♔ {os} light up my life ,, kaihun
light up my life
✖ jongin x sehun | pg | romance
✖ 1,249 w.
✖ summary : once there was a time, love was just a myth.
✖ a/n : a lame birthday present to my awesome dongsaeng seisdemayo
♡ thanks to my special girls, my cutie kitten mingtaeng & my special cutie pie ohmysekai for helping me beta read this
♡ also special thanks to nice girl bluedveins for great information ! :D
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he used to think that 'love' was just a myth.
he once believed that 'love' was only another word, which its existence is intangible, untouchable, delusive and it’s not real.
he used to think like that.
until one day, the day that oh sehun came into his life. broke his border. stepped into his set of beliefs. and convinced him to rethink, to think twice, to force himself to consider about his own thought again ...
jongin is just a normal salaryman who works at a normal pub. even though his position as a pub manager seems quite great, but actually it's not, his job is only playing the music at the dj booth next to the white led dance floor. and his payment is not that much. but still enough to pay his rent and four requisites he needs in his everyday life. he can say that his life isn’t hard, however, it’s not that easy either.
although his talent is dancing, music and beats are his very close friend, those have been both his hobbies and likings since only god knows when, but due to lots of reason, he can’t use this talent (he is so proud of) for his work. he almost gave up, this possibly isn’t his way, it’s a path that he can’t go further more and can’t reach to the goal he really want to.
he once thought ‘yeah, this is it, the highest i can climb, the most i can do and I can get’ so he didn’t really hope for something more than this. to live happily with his normal life.
but a soft smile that he received from sehun as encouragement, with a gaze full of love and strong faith in him, those things spark some warmth in his heart that makes him believe that one day he will go even further, more than today,
and he will be more than this.
as long as jongin have sehun by his side, he believe he can do anything.
for jongin, sehun is more than just a lover.
sehun is like a home, his home, his best place, his secret place, his everything where he can be himself, make him relax and feel comfortable.
no one can connect to him like sehun did, both thoughts and personalities. even though they share several different things that scarcely compatible, like black and white, like burning fire and calm cool water, but because sehun didn’t care about those disparity … he knew, but didn’t mind them, yet he tried to adapt and adjust himself to jongin by using their few similarities they had and combined their differences till they became completely perfect in harmony without any problem.
time goes by, even some circumstances change, but the only thing that still remains, never shifted but only deepens its root even more to keep spreading its branches sturdily, is his love for sehun and sehun’s love for him.
With that only, he’s assured that he can be the happiest man in the world.
as though, there is a thin thread or string that connects him and sehun together.
jongin can sense a mysterious gravity, that sehun is pulling him in, creating the strongest bond, makes him feels as if he has the power to keep him walking stable on the ground and never got lost.
on the other hand, there is also a force like sehun keeps pushing him and always supporting him, help him fly anywhere he want to go, flying high with him to catch his dream.
in which he knows that he can’t cut these push and pull forces away from him. but of course, he will never try to do that. why would he ? he will only take good care of those forces, keep them in balance and keeps them forever with him.
oh sehun taught the impatient and hot-headed kim jongin to be patient, serene, and amazingly peaceful.
when a smooth forehead pressed into his, as if that warm breath try to comfort his mood that exploding inside him to soothe, relieve and then gradually subsided, and when that lips whispers sweet nothings softly, repeating the word ‘love’ with full of immeasurable emotion, jongin knows that an erupting volcano inside him can surprisingly cools down.
while jongin is the one who taught sehun to rely, and promised that he will never let their love die.
as long as jongin have sehun by his side, he will never disappoint sehun.
no matter what happens, jongin isn’t scared, he has no worries.
a soft hand along with those slim pretty fingers intertwined with his slightly bigger hands yet rough fingers of him fits on him perfectly, squeezes on gently, as if it’s his way to tell jongin that …
‘ i’m still here ’
... because jongin has this from sehun, he is sure that he can get through everything, for this person he loves most with all his heart.
and because he has love, a thing that he used to believe that it’s just another form of words, as if its existence was never real.
but he can obviously feel it now and he never felt like this before, until he met sehun.
jongin has fell love just then…
when their lips touched slight and softly, with just a sweet and gentle kiss, exchanged body heat in the winter, they communicate their love through touches and cuddles on the sofa, silently.
jongin can feel the love …
when he stepped down the stairs each step while holding sehun in his arms, embraced tenderly as if the one he held was a priceless diamond. but for him, sehun is more than a diamond and can’t evaluate. even though the weather was hot and gross, but for this happy little moments, he never says no.
