I miss the lips..ugh they're so soft.

I think that this is halarious. I'm really not straight. I love women.


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Last night I spoiled myself. I always complain about not having money, and when I get it, I spend it within two days. A night actually... lol but I can because of the phrase " quality of life ( Read more... )

btw... the " her " in my post wasn't the same girl as the ps. <3

It's been a wierd journy to where I am now. I think I can remember who and whats led me here, but I don't remember details. People disapoint me, because my expectations are so high. Acceptance, not expectation. She doesn't disapoint me, she doesn't let me down. She tells me it's okay to miss her. She shows me it's okay to feel unsure, not be so god ( Read more... )

Today was productive, I guess... went to my first day of work at my new job.. well it's kind of new. I used to work there a while back, but I moved and came back and it's been a good while since I've tried to work since haha. Anyway, Things are okay. They're how I like things for right now, very mundane, very predictable. I think I like predictable ( Read more... )

She thinks I'm a liar. She probably would never read this.. why would she.. but she does. I think I love who she is. I think I wish I could be ready enough for such a strong woman. I think I'm too insecure. I think I'm too sensitive. I think I'm just starting to learn, and I can't fuck up my lessons. So what do I do? Grin and bare it.

So much shit's been going on right now that I don't know where to start. I'm trying to not let it affect me and I'm trying to make my skin thick and untouchable. Maybe that's what I need to do, grow numb and untouchable. No feelings, good or bad. That's how I think everyone should do it if they feel too much. Turn it off.
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I don't feel like writing a lot right now but I did feel like doing a quick update. I miss my good friends, all the friends I'm left with around me are just horrid in the friendship aspect. Great to hang out with but I never thought that the people I called my " good friends " are just mindless peices of shit with no positive energy around them at ( Read more... )

So yes it's been a while since I've updated.. A lot has changed.. Ari and I broke up...and then recently after that I met a wonderful person named Stonia, and she autmoticaly stole my heart.. So she's moving in... Good stuff. Very excited. She's pretty amazing ( Read more... )