loud you are. Believe me, I am loud and some people don't listen to me. It just touches me how you are, you have a color that breathes in you, something different from everyone else, I just can't put my finger on it.
Thanks sam.. that means a lot to me. Knowing that you dont just think i stand out cuz im loud all the time. I think what meant the most to me in that was "It just touches me how you are, you have a color that breathes in you, something different from everyone else"...that is the most conciderate thing anyone has ever said to me..Thanks a lot sam. You made me feel a lot better
hun; im sorry! i dont think youre 'just average'. dont try to get attention by fucking your life up; its not right. i love you and if u need to talk ; you know where ill probably be.
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And just a little refference... i think this is something you need to hear... You need to start putting yourself first. Taking everyone in your life and moving them a step back. ASHLEY should be the FIRST person you please every day. There is no way in hell you should have to deal with someone else's problems before your own. Just remember that..
Thanks ashley ... i love you.
xoxo - Taylor
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