jongin can feel the love …
when he opened his eyes and felt someone laid beside him, nuzzled him on his bed, the first one he saw every morning, had morning kisses with while raindrops outside the windows performed beautiful melodies and moist their heart in rainy day.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when sehun got out of bed with his sleepy yet cute face, only a blanket wrapped around his whole body loosely, tiptoed a bit to touch his lips with jongin’s lightly and lovingly as a morning greets them.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when that lips slightly parted and curved to say his name, that moment was the moment jongin loved his own name the most because sehun called his name.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when he felt stressed and pressured, as if this world span backward and made him so confused, everything can return to its place, back to normal the same as before and looked clear again miraculously only if sehun is right here with him.
he used to think that 'love' was just a myth.
he once believed that 'love' was only another word which intangible, never exist, untouchable, delusive and isn’t real.
he used to believe that.
but now he is falling in love, he knows it, he feels it and acknowledge it by his own heart how important and how warm is it to him.
he finally knows that ‘love’ is real, it’s tangible and becomes his everything.
sehun is his everything.
jongin knows and sees the true and the right answer of his wrong belief thanks to sehun.
and his answer is sehun.
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; v ; i dunno what else i can give to you but i really want to anyway !
it's actually my own fic in thai language which based on backstreet boys - love is (♪)
and the original one is banghim (b.a.p) fic that i already changed it into sekai fic (in thai) lol
i'm sorry with my lack of skill in english but i do really want to give you something naj ; ___ ;
i don't have enough time to write a new one for you
(and with my crap eng like this i'm very sure it will take me a lot of time .___.'')
i know this is such a terrible one orz
weird ... i dunno it's just weird =____=''
(i guess it seems a little bit better in thai .___.'' according to comments i received)
it's even more weird when i give a fiction to someone who is a skillful writer herself LMAO
anyway ...
so, happy birthday again naj ♥ wish you all the joy you can wish !
thank you for being a very nice & sweet friend to someone like me ; v ;
love you so much *shower you with kisses* ♡
ps. i love you guys so much too ! my sekaitubbies allies ♡♡ !
pss. thanks to vicky who suggested me 'what is love' title :3 but unnie is just an idiot to not use it orz /sobs so ! for me, since today, (naj's bd), this fic will always has 'what is love' as its title ! ; w ;
✖ jongin x sehun | pg | romance
✖ 1,249 w.
✖ summary : once there was a time, love was just a myth.
✖ a/n : a lame birthday present to my awesome dongsaeng seisdemayo
♡ thanks to my special girls, my cutie kitten mingtaeng & my special cutie pie ohmysekai for helping me beta read this
♡ also special thanks to nice girl bluedveins for great information ! :D
- - - - -
he used to think that 'love' was just a myth.
he once believed that 'love' was only another word, which its existence is intangible, untouchable, delusive and it’s not real.
he used to think like that.
until one day, the day that oh sehun came into his life. broke his border. stepped into his set of beliefs. and convinced him to rethink, to think twice, to force himself to consider about his own thought again ...
jongin is just a normal salaryman who works at a normal pub. even though his position as a pub manager seems quite great, but actually it's not, his job is only playing the music at the dj booth next to the white led dance floor. and his payment is not that much. but still enough to pay his rent and four requisites he needs in his everyday life. he can say that his life isn’t hard, however, it’s not that easy either.
although his talent is dancing, music and beats are his very close friend, those have been both his hobbies and likings since only god knows when, but due to lots of reason, he can’t use this talent (he is so proud of) for his work. he almost gave up, this possibly isn’t his way, it’s a path that he can’t go further more and can’t reach to the goal he really want to.
he once thought ‘yeah, this is it, the highest i can climb, the most i can do and I can get’ so he didn’t really hope for something more than this. to live happily with his normal life.
but a soft smile that he received from sehun as encouragement, with a gaze full of love and strong faith in him, those things spark some warmth in his heart that makes him believe that one day he will go even further, more than today,
and he will be more than this.
as long as jongin have sehun by his side, he believe he can do anything.
for jongin, sehun is more than just a lover.
sehun is like a home, his home, his best place, his secret place, his everything where he can be himself, make him relax and feel comfortable.
no one can connect to him like sehun did, both thoughts and personalities. even though they share several different things that scarcely compatible, like black and white, like burning fire and calm cool water, but because sehun didn’t care about those disparity … he knew, but didn’t mind them, yet he tried to adapt and adjust himself to jongin by using their few similarities they had and combined their differences till they became completely perfect in harmony without any problem.
time goes by, even some circumstances change, but the only thing that still remains, never shifted but only deepens its root even more to keep spreading its branches sturdily, is his love for sehun and sehun’s love for him.
