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[saddenedsaint]

[In the woods, Saga is sitting under a tree with his back against the trunk, wearing his Cloth. He's sleeping... veeery deep sleeping. But if someone looks closely, his face looks tired as if he hadn't slept well for several days. Even worse... his features are much sadder than usual. The reasons? Unknown... yet

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[oliverplus]

[Oliver is taking a walk in the woods (because everyone needs a break from TARDIS adventures now and then) when he catches a glimpse of something gold between the trees. frowning curiously, he heads toward it, only belatedly realising what it's from] Sa--oh! [noticing that his friend is asleep, he cuts off his cry and skids to a stop, snapping several twigs in the process. clearly clamping his hands over his mouth is going to help make up for the noise, too]

[saddenedsaint]

[Looks down before speaking.] ... I saw myself with my hands filled with blood. You, Morgana, Mu, Shion and Shun were lying on the floor... dead. I was frightened, shaking... barely moving. Suddenly, I woke up sweating and breathing heavily. I could hear my heart bumping like a hammer.

It was midnight and I didn't want to sleep again. Instead... [Trails off as he lifts his right hand, looking at it.] I placed my hand onto my chest... my fingers started to nail into my skin, pressing, twisting... as if I wanted to rip my heart off. The blood came out in an instant, but I suppressed any possible groan that could try to leave my mouth.

After a while, I decided to stop. Even if it wasn't something that could release all the pain, it was enough for me...

... It happened a week after that incident on the Plane.

[He keeps quiet. Of course it wasn't a nice story.]

[oliverplus]

[Oliver grabs Saga by the shoulders again] Saga, I'm not dead. None of us are! And definitely not--I mean, you haven't. You wouldn't. You can't let your dreams do this to you! Please.

[saddenedsaint]

[He looks up.] I only had a pleasant dream in my whole life...

... and it was about her.

[oliverplus]

[Oliver's eyes are glistening. he lets one hand drop and slips the other down to Saga's arm, keeping it there as the only comfort he can think to give]

What about when you're awake, Saga? What do you dream then?

[saddenedsaint]

[Chuckles.] It's been so long since I daydreamed. Or more exactly, since I had dreadful visions.

[oliverplus]

[Oliver shakes his head, insistent] No, not that. What do you dream of, Saga? For yourself?

[saddenedsaint]

What I dream of? ['That...' Startles at the question. He has never thought of it before. Half his life, his mind has always been filled with death and suffering... and it caused him so much sadness and distress.]

I dream... that I can have peace of mind... for once. That I can be a Saint as I always wanted to be. As the trainees and villagers praised me of.

That... ['... That I can understand what are this mixed emotions I feel when she looks at me...']

[oliverplus]

[he watches Saga intently] That...? What else?

[saddenedsaint]

['... It doesn't matter...' thinks. He shouldn't insist on that feeling even if he wants to. But there was something much more important... and he has longed for it since he can remember...] ... That I can get rid of the guilt I feel everyday...

[oliverplus]

[Oliver winces at that. it's a dream he shares, and he has a feeling it's just as impossible in both cases. but he doesn't say that. he's sure that Saga already knows it, and it won't help in any case]

[softly] Live for those dreams, Saga. Live to be the Saint you want to be. You still have that chance!

[saddenedsaint]

[It is a wish he knows won't be granted. And he knows the only way... is dying.] [Chuckles.] That is why I came back to life a se--a third time.

... The only way I can render thanks to Lady Athena for this new life... is by living as her Saint. It's the only thing I can do.

[oliverplus]

[frowns, his brow furrowing] Third?

So do that! Don't get caught up in what happened here. It's over, and she needs you. Right?

[saddenedsaint]

[Long story short.] I died by stabbing myself with Athena's Nike staff. The second time I was given life again with my fallen brother Saints by Hades in an attempt to kill my Goddess, but in reality we wanted to warn her about how to defeat him. After going against his wishes, I disappeared as dust in the wind. So... this is my third time in this life.

[Silent for a moment.] .. It is a complicated matter.

[oliverplus]

Oh, Saga... [Oliver reaches out, putting a hand on Saga's arm] It sounds to me like you deserve to live--to have your own life this time.

[saddenedsaint]

[To think of it is quite humorous. But living is much more complicated than dying.] [Looks away.] So I've been told.