if this is your definition of 'boring', i'm afraid i'm going to have to remap my entire vocabulary to understand yours. this has been an extremely insightful (as i've said countless of times prior to this) read, especially the themes you brought in, some of which hadn't occurred to me, and your struggles.
Again, not a favorite scene and--as mammothcock had said to me--too much telling and not enough showing.tbh i went back and read if little by little a couple of times, and each time this scene seemed progressively more befitting. despite your narration, you're not telling to tell, you're telling to show. you mentioned that this scene is a deeper look into kikwang's personal desires and subconscious dissatisfaction, which in retrospect makes me realise that there is so much more depth in this scene than what i had complained about earlier. it is also one of the more impactful scenes to me, considering how kikwang's doubts and unhappiness stems from here
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it is boring :( i think it would have turned out better if i kept track of my notes and/or made more notes while actually writing the fic. :( but i remember how i felt for the most part.
*not included but i do recall spending all-nighters tweeting you about this and how much of a godsend you were. :| those times where you had to leave first were probably some of the most painful. i would've given up without you. so, you know, thank you will all my heart. i have something to be proud of--i am proud of myself--because of you.
thank you. wibbles. i was hoping to convey that, but after the first comment you left on this scene i knew something had to give. i did change a few things in it before the final submission, but this is basically how you first read it :')
haha. an iv of confidence would be helpful to most of fandom. but thank you again, elyse. ♥ for holding my hand, listening to me whine, and, above all else, being you. ♥
and you wonder why i try to give you so much. because you've given me more than enough already!
you must be blind and/or very ignorant. this is nowhere near boring!
i can't believe you stayed up the whole night for this tbh. i'm so proud of you for finishing this, in all its goodly godliness. DID I NOT TELL YOU IT WOULD TURN OUT AMAZING?
but mostly to you. i should thank you for letting me hold you and listen to you whine! sadistic as i may sound, it was a wonderful experience. ♥
very ignorant. very very ignorant. and probably blind too.
YOU DID TELL ME! you must be psychic or something. ;; ♥ sobs. pulling all-nighters were ok honestly. it was the summer; i had time to spare.
just imagine if this were rl. you would've avoided me at all times and turned off your phone and everything! lol. i'm surprised no one on my twitter blocked me during this time. thanks for enjoying holding me and letting me whine; it's very sweet of you, not sadistic at all.
my first impression while reading it was that you thought so deeply about this fic and i adore that! you took writing it very seriously and the product was a very impressive story, might i add.
Cliff notes version: I don't believe love has to exist in grand gestures and "I love you"s. It just exists, and I wanted to show that here and throughout the rest of the fic. I hope I accomplished that more than anything else.
I AGREE ASKDJLAS. it reminds me of something my english teacher lectured us about; love isn't a feeling or physical, but it exists even if you don't do the typical gestures that represent it. you will still be in love with someone even if you don't feel love at that very moment because you're still with that person! i think it was very prominent in the fic (as i've said in my comment there
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sobs! we're both running in circles around each other, lol!
♥ there was so much time spent with this fic for those two months. it's my pride and joy in all its raw glory ;w; thank you so much.
my thoughts on love are very... different most times. so i'm happy to see you agree with my tl;dr about the fic. someone in one of my lectures earlier this week was giving someone "advice" in love, and i was just... rolling my eyes at them, i guess. haha. a lot of people think in grand gestures and fireworks, and i just feel it in subtleties here and there.
oh! that part i should've better explained in my notes! i saw it as-while writing-that hyunseung knew kikwang was uncomfortable, but he wanted to give him that push? to overcome it? you know how couples are always prodding at each other, getting under each other's skin? well, i was writing it with that mindset, i admit.
but like you said: it is one of their major obstacles in life
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Normally I don't read author's notes. I am not in it for what you got out of it but what I got out of it. But sometimes when you find a really good author who is willing to really share her thought process and explain where it all was while it was being written well it makes a difference. There is probably one other or two other authors I know of that I can have this sort of discussion from totally different fandoms though. I have to let this settle in my head for a little while. but I will be back to comment eventually.
i understand where you're coming from with this. it is hard to formulate your own thoughts in a fic and then read someone else's view. conflicting thoughts, feelings, etc.