With that only, he’s assured that he can be the happiest man in the world.
as though, there is a thin thread or string that connects him and sehun together.
jongin can sense a mysterious gravity, that sehun is pulling him in, creating the strongest bond, makes him feels as if he has the power to keep him walking stable on the ground and never got lost.
on the other hand, there is also a force like sehun keeps pushing him and always supporting him, help him fly anywhere he want to go, flying high with him to catch his dream.
in which he knows that he can’t cut these push and pull forces away from him. but of course, he will never try to do that. why would he ? he will only take good care of those forces, keep them in balance and keeps them forever with him.
oh sehun taught the impatient and hot-headed kim jongin to be patient, serene, and amazingly peaceful.
when a smooth forehead pressed into his, as if that warm breath try to comfort his mood that exploding inside him to soothe, relieve and then gradually subsided, and when that lips whispers sweet nothings softly, repeating the word ‘love’ with full of immeasurable emotion, jongin knows that an erupting volcano inside him can surprisingly cools down.
while jongin is the one who taught sehun to rely, and promised that he will never let their love die.
as long as jongin have sehun by his side, he will never disappoint sehun.
no matter what happens, jongin isn’t scared, he has no worries.
a soft hand along with those slim pretty fingers intertwined with his slightly bigger hands yet rough fingers of him fits on him perfectly, squeezes on gently, as if it’s his way to tell jongin that …
‘ i’m still here ’
... because jongin has this from sehun, he is sure that he can get through everything, for this person he loves most with all his heart.
and because he has love, a thing that he used to believe that it’s just another form of words, as if its existence was never real.
but he can obviously feel it now and he never felt like this before, until he met sehun.
jongin has fell love just then…
when their lips touched slight and softly, with just a sweet and gentle kiss, exchanged body heat in the winter, they communicate their love through touches and cuddles on the sofa, silently.
jongin can feel the love …
when he stepped down the stairs each step while holding sehun in his arms, embraced tenderly as if the one he held was a priceless diamond. but for him, sehun is more than a diamond and can’t evaluate. even though the weather was hot and gross, but for this happy little moments, he never says no.
jongin can feel the love …
when he opened his eyes and felt someone laid beside him, nuzzled him on his bed, the first one he saw every morning, had morning kisses with while raindrops outside the windows performed beautiful melodies and moist their heart in rainy day.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when sehun got out of bed with his sleepy yet cute face, only a blanket wrapped around his whole body loosely, tiptoed a bit to touch his lips with jongin’s lightly and lovingly as a morning greets them.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when that lips slightly parted and curved to say his name, that moment was the moment jongin loved his own name the most because sehun called his name.
jongin’s falling in love with sehun …
when he felt stressed and pressured, as if this world span backward and made him so confused, everything can return to its place, back to normal the same as before and looked clear again miraculously only if sehun is right here with him.
he used to think that 'love' was just a myth.
he once believed that 'love' was only another word which intangible, never exist, untouchable, delusive and isn’t real.
he used to believe that.
but now he is falling in love, he knows it, he feels it and acknowledge it by his own heart how important and how warm is it to him.
he finally knows that ‘love’ is real, it’s tangible and becomes his everything.
sehun is his everything.
jongin knows and sees the true and the right answer of his wrong belief thanks to sehun.
and his answer is sehun.
- - - - -
; v ; i dunno what else i can give to you but i really want to anyway !
it's actually my own fic in thai language which based on backstreet boys - love is (♪)
and the original one is banghim (b.a.p) fic that i already changed it into sekai fic (in thai) lol
i'm sorry with my lack of skill in english but i do really want to give you something naj ; ___ ;
i don't have enough time to write a new one for you
(and with my crap eng like this i'm very sure it will take me a lot of time .___.'')
i know this is such a terrible one orz
weird ... i dunno it's just weird =____=''
(i guess it seems a little bit better in thai .___.'' according to comments i received)
it's even more weird when i give a fiction to someone who is a skillful writer herself LMAO
anyway ...
so, happy birthday again naj ♥ wish you all the joy you can wish !
thank you for being a very nice & sweet friend to someone like me ; v ;
love you so much *shower you with kisses* ♡
ps. i love you guys so much too ! my sekaitubbies allies ♡♡ !
pss. thanks to vicky who suggested me 'what is love' title :3 but unnie is just an idiot to not use it orz /sobs so ! for me, since today, (naj's bd), this fic will always has 'what is love' as its title ! ; w ;