Today is a day of grief in my family. It is the birthday of my older brother who died right before he was born. His name is Joshua and he would be 24. this is always a difficult day for my parents, and a sad day in my heart as well, to think of having another sibling up in heaven that i never knew ( Read more... )

Hey-o. I'm going to bed soon. I just wanted to update this, so I don't freak people out as much. I'm doing much better than I was last week, but still feeling the ever-present need to rely on God...which is so good, because I want to feel that need ALWAYS. He is so amazing though. I wish I could even fathom his awesomeness.

my life is confusing right now. i just feel like nothing is in my control (Ok, God, I see that theme and I'm trying to give it up to you!)...i'm just confused about what i'm supposed to do next. the future seems really unclear. I know that God is sovereign; He is directing my steps...but man, i wish He would just make them clear to me! I'm sorry I' ( Read more... )

I have been terrible about updating this since being at home, but i'm going to try to get better at it because it keeps me writing...and writing is a good thing. I just haven't been doing enough personal WRITING. ok, i'll stop ( Read more... )

I'm updating this right now, sending my thoughts off into the cosmic void because there's nowhere else to send them at the moment (volleyball sucks). i'm feeling especially melancholy tonight. weird emotions came that i didn't expect this afternoon. then there was a fun dinner, but i came out completely worn out and overwhelmed by the idea of my hw ( Read more... )

So, i've been pathetically busy (side note: i'm really into overusing the word pathetic right now). i say pathetically because i don't ACTUALLY have anything to do, but somehow i can't seem to get anything done. like my room. i've been "cleaning" it for, i dunno, 5 days now, and its actually gotten worse since i started. i can't help that because i ( Read more... )

So there were a couple girls on the trip who were morning people...unfortunately, i happened to be friends with them (liv, alyssa). there were also girls like heidi and janelle. janelle is probably the cutest person to wake up in the world. heidi...well, heidi fights with you. i loved being heidi's roommate because she was try to give me all this ( Read more... )

I finally at my final destination, the countdown is on. In less than 5 days, I will be home. In my real home with my real family and friends; it’ll be amazing. Thankfully, we are staying at a beautiful place for our last week. It is so peaceful and full of God; I love it. I especially love it because I have a bedroom to myself for the first time on ( Read more... )

so some of the girls have made a "no bathing in bath" rule because of how gross our accomodations are. unfortunately i had just returned from a shower when this club was made. alyssa and i had a "you know your place is really gross when..." moment when we both realized that we had been attempting to go to the bathroom in public toilets whenever ( Read more... )

K, i have like no time to update, and i already made an update to put through wireless, but then my wireless didn't really work out, so yeah. I'm in Bath right now. We are staying at the Y and its totally ghetto-riffic. apparently they only clean on mondays and it is now the weekend so its been almost a week since any of the bathrooms or bedrooms ( Read more... )