*ive been wallowing in my own chaoitic insecure dillusions*
Time you started: 12:40pm
Basics
1. Name: Dana
2. Birthday: 9-30-1985
3. Age: 18
4. Hair Color: brown with blonde pieces in the front. but i think i want to dye it differently... eh im not sure.
5. Eye Color: bluegrey.
6. Nationality: im reluctant to call myself an american. when i hear that word it just... makes me cringe... but i have polish, french-canadian in me as well.
7. Sex: female
8. Height: 5 foot 5 inches. i think...
9. Weight: eh haha im working on that one.
10. Where were you born?: i think in buffalo? maybe in florida o_O
11. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name be?(if you know): dereck.
Family
12. Brothers or Sisters?: no
13. How many?: *****
14. Names?: ********
15. Who's your favorite?: ********
16. Who's your least favorite?: **********
17. If you're an only child...do you want any brothers or sisters?: I would like a younger brother to beat up on. or a twin brother haha... girls are lame.
18. Parents/Guardians name?: Gary and Denise
19. Who's your favorite?: my favorite? jesus these are my parents were talking about, not some fucking inanimate object
20. Do you like your family?: my moms side, yes.
21. If you could, who's parents would you have?(out of your friends): no, this is if i HAD TO.... it would be lindsays parents. but of course we dont really talk anymore, so i dont know. none.
22. If you could, who's brothers/sisters would you have?(same): hm well most of my friends dont have siblings.
Friends/Enemies
23. Best friend(s)?: Im close with all of my friends really... i dont like having to choose best friends.
24. What do you have in common with them(or he/she)?: plenty of things... usually beliefs/morals... those things are important to me. and if we dont have those things in common, as long as we can respect each others beliefs then its a good friendship.
25. What do you like to do with them?: I like having conversations. and then theres the side of me who wants to go out and cause a ruckus and just let go and have fun. bowling has been the most popular form of entertainment this weekend.
26. Most trustworthy: really, i trust all of my friends.
27. Funniest: (i refuse to answer these questions...)
28. Dumbest:
29. Smartest:
30. Best Laugh:
31. Best Smile:
32. Best Eyes:
33. Funnest to be with:
34. If you woke up one morning and one of your legs were gone...who would you call first?: haha hmm... the hospital? 911? thats assuming im losing blood.... if i just had stubs id probably call poopie first. "POOPIE IM LEGLESS! COME SEE MY STUBS" XD
35. Who's the person you talk to most on the phone?: *shrug* i dont use the phone often. my friends and i call each other to make plans, not to sit on the phone mindlessly for hours. once we get together... thats when we sit mindlessly and talk for hours. haha
36. Do you have any friends that you have never seen?: actually, no. i did though. ha
37. Who do you see the most?: i see poopie alot.
38. Who have you known the longest?: poopie. a whopping... 13 years now. <3
39. Who's your worst enemy?: i prefer not to have enemies.
40. What don't you like about them?: *****
41. Was he/she your friend before?: *********
42. Are they a dumbass?: *******
43. Did they do something to you, or do you just not like them cause of their stupidity?: ****
Love Life
44. Do you have a crush?: always
45. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no.
46. What is their name?: --------
47. How long have you liked them?: ---------
48. How long have you been going out?: --------
49. Are you really in to them? or Are you just eh?: --------
50. What do you like about them?: --------
51. Do you think you'll last?: ---------
52. (for crushes) Do you think they like you?: id like to think so.
53. Do you think you'll ever go out?: i dont know.
54. Have you gone out in the past?: ---------
Favorites
55. Color: purple.
56. Food: mexican and italian. mmm
57. Music Genre: uhh incubus? lol they are a fine mixture of genres... a bit of everything really. thats why i love them.
58. Band: Incubus.
59. Solo Artist: probably beck.
60. Number: 6... today at least.
61. Letter: Z
62. Word: i like the word ambience. and then theres the word pants. god i love that word.
63. Swear Word: fuck
64. Song: I listen to tribute alot lately, by 311 and incubus. but i dont really know... there are so many great songs, its really hard to pick one.
