Comments | readytorelease: a bit about me and a bit about he

readytorelease

a bit about me and a bit about he

May 08, 2005 19:05

I'm thinking maybe it's time to air out concerns reguarding my current state of mind. I feel like all my posts since I've left home have been very broad and glossy. I haven't captured any of my thoughts about all the changes happening here, nor have I attempted to detail the processes which caused them. It's time to share, because I'm afraid and I ( Read more... )

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colerbear May 8 2005, 23:04:56 UTC

Before I get started... can you have your parents send me your rent check by like May 20th? 36002 is my RPO ( ... )

readytorelease May 9 2005, 19:25:36 UTC

well, i'm no stick-in-the-mud if that's what you're thinkin'!! ;) and i don't think my new p.o.v. will change our understanding of each other at all. i think now that i wrote this entry i feel much, much better about the whole situation. putting words to fears tends to do that & THAT is definately a big lesson i've learned here which can only help me and you and us for the bestestest.

oh & as for your abroadness--i still need a buddy for berlin. think about it.

ohhhh & i told my dad to send the check. what should i get for the apt??? i know i need a mattress and a desk. my mom has dished if we need them, but are there any community items i should cover?

colerbear May 9 2005, 21:48:32 UTC

I feel better now, too. It was just that I was kinda afraid on my own and then I read that you were afraid too and I got myself all worked up thinking "maybe it's real"... But we're being crazy. We'll be fine.

As for Berlin- keep trying to persuade me. I'm more and more into it every day. I need adventure before I settle down, at least for a year or two. But does it have to be Berlin?

We have dishes, I believe. You need to get a wardrobe b/c our closet is too small for your stuff alone, nevermind if we try to share it. And if you have an extra TV lying around, we could use one in the basement next to our PRECOR MACHINE and TOTAL GYM! But if not, someone will have one.

When are you coming back to the States? When are you moving in?

readytorelease May 12 2005, 13:15:57 UTC

i'll be back july first & working HECTICALLY to get my act together for moving in... spending time with mom, ikea, the salvation army, etc.

i'm taking two summer classes, YUP!...you heard it. they both start july 11th, which means i'm in the apartment, no doubt, by the 10th.

i read about your canada trip, so i'm guessing i'll have the place pretty much to myself the first week i'm in. that could be peaceful or meloncholic. not sure!

in any case, i must work my ass off all summer to repay the debt i am quickly accumulating here. so, disability services it is :) i also want to try to find a night job.

i just have a small TV like the one that was in our room soph. year. i don't know if that will do, so i will try to ask around.

p.s. mionsen="hello" in german (phonetically, i'm sure i murdered the spelling)!!

lchan18 May 10 2005, 00:31:29 UTC

that all sounds utterly exciting, intriguing, and perhaps even a bit scary. such sincerity. my cynical nature never really permitted me to believe in soul mates or anything of the sort. i mean, reading this, it's sort of striking. anyway, good luck getting back in touch with yourself. i'm sure that once you return home, it'll all come back.