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I dunno what to say.. its like this is my own little confessional.. I know this will never be read from. I mean. Ive givin the link to jimmy and Amy.. and its displayed on He.. but I know no one would care to read anything written by me... Most people on that site see me as some whiney brat.. and maybe thats what I am.. I have the constant fear of ( Read more... )

ok.. Im sorry... but LJ RPG is just weird.. and yeah.. I asked Jimmy and he said it was like Journal rpg.. WELL JIMMYS A LIAR! hah I have a liar for a son! And the sad part is he has no father.. so he has to get it from me *tear* lol.. well Maybe Jimmy doesnt know the REAL definition of Journal RPG... *rolls eyes* I dont understand how you would ( Read more... )

Things have just been so weird... I dont know what to say anymore.. Mikeys back.. Jesses gotton a girl pregnant.. My family lifes horrible.. Lily hates me..I just dont know what to do. Who to trust. I had two day of complete bliss with Jesse.. but now the days are over and the charms dissapeard.. and I just feel more empty than before.. And I keeo ( Read more... )

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The date was horrible.. ugh ugh ugh I think Im going to break up with Dakoda... and I know things arnt ever going to go back to Jesse and Jess.. but I dont think I want anyone else.. so I just wont be with anyone... Datings no fun anyways... ANYWAYS Im loving the Rping right now.. Jess and Zexi :D :D :D I got an iPod nano for christmas along with ( Read more... )

what am I supposed to do?be happy? HOW! I WANT TO KNOW HOW! I WANT TO KNOW WHEN IM GOING TO FEEL BETTER! WHENS IT GOING TO STOP HURTING WHOS GONNA MAKE ME BETTER! WHY WHEN. I want to know why it is Im not good enough I want to know ( Read more... )

whats the point... no one cares... the people I thought cared ... just care even less... Lifes not worth living to me if Its going to be like this for the rest of my life.. the only people that care about me ... well that usually care about me are online... and.. they dont even care about me anymore.. everyones got there own lives.. and again I ( Read more... )

I dont love him... And I dont even think Im phsyically attracted to him.. but he does keep me occupied and away from Jesse... whos not real to me anymore.. and never was the actual perfect I made him out to be.. I mean yeah hes Perfect for me.. hes everything I wanted everything I NEEDED.. but he wasnt here.. and even then... Im not his perfect... ( Read more... )

I got that in the rain kiss. Just like that of a book.. or a movie... It was perfect... but I cant help but think "no it wasnt... thats not the guy you wanted" But I dont have a guy I want... I mean.. Jesse and I are over.. and thats plainly stated out for all of us to see... He dosnt love me because he wouldnt risk everything to get me.. The love ( Read more... )