65. Day of the week: friday
67. Month: October <333333
68. Year: 96 was a good year for me... so was 2001.
69. Age you were: 10 and 15.
70. Season: Autumn...
71. Fruit: i like all fruit... but maybe apples are my favorite. and kiwi. eh i love them all.
72. Veggie: i love them all. especially mushrooms.
73. Ice Cream: maple pecan. or butter pecan... or maple walnut. haha
74. Movie: thats a tough call...
75. Junk Food: really, im not that big a fan of junk food. usually blowpops or twizzlers.
76. Cartoon: ren and stimpy and rockos modern life.
77. T.V Show: eh
78. Reality Show: i like newlyweds and the carmen and dave one... =X they are my guilty pleasures.
79. Celebrity(including musicians and actors/actresses): i... dont rightly know.
This or That
80. Chocolate/Vanilla: depends... usually vanilla.
81. Punk/Pop: haha oh god... punk.
82. Rap/RnB: rap
83. Milk/Chocolate Milk: eek neither!
84. Computer/Laptop: either
85. Nsync/BSB: eh thats getting so old...
86. Green Day/Blink 182: >:\ green day.
87. Tupac/Eminem: who cares
88. Britney/Christina: christina
89. Black/White: black
90. Dark/Light: dark
91. Blue/Red: blue
92. Pink/Baby-blue: neither
93. Short/Tall: average
94. Phone/Instant Messanger: IM
95. T.V./Computer: Computer
96. Movie/T.V.: movie
97. Mall/Department Stores: mall
98. AIM/AOL: aim
99. 10/100: 100
100. Internet/Encyclopedia: both
101. Home/School: home
102. Country/Classical: country
103. New York/California: california
104. Batman/Superman: batman
105. Half Empty/Half Full: half empty
106. Day/Night: night <3
107. January/June: june
108. Christmas/Valentines Day: ick... neither
Have You Ever
109. Drank Alcohol: yes
110. Smoked: haha yeah
111. Gotten Drunk: yea
112. Gotten High: no. never will.
113. Dyed Your Hair: yes. plenty of times
114. Kissed the Same Sex: yes.
115. Thought about Killing yourself: yes.
116. Hated yourself: oh... yes.
117. Liked someone way older than you: not wayy older.
118. Liked someone way younger than you: not wayy younger. ha
119. Broken a Bone: not... that i know of?
120. Had Surgery: no... i hope i never have to
121. Talked to Strangers: yes RANDOM STRANGERS HAHAHAHAHA XD
122. Ran Away From Home: i dont remember. maybe jokingly
123. Did the opposite your parents told you to do/not to do: of course, im only human.
124. Sang in public: yes
125. Worn a Dress: rarely, but yes.
126. Worn a Tie: haha yea probably more than ive worn a dress.
127. Worn a Suit: haha yea!
128. Gotten in to a physical fight: minor ones.
129. Hurt someone emotionally: i probably have, im ashamed to say.
130. Hurt someone physically: yea, usually jokingly.
131. Made someone cry: again, im ashamed to say i probably have.
132. Said you loved someone: yes
133. Said you hated someone: yes.
134. Talked to a stuffed animal: hehe yes
135. Talked to yourself: all the time.
136. Driven a car: plenty of times
137. Danced in public: lots and lots of times haha
138. Danced when no one was looking: yes!
139. Sang when no one was looking: you mean when no one was listening? yes.
Other Questions I Seemed to Forget.
140. Do you believe in Love: I do.
141. Love at first site? not neccesarily.
142. Your Definition of Love: god i dont know... i could be in love and not know it. everyone says *you'll know* but eh i dont know. im not really looking for it anymore. im wasting my time i think.
143. Your definition of a true friend: someone whos honest, willing to listen, respects your opinions and morals and has a good sense of humor haha
144. Your religion: I base my beliefs on a variety of religions... nature based religions.
145. Do you go to church: maybe to use their bathrooms LOL
146. Favorite Candy:
YOUR PSYCHE
147. Do you have any diagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? i have a social disorder
148. Do you have any undiagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? haha how would i know?
149. If you do in fact have a diagnosed or even undiagnosed mental disorder, describe what it feels like and/or your personal experiences with it. its numbing... i hate it. it keeps me from living the way id like honestly... but im working on it. im trying to force myself to do things that i normally wouldnt. its... uncomfortable. but i have to do it. i have to force myself to think a certain way. but since ive been thinking this way all my life, its hard...
