heres the advice i gave my mom a few years ago in regards to makin gup with my father for not talking for like 5 years.
you know what it's like now. in social situations with them it isnt going to get any worse if you keep it going current. if you make contact thats some effort andt he worst that can happen is nothing.
i need to learn to take my own god damn advice though.
ive been crying myself to sleep more and more lately missing chris. its pathetic since i dont think it was ever even a really healthy relationship for me but i cant help hearing a sorta fairytale and balling or some random thing triggering a ton of memories and crying about it for an hour.
awe shit man, i'm getting all emotional over this... first you and your insanely long surveys and now your heart-felt entries :;shakes fist;: ;D everything you're going through is absolutely normal, you're not in any way alone in this. friends come and go, the good ones stick around. shit, i'm finding out now that family can come and go just like anyone can in your life with my father. (but that's for another time.) you just have to go with your intuition and everything will fall into place in all aspects of life. patience, god i hate that word, but its definitely true. things change, people change, you just have to go with the flow and one day you'll end up in a place where you're the happiest you've ever been and everything is right for you and everything you've done in life was done for a reason and that reason was to make you into the amazing person you are. know that things will be better, if not tomorrow, then definitely (sorry i have to use it) *further down the river*you're one of, if not my only, best friend. i'll
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aw! thanks g-unit. haha im almost hoping we have our big house with 50 cats and the golden girls! i think id probably be happiest doing that more than anything else. :D and yes everything comes down to patience... and i really shouldnt bitch because the friends i have now are the best ive ever had and i probably couldnt be much happier... but its just hard to let go yknow? *shrug* im fine now... cause i mean i know if holly and i would be friends again, it would be the same vicious cycle that had been going on those 4 years... and it just... eh wasnt good. i just miss the memories. and im glad ill always have them to remember. thanks for always being there <33333 it really does mean alot.
Aw, Day... I'm sorry things have to be this way for you. I know, why the hell is POPO apologizing? Because, well. Someone has to. Figured I may as well be the first one to break the ice. >_>
You're right later on there. You're quite lucky. I'm hundreds of miles away from anyone I've ever really cared about. Different story.
The people you have now, will most likely not always be there for you. You have to stop worrying about the future, stop worrying about the past, and take care of the NOW. I know, it's not as easy as it sounds, you can't just stop worrying. But if nothing else, you can try.
Nothing's forever, Day. Not even love. So you can't stop and wonder about what things will be like. Just... live. :D La vida loca, baby! (Oh god I hate myself someimtes....)
i want to add something, but they said it. ... i remember you telling me so many times how you dwell on things far too much and how much you hate it. i wouldn't use the word dwell. memories are there... and they always will be. i understand... it's like you want to be the person who isn't constantly thinking about the past, but ... it's there. you're only human. positive or negative memories... they aren't necessarily a good or bad thing. just grow off of them. you have. you are such an amazing person and you handle things well, whether you believe it or not. and yes, that was corny. but i mean it.
aw haha it wasnt corny. it made me smile. i guess i just... have a hard time letting go. maybe these friendships really werent meant to be. as corny as that sounds... haha but then why does it hurt so much? yknow. meh it just takes time i guess. things will work themselves out. <3 love you too
i too know the hurtfull sting of the past. it never really goes away, but i gaurantee it gets easier. and now that we are becoming good friends i hope that i can help. you are a great person and i have felt very comfortable around you these past few weeks. you are lots of fun and a cute mung face...OH SNAP!
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you know what it's like now. in social situations with them it isnt going to get any worse if you keep it going current. if you make contact thats some effort andt he worst that can happen is nothing.
i need to learn to take my own god damn advice though.
ive been crying myself to sleep more and more lately missing chris. its pathetic since i dont think it was ever even a really healthy relationship for me but i cant help hearing a sorta fairytale and balling or some random thing triggering a ton of memories and crying about it for an hour.
oh well.
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dont get me started!
oh hey, um were you copying me when you bleached the front of your hair??? oh and i need a ride to work on saturday.
lol
i hope this helps??? in some bizarre way???
hahaha i love you
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i have nothign to say right now about it.
oh god.
im every bad emotion rolled in one.
but i <3 you.
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everything you're going through is absolutely normal, you're not in any way alone in this. friends come and go, the good ones stick around. shit, i'm finding out now that family can come and go just like anyone can in your life with my father. (but that's for another time.) you just have to go with your intuition and everything will fall into place in all aspects of life. patience, god i hate that word, but its definitely true. things change, people change, you just have to go with the flow and one day you'll end up in a place where you're the happiest you've ever been and everything is right for you and everything you've done in life was done for a reason and that reason was to make you into the amazing person you are. know that things will be better, if not tomorrow, then definitely (sorry i have to use it) *further down the river*you're one of, if not my only, best friend. i'll ( ... )
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and yes everything comes down to patience... and i really shouldnt bitch because the friends i have now are the best ive ever had and i probably couldnt be much happier... but its just hard to let go yknow? *shrug* im fine now... cause i mean i know if holly and i would be friends again, it would be the same vicious cycle that had been going on those 4 years... and it just... eh wasnt good. i just miss the memories. and im glad ill always have them to remember. thanks for always being there <33333 it really does mean alot.
oh, and...
*steals your icon* ;D
love,
day
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You're right later on there. You're quite lucky. I'm hundreds of miles away from anyone I've ever really cared about. Different story.
The people you have now, will most likely not always be there for you. You have to stop worrying about the future, stop worrying about the past, and take care of the NOW. I know, it's not as easy as it sounds, you can't just stop worrying. But if nothing else, you can try.
Nothing's forever, Day. Not even love. So you can't stop and wonder about what things will be like. Just... live. :D La vida loca, baby! (Oh god I hate myself someimtes....)
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yes and you bet im livin la vida loca... *dances naked in the rain*
OH SNAP!!
XD *hugs*
much love
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... i remember you telling me so many times how you dwell on things far too much and how much you hate it. i wouldn't use the word dwell.
memories are there... and they always will be. i understand... it's like you want to be the person who isn't constantly thinking about the past, but ... it's there. you're only human.
positive or negative memories... they aren't necessarily a good or bad thing. just grow off of them. you have. you are such an amazing person and you handle things well, whether you believe it or not.
and yes, that was corny. but i mean it.
love you.
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i guess i just... have a hard time letting go. maybe these friendships really werent meant to be. as corny as that sounds... haha but then why does it hurt so much? yknow.
meh it just takes time i guess. things will work themselves out.
<3 love you too
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