hold my hands inside your hands,
i need someone who understands.
i need someone, someone who hears,
for you, i've waited all these years.

derek and i just got into another fight. almost seems like thats all we do anymore, fight and make up, followed with another fight. i really cant do it anymore, and i dont want to. we fight and i dont get upset, its just too much routine. its too fucking numbing anymore, i gotta find someone new and move the fuck on.

today i hung out with nicole and we ran some errands and had lunch. then i went to dereks for a lil bit before i went to work and its kinda weird, but things are different. we were so passionate together, he kissed me ways that he hasnt in a long time, and we flowed perfectly together. but inside everything seemed like it was gone. perhaps it was ( Read more... )

is it bad that i hope really awful things happen to collin?

just simply strange ( Read more... )

funny thing just happened. when i asked derek what was going on with him and i a couple weeks ago he replied with... nothing we're just friends. apparently best friends that occasionally have sex. with that being said.. that was that. just friends so thats the way ive been treating him for about the past month or so. funny thing is though, that ( Read more... )

so i've been bed ridden all day. Last night lindsey and i went over to Collins apartment and predrank with him and some of his friends before going to tiki bobs. on the way there we renamed collins cousin Damon, to Nathan, becuase for some reason we thought that would be easier. collin lindsey damon and i hopped out of the car mid saginaw street ( Read more... )

the infamous line:
Big: Carrie im moving to Nappa.
Carrie: if your tired you take a Nappa, you dont move to Nappa.

funny how Derek and I live the life of Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big.

so where did i leave off ( Read more... )

i think i just had the most terrifying moment of my entire life ( Read more... )