Have you ever been to a therapist, psychiatrist, or psychologist before? If so, were they helpful to you? yes. and yes.
Do you think your dreams are a window into your soul? Or do they have any significance at all? I think they are very significant... sometimes its hard to analyze them
How would you describe yourself mentally and psychologically? im very negative. im used to putting myself down and not having faith in myself. im always... fearing.
Do you feel insecure with your own person? Have a self-esteem problem? If so, why do you think you do? i do. its all in my head i think. but my parents dont help much. and i try to ignore the things they say, and try not to let it get to me... but theyre my parents...
RELIGION AND PHILOSOPHY
What religion or system of beliefs, if any, do you subscribe to? i base my beliefs on nature based religions... wicca, native american... i probably have buddhist, hindu, even christian beliefs... who knows.
Is this a mainstream religion? its my own.
What do you think about non-mainstream religions? (Wicca, Hiduism, etc.?) I have nothing wrong with them. I think highly of them really.
How much do you actually know about non-mainstream religions? I know alot about wicca, not nearly enough... but. Im learning. and my world religions class is helping alot.
Have you ever tried to convert someone to your own religion? Why or why not? No, i dont believe in that. People should be able to choose what religion they want to follow without being pressured. If people ask me things about what I choose to believe, i'll give them the unbiased facts.
What is your overall opinion of televangelists? Eh, whatever. do what you want. I cant say i agree with it, stealing peoples money and brainwashing them, but whatever. Thats what they choose to believe, and I respect that.
What is your opinion of evangelists in general? like i said, thats what they choose to believe, and i respect that.
One word can be said and mean many different things. In the end, how important are words, really? I hate using words to express myself. Nothing comes out the way I want it to, and I feel like i never make sense.
If you could ask God or whomever you choose as a supreme being one question, and only one, what would it be? (If you're an atheist just skip ahead.) I dont have any questions.
MUSIC
Is music important to you? Why or why not? Its way up there on the importance list, haha. It helps me express emotions and figure out my thoughts really.
Do you sing? If so, do you sing well? I do sing. everyone does. I dont know how well i sing... we'll see when i try out for RS now wont we... *sigh*
What instruments do you play, if any? I want to learn the bass and the didgerydoo. I used to take guitar lessons, but got impatient and gave up. I expected to be amazing right away. I hate that.... I dont really think the guitar was for me anyways.
Do you or have you ever written music before? Ive written lyrics
What do you think of Eminem? I dont think anything of him.
In your opinion, what band is the best of all time? (Name a few if you can't decide.) haha wow we all know the answer to this one now dont we? Incubus of course. :D
What is one band/singer you absolutely love that no one else does or seems to have heard about? soul coughing, ween, 1108 thugz hahahaha
Pick up the nearest CD to you and write a random song lyric from it. the nearest cd is cher!!!!! and there are no lyrics in the booklet. sorry haha
ISSUES
What is your stance on abortion? Im for it. for whatever reason.
What is your opinion on gay people being allowed to get married? Im for it completely. homosexual people are humans too, and they deserve the same rights as straight people. what the fuck is the big deal? If you cant see that homosexual people are *normal* (i hate that word..) ... then im sorry, but i have no respect for you. you make me sick.
What is your opinion on gay couple adopting? see above. haha
Do you have a political party affiliation? If so, what and why? not especially. i dont know enough about political parties to choose a one... but from the basic knowledge i have of them all, i choose the green party.
What do you think about sex before marriage? i have no problem with it. to each his own really... if it were me in this situation, id be sure it felt right, and i for sure trusted the person and loved them.
Tell us one thing you're pretty sure no one knows about. uhh i cant thing of anything relevant so... im going to go eat some lunch now. lol
NOW GO OUT AND LIVE!
