How Daybreak Broke Me.

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For those who enjoyed the finale, I am truly happy for you. I am glad you found closure with what we witnessed. Enjoy your zen.


I know I probably won’t say anything that hasn’t already been said in the last 72 hours. I feel the need to get this out of my head so I can move on. The emotional roller coaster that I have been on since Friday has finally slowed down. I think I went from being shell shocked to denial to anger to just being totally devastatingly heartbroken. But before I start this belated pity party, I like to list, yes list since anything won’t be coherent any other way, a few things that I liked, some that were lame and then hate list.

Things I liked:

• Bill, Tigh and Ellen at a strip club. It was weird and I honestly thought it was Lee, Kara and Zak and dare involved Lee getting a lap dance. Come on, we all know Lee had a stick up his ass back then. I still didn’t get what the whole point of that was but in some ways it was nice to see Bill wasn’t always commander-like.
• The dinner scene with Lee, Kara and Zak was great. They were just sitting around sharing story and how Kara was getting to understand Lee a little bit better.
• I loved it when they carried Zak and threw him on the couch. I was excited because I figured something monumental was going to happen that made Lee and Kara that we knew and love.
• The scene between Doc Cottle and Roslin made me weep. I loved it when she said, “Go smoke a cigarette and be gruff.” I was laughing and crying.
• Romo as President and Hoshi as Admiral. Interesting picks but I guess there weren’t that many trustworthy people to pick from. I can just imagine Romo as President, and Jake as the first dog, he’ll just be kicking people out of his tent because he won’t want to deal with them.
• I loved the scene of the robotic toasters marching on Galactica. If I remember correctly during the mini, we had all the colonial soldiers lined up in the hanger deck. It was just odd to see toaster taking claim of that space in a good way.
• Galactica slamming its self into the purple basestar thing. I really wasn’t expecting them to just make their way onto the basestar using Galactica.
• The whole scene with Boomer was amazing. I loved that she finally redeemed herself only to be shot down. I enjoyed her flashback too where we learn that she was at some point a rook in a big old battlestar with too much to learn. She scared and naïve and so innocent. She had no idea who she was. Bill and Tigh in that scene came of as a couple of old drunks. May be it was just me.
• I was glad to see a small fraction of Lee/Kara banter before it all ended. Kara telling Lee that they stopped for coffee. I was half expecting Lee to ask her if she bought him any.
• Bear McCreary is a frakking genius. The music was perfectly placed and it just worked so well with whatever situation they were being presented with.
• On a totally shallow note, I thought Roslin looked fabulous during the Opera House scenes, her hair, make-up and outfit.
• Kara saying goodbye to Sam. I was squeeing silently that may be just may be there was hope.
• Sammy’s sent off was great. He died being PERFECT.

Things that weren’t explained:

• Pythia - It was such a big part of the show for such a long time and what we got was nothing at the end, not even a mention to see if any of it was remotely true.
• Opera House - That was such a let down. I was expecting some great revelation and it turned out to be the frakking CIC. Give me break, Ron.
• Head people - I still don’t who the hell they are. I think they were angels.
• Kara’s biggest fear was that she will be forgotten. If I watched the last 78 episodes correctly, I thought her fear was to be truly happy and loved. Her mother has taught her that she was never good enough and she will never be loved, so when she told Lee that being forgotten was her biggest fear. I had a say what moment.
• The song, ‘All Along the Watchtower’, it apparently is very significant but it was never fully explained. It just ended up being a song that activated the final five and help them find Earth twice.
• What the hell is Kara? Is she an angel? What? I was hoping for some explanation as to how she ended up on the first Earth, how did her father know to teach her that particular song. Did her father know she had destiny that she was meant to help the Colonials find a new home? If God/Gods sent Kara back why did she lead them to the first Earth why not to the second Earth? Kara was the harbinger of death; I would like more of an explanation for that too.

Things I hated;

• Pretty much the whole entire episode.
• Racetrack accidently firing her weapons that blew up the basestar, seriously?
• Cavil shooting his face off when he realized things weren’t going his way.
• Table sex. Need I say more?
• The lack of resolution for Lee/Kara.
• Lack of explanations on the things I listed above. I’m sure I’m missing some other things as well.
• Roslin sleeping with a student and then out of nowhere deciding to join politics.
• The last five minutes. I really didn’t want to look at Ron’s beard while Six and Gaius talked over the magazine. I could think of a few things that I would have liked to see.

I have come to the realization that I HATE Ron Moore. I know I’ve been saying this since Friday but even after all this time I still hate him.  He has turned me into a cynic. I was lying in bed while my sister was watching one of her show and they started talking about destiny, fate and hope. All I could do was roll my eyes. I just didn’t believe. I was like that all weekend, anytime anyone talked about true love, I had this maniacal smile on my face that said good luck with that, cause you are gonna get screwed.

