yesterday was one month since lexi has been gone. i can't believe this is real. i've been so hurt lately, torn between my love for her and my love for jon. i don't want to hurt her at all. rhiannon made me feel better, saying that maybe lexi brought the two of us together so we can help eachother through all this. i hope she is right. i love lexi ( Read more... )

i finally told rhiannon that jon and i are seeing eachother, and she is not upset with us at all. so now everyone can know, yay! and jess is over it too. so i'm finally happy and feeling better about the whole situation =]

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The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.I'd send a postcard to you dear ( Read more... )

yesterday morning, before the ceremony, jon texts me to ask if i wanna go to the cemetary with him. i live right down the street so sure. we were there for like 2 hours. at first we were talking about her, but that got depressing fast. so we went around to some other graves and did some clean-up. it's amazing how bad people let stuff get. like ( Read more... )

the wake was aweful. it took me like 15 minutes to actually work up the courage to go in and see her. finally jess grabbed me and we went in together. you had to walk through this hallway first, and all the posters we made for lexi were lining the way. i was already balling. i had to stop like 3 times before we actually got up there. it didn't even ( Read more... )

These past few days have without a doubt been the most difficult days of my young life. Friday, September 11th ironically, at 3:11pm I get a text message from her boyfriend Jon that says one of my best friends, Lexi Rogers, got in a car accident that morning, and that she didn't make it. I was so angry. I thought they got in a fight and he was ( Read more... )

so i come home friday night at like 10pm after doing some band performance, and idk what to do, so i text kevin and ask if he wants to hang out. so i drive down to plainville and we go for a walk to the highschool and sit on the risers to talk. and he's holding my hand and i have my head on his shoulder as i tell him about school and he tells me he ( Read more... )

so i'm home for the long weekend, but i didn't update about the first week of classes, so i guess i'll do that ( Read more... )

i'm home for the long weekend, but i feel more homesick here than i did for the past week and a half at school. idk what's wrong with me >.

sooo i've been here at marist since wednesday, and i like JUST got my internet to work, so sorry for the lack of updating. band was wednesday night, all day thursday and friday, and saturday morning. we got the whole half time show on the field. this program is so different from shs. it's way more relaxed and less hard core. like the whole show is ( Read more... )