End Time: 1:45 pm
Basics
1. Name: Dana
2. Birthday: 9-30-1985
3. Age: 18
4. Hair Color: brown with blonde pieces in the front. but i think i want to dye it differently... eh im not sure.
5. Eye Color: bluegrey.
6. Nationality: im reluctant to call myself an american. when i hear that word it just... makes me cringe... but i have polish, french-canadian in me as well.
7. Sex: female
8. Height: 5 foot 5 inches. i think...
9. Weight: eh haha im working on that one.
10. Where were you born?: i think in buffalo? maybe in florida o_O
11. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name be?(if you know): dereck.
Family
12. Brothers or Sisters?: no
13. How many?: *****
14. Names?: ********
15. Who's your favorite?: ********
16. Who's your least favorite?: **********
17. If you're an only child...do you want any brothers or sisters?: I would like a younger brother to beat up on. or a twin brother haha... girls are lame.
18. Parents/Guardians name?: Gary and Denise
19. Who's your favorite?: my favorite? jesus these are my parents were talking about, not some fucking inanimate object
20. Do you like your family?: my moms side, yes.
21. If you could, who's parents would you have?(out of your friends): no, this is if i HAD TO.... it would be lindsays parents. but of course we dont really talk anymore, so i dont know. none.
22. If you could, who's brothers/sisters would you have?(same): hm well most of my friends dont have siblings.
Friends/Enemies
23. Best friend(s)?: Im close with all of my friends really... i dont like having to choose best friends.
24. What do you have in common with them(or he/she)?: plenty of things... usually beliefs/morals... those things are important to me. and if we dont have those things in common, as long as we can respect each others beliefs then its a good friendship.
25. What do you like to do with them?: I like having conversations. and then theres the side of me who wants to go out and cause a ruckus and just let go and have fun. bowling has been the most popular form of entertainment this weekend.
26. Most trustworthy: really, i trust all of my friends.
27. Funniest: (i refuse to answer these questions...)
28. Dumbest:
29. Smartest:
30. Best Laugh:
31. Best Smile:
32. Best Eyes:
33. Funnest to be with:
34. If you woke up one morning and one of your legs were gone...who would you call first?: haha hmm... the hospital? 911? thats assuming im losing blood.... if i just had stubs id probably call poopie first. "POOPIE IM LEGLESS! COME SEE MY STUBS" XD
35. Who's the person you talk to most on the phone?: *shrug* i dont use the phone often. my friends and i call each other to make plans, not to sit on the phone mindlessly for hours. once we get together... thats when we sit mindlessly and talk for hours. haha
36. Do you have any friends that you have never seen?: actually, no. i did though. ha
37. Who do you see the most?: i see poopie alot.
38. Who have you known the longest?: poopie. a whopping... 13 years now. <3
39. Who's your worst enemy?: i prefer not to have enemies.
40. What don't you like about them?: *****
41. Was he/she your friend before?: *********
42. Are they a dumbass?: *******
43. Did they do something to you, or do you just not like them cause of their stupidity?: ****
Love Life
44. Do you have a crush?: always
45. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no.
46. What is their name?: --------
47. How long have you liked them?: ---------
48. How long have you been going out?: --------
49. Are you really in to them? or Are you just eh?: --------
50. What do you like about them?: --------
51. Do you think you'll last?: ---------
52. (for crushes) Do you think they like you?: id like to think so.
53. Do you think you'll ever go out?: i dont know.
54. Have you gone out in the past?: ---------
Favorites
55. Color: purple.
56. Food: mexican and italian. mmm
57. Music Genre: uhh incubus? lol they are a fine mixture of genres... a bit of everything really. thats why i love them.
58. Band: Incubus.
59. Solo Artist: probably beck.
60. Number: 6... today at least.
61. Letter: Z
62. Word: i like the word ambience. and then theres the word pants. god i love that word.
63. Swear Word: fuck
64. Song: I listen to tribute alot lately, by 311 and incubus. but i dont really know... there are so many great songs, its really hard to pick one.