Even if I wasn’t a Lee/Kara shipper, the finale just didn’t pack a punch for me. The mini series had us sitting at the edge of our seats where as the finale started off slow, got a little exciting and then slowed down again. The entire run of the series these people have run and fought so I was hoping for more of a character based finale with some answers. We never got answers to many of the mysteries that surrounded the show since the beginning. The explanation for everything was because God wanted it that way. Because God said so, so it shall be, was Ron’s answer to every mystery surrounding the show. I was nice to see everyone finally letting go of the fight and just living. I was truly happy for those that got their bright shiny futures. I was good to see Helo, Athena and Hera just being a family and not having to worry about anything else but who is going to saw Hera how to hunt. Ellen finally got what she wanted, Tigh all to herself with no battlestar and no Bill Adama to go back to. I felt saddened by the end they gave Galen Tyrol, he didn’t have his son and no one left to love. Don’t get me wrong, part of me was glad when he strangled that bitch, Tory. She got what she deserved, she has done nothing but cause trouble and someone needed to know that Cally didn’t commit suicide.

I honestly didn’t know how I wanted to see Roslin and Adama go but I was okay with what they got. I was hoping to see little bit of the old fired up Roslin before the end but I am glad she got to see Earth even though she wasn’t supposed to. Poor Bill, they finally had some time to live and their time together was already at its end. Caprica Six and Gaius getting a happy ending rubbed me the wrong way. These people were the most instrumental in the deaths of billions yet since Gaius suddenly believes in God he got the love of his life. It’s sad to see in a show where the good guys never catch a break while the bad ones always get everything in the end.

Now my thoughts on the whole Lee and Kara thing. Ron tainted their relationship for me, may be it is just me. The whole table sex scene just disgusted me. Ron was obviously not thinking about the same two people he has written the last four years for the finale. The Lee and Kara we have come to know the last fours would have never ever done that to Zak. We know Lee practically raised Zak and for Kara, Zak was the first guy to love her unconditionally. I can not see either of them doing that to Zak under any condition. That scene has tainted my view of our pilots. After the finale I went back and watched the brig scene from Six of One to make myself feel better, but no all I can see was that damn table sex scene in my head. I have gone back and watched vids and other piloty scenes but table sex keeps coming to the forefront. Looking back now, I may know the message Ron was trying to send to us shippers. Lee and Kara’s relationship has always been tainted by what they did to other people around them like almost frakking while Zak was asleep, their unfaithfulness to both Sam and Dee. I will hate Ron for that the most; I knew Lee and Kara were never going to get their bright shiny future with a porch swing and rugrats. At one point during the finale when they jump to New Earth and we see everyone but Lee, I was relieved that yes they killed him so he wouldn’t have to see Kara die or go with Sam. Yes, it pathetic to hope for Lee’s death to prevent him from hurting but what can I say, I was loosing it at this point. I sensed hope when Kara said her goodbyes to Sam and then again we see the two of them coming out of the tent together. But Ron’s goal was to crush our hope and as we blink, she disappears and he doesn’t care. I was just hoping for a handshake to may be go back to the first time they met. I wanted something to give us closure to acknowledge their epic and tragic love story. We got NOTHING. Even at this point I was still a bit hopeful, they had jumped 150,000 years into the future and we got to spend the last five minutes of the show staring into Ron’s beard. WTF? I was hoping to see Lee and Kara walking in the background holding hands, something but nothing came and then my heart broke completely.

I still haven’t fully come to terms with the whole finale especially the Lee and Kara thing. I can’t listen to music because every time a song comes on it reminds of our pilots and I get all weepy.

I wish I could find a way to organize a round table discussion with Ron, David, Jamie, Katee and all of us shippers. I would love to ask Ron and David when did ever see our pilots act like brother and sisters. Apparently their view of these characters are far different then ours so I would love to get into their heads. We will all bring our entire BSG DVD collection to show them proof of what we see in our heads and I like to see them contradict that. That would be fun little thing to do. Anyone know how they can make this happen?

I hope you have enjoyed my ranting/venting. Give yourselves a cookie for making it to the end. This is probably my longest post, EVER. Thanks for reading, listening and caring about what I think about the finale since Friday. Shame on those out there hating on Katee or Jamie, people they didn’t write the finale blame it all on Ron. Repeat after me, “FRAK YOU RDM.”

I wanted to watch Caprica because it is a prequel to a show that I love dearly but I am washing my hands of all things RDM. I can’t trust him to not pull another Lee and Kara on me. So it was nice knowing you Ron.

My last words, I promise. I love BSG and my pilots. Lee and Kara as a couple and as individuals was the reason I started watching this show. I will love them always because there is no one out there like Lee and Kara. I have made some great friends because of Lee and Kara so I am grateful for that too.

Boys and Girls. I’ll be around. For a little while I’ll still be nursing a broken heart but Ron won’t run me away from LJ. I just won’t ever get too attached to a ship so when it ends badly I won’t feel like a family member had died.

Thanks Ron for making me feel this way, for giving us great characters and then frakking them over in the end. A tip for next time, don’t write the finale of a great show while you’re sitting on the toilet.

NICE WORK YOU ASS.