65. Day of the week: friday
67. Month: October <333333
68. Year: 96 was a good year for me... so was 2001.
69. Age you were: 10 and 15.
70. Season: Autumn...
71. Fruit: i like all fruit... but maybe apples are my favorite. and kiwi. eh i love them all.
72. Veggie: i love them all. especially mushrooms.
73. Ice Cream: maple pecan. or butter pecan... or maple walnut. haha
74. Movie: thats a tough call...
75. Junk Food: really, im not that big a fan of junk food. usually blowpops or twizzlers.
76. Cartoon: ren and stimpy and rockos modern life.
77. T.V Show: eh
78. Reality Show: i like newlyweds and the carmen and dave one... =X they are my guilty pleasures.
79. Celebrity(including musicians and actors/actresses): i... dont rightly know.
This or That
80. Chocolate/Vanilla: depends... usually vanilla.
81. Punk/Pop: haha oh god... punk.
82. Rap/RnB: rap
83. Milk/Chocolate Milk: eek neither!
84. Computer/Laptop: either
85. Nsync/BSB: eh thats getting so old...
86. Green Day/Blink 182: >:\ green day.
87. Tupac/Eminem: who cares
88. Britney/Christina: christina
89. Black/White: black
90. Dark/Light: dark
91. Blue/Red: blue
92. Pink/Baby-blue: neither
93. Short/Tall: average
94. Phone/Instant Messanger: IM
95. T.V./Computer: Computer
96. Movie/T.V.: movie
97. Mall/Department Stores: mall
98. AIM/AOL: aim
99. 10/100: 100
100. Internet/Encyclopedia: both
101. Home/School: home
102. Country/Classical: country
103. New York/California: california
104. Batman/Superman: batman
105. Half Empty/Half Full: half empty
106. Day/Night: night <3
107. January/June: june
108. Christmas/Valentines Day: ick... neither
Have You Ever
109. Drank Alcohol: yes
110. Smoked: haha yeah
111. Gotten Drunk: yea
112. Gotten High: no. never will.
113. Dyed Your Hair: yes. plenty of times
114. Kissed the Same Sex: yes.
115. Thought about Killing yourself: yes.
116. Hated yourself: oh... yes.
117. Liked someone way older than you: not wayy older.
118. Liked someone way younger than you: not wayy younger. ha
119. Broken a Bone: not... that i know of?
120. Had Surgery: no... i hope i never have to
121. Talked to Strangers: yes RANDOM STRANGERS HAHAHAHAHA XD
122. Ran Away From Home: i dont remember. maybe jokingly
123. Did the opposite your parents told you to do/not to do: of course, im only human.
124. Sang in public: yes
125. Worn a Dress: rarely, but yes.
126. Worn a Tie: haha yea probably more than ive worn a dress.
127. Worn a Suit: haha yea!
128. Gotten in to a physical fight: minor ones.
129. Hurt someone emotionally: i probably have, im ashamed to say.
130. Hurt someone physically: yea, usually jokingly.
131. Made someone cry: again, im ashamed to say i probably have.
132. Said you loved someone: yes
133. Said you hated someone: yes.
134. Talked to a stuffed animal: hehe yes
135. Talked to yourself: all the time.
136. Driven a car: plenty of times
137. Danced in public: lots and lots of times haha
138. Danced when no one was looking: yes!
139. Sang when no one was looking: you mean when no one was listening? yes.
Other Questions I Seemed to Forget.
140. Do you believe in Love: I do.
141. Love at first site? not neccesarily.
142. Your Definition of Love: god i dont know... i could be in love and not know it. everyone says *you'll know* but eh i dont know. im not really looking for it anymore. im wasting my time i think.
143. Your definition of a true friend: someone whos honest, willing to listen, respects your opinions and morals and has a good sense of humor haha
144. Your religion: I base my beliefs on a variety of religions... nature based religions.
145. Do you go to church: maybe to use their bathrooms LOL
146. Favorite Candy:
YOUR PSYCHE
147. Do you have any diagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? i have a social disorder
148. Do you have any undiagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? haha how would i know?
149. If you do in fact have a diagnosed or even undiagnosed mental disorder, describe what it feels like and/or your personal experiences with it. its numbing... i hate it. it keeps me from living the way id like honestly... but im working on it. im trying to force myself to do things that i normally wouldnt. its... uncomfortable. but i have to do it. i have to force myself to think a certain way. but since ive been thinking this way all my life, its hard...
Have you ever been to a therapist, psychiatrist, or psychologist before? If so, were they helpful to you? yes. and yes.
Do you think your dreams are a window into your soul? Or do they have any significance at all? I think they are very significant... sometimes its hard to analyze them
How would you describe yourself mentally and psychologically? im very negative. im used to putting myself down and not having faith in myself. im always... fearing.
Do you feel insecure with your own person? Have a self-esteem problem? If so, why do you think you do? i do. its all in my head i think. but my parents dont help much. and i try to ignore the things they say, and try not to let it get to me... but theyre my parents...
RELIGION AND PHILOSOPHY
What religion or system of beliefs, if any, do you subscribe to? i base my beliefs on nature based religions... wicca, native american... i probably have buddhist, hindu, even christian beliefs... who knows.
Is this a mainstream religion? its my own.
What do you think about non-mainstream religions? (Wicca, Hiduism, etc.?) I have nothing wrong with them. I think highly of them really.
How much do you actually know about non-mainstream religions? I know alot about wicca, not nearly enough... but. Im learning. and my world religions class is helping alot.
Have you ever tried to convert someone to your own religion? Why or why not? No, i dont believe in that. People should be able to choose what religion they want to follow without being pressured. If people ask me things about what I choose to believe, i'll give them the unbiased facts.
What is your overall opinion of televangelists? Eh, whatever. do what you want. I cant say i agree with it, stealing peoples money and brainwashing them, but whatever. Thats what they choose to believe, and I respect that.
What is your opinion of evangelists in general? like i said, thats what they choose to believe, and i respect that.
One word can be said and mean many different things. In the end, how important are words, really? I hate using words to express myself. Nothing comes out the way I want it to, and I feel like i never make sense.
If you could ask God or whomever you choose as a supreme being one question, and only one, what would it be? (If you're an atheist just skip ahead.) I dont have any questions.
MUSIC
Is music important to you? Why or why not? Its way up there on the importance list, haha. It helps me express emotions and figure out my thoughts really.
Do you sing? If so, do you sing well? I do sing. everyone does. I dont know how well i sing... we'll see when i try out for RS now wont we... *sigh*
What instruments do you play, if any? I want to learn the bass and the didgerydoo. I used to take guitar lessons, but got impatient and gave up. I expected to be amazing right away. I hate that.... I dont really think the guitar was for me anyways.
Do you or have you ever written music before? Ive written lyrics
What do you think of Eminem? I dont think anything of him.
In your opinion, what band is the best of all time? (Name a few if you can't decide.) haha wow we all know the answer to this one now dont we? Incubus of course. :D
What is one band/singer you absolutely love that no one else does or seems to have heard about? soul coughing, ween, 1108 thugz hahahaha
Pick up the nearest CD to you and write a random song lyric from it. the nearest cd is cher!!!!! and there are no lyrics in the booklet. sorry haha
ISSUES
What is your stance on abortion? Im for it. for whatever reason.
What is your opinion on gay people being allowed to get married? Im for it completely. homosexual people are humans too, and they deserve the same rights as straight people. what the fuck is the big deal? If you cant see that homosexual people are *normal* (i hate that word..) ... then im sorry, but i have no respect for you. you make me sick.
What is your opinion on gay couple adopting? see above. haha
Do you have a political party affiliation? If so, what and why? not especially. i dont know enough about political parties to choose a one... but from the basic knowledge i have of them all, i choose the green party.
What do you think about sex before marriage? i have no problem with it. to each his own really... if it were me in this situation, id be sure it felt right, and i for sure trusted the person and loved them.
Tell us one thing you're pretty sure no one knows about. uhh i cant thing of anything relevant so... im going to go eat some lunch now. lol
NOW GO OUT AND LIVE!
End Time: 1:45 pm