Note: god, keeping track of everything was nearly impossible. I have a pretty impeccable memory where it doesn't matter, suffice to say. I remember, though, because I felt it was all important.
You were never the villain, always the enabler. Thanks.
This piece'll probably always be near and dear to my heart. I don't know. It was a struggle, yeah, but these were all my real feelings, and I'm glad I decided to stick with it. I also love Kikwang and Hyunseung together; it was legit. Sorry I'm always asleep when you're not. That may not be the case this time around, however.
Sorry that you spent time reading over this. Haha, it's ridiculously long-winded, as per usual, but I guess that's just me ^^
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Again, not a favorite scene and--as mammothcock had said to me--too much telling and not enough showing.tbh i went back and read if little by little a couple of times, and each time this scene seemed progressively more befitting. despite your narration, you're not telling to tell, you're telling to show. you mentioned that this scene is a deeper look into kikwang's personal desires and subconscious dissatisfaction, which in retrospect makes me realise that there is so much more depth in this scene than what i had complained about earlier. it is also one of the more impactful scenes to me, considering how kikwang's doubts and unhappiness stems from here ( ... )
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*not included but i do recall spending all-nighters tweeting you about this and how much of a godsend you were. :| those times where you had to leave first were probably some of the most painful. i would've given up without you. so, you know, thank you will all my heart. i have something to be proud of--i am proud of myself--because of you.
thank you. wibbles. i was hoping to convey that, but after the first comment you left on this scene i knew something had to give. i did change a few things in it before the final submission, but this is basically how you first read it :')
haha. an iv of confidence would be helpful to most of fandom. but thank you again, elyse. ♥ for holding my hand, listening to me whine, and, above all else, being you. ♥
and you wonder why i try to give you so much. because you've given me more than enough already!
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i can't believe you stayed up the whole night for this tbh. i'm so proud of you for finishing this, in all its goodly godliness. DID I NOT TELL YOU IT WOULD TURN OUT AMAZING?
but mostly to you. i should thank you for letting me hold you and listen to you whine! sadistic as i may sound, it was a wonderful experience. ♥
nonsense.
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YOU DID TELL ME! you must be psychic or something. ;; ♥ sobs. pulling all-nighters were ok honestly. it was the summer; i had time to spare.
just imagine if this were rl. you would've avoided me at all times and turned off your phone and everything! lol. i'm surprised no one on my twitter blocked me during this time. thanks for enjoying holding me and letting me whine; it's very sweet of you, not sadistic at all.
tis the truth.
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remind me to comment on this sobs ;___;
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okay. hugs ;w;
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my first impression while reading it was that you thought so deeply about this fic and i adore that! you took writing it very seriously and the product was a very impressive story, might i add.
Cliff notes version: I don't believe love has to exist in grand gestures and "I love you"s. It just exists, and I wanted to show that here and throughout the rest of the fic. I hope I accomplished that more than anything else.
I AGREE ASKDJLAS. it reminds me of something my english teacher lectured us about; love isn't a feeling or physical, but it exists even if you don't do the typical gestures that represent it. you will still be in love with someone even if you don't feel love at that very moment because you're still with that person! i think it was very prominent in the fic (as i've said in my comment there ( ... )
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♥ there was so much time spent with this fic for those two months. it's my pride and joy in all its raw glory ;w; thank you so much.
my thoughts on love are very... different most times. so i'm happy to see you agree with my tl;dr about the fic. someone in one of my lectures earlier this week was giving someone "advice" in love, and i was just... rolling my eyes at them, i guess. haha. a lot of people think in grand gestures and fireworks, and i just feel it in subtleties here and there.
oh! that part i should've better explained in my notes! i saw it as-while writing-that hyunseung knew kikwang was uncomfortable, but he wanted to give him that push? to overcome it? you know how couples are always prodding at each other, getting under each other's skin? well, i was writing it with that mindset, i admit.
but like you said: it is one of their major obstacles in life ( ... )
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I have to let this settle in my head for a little while. but I will be back to comment eventually.
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take your time. :)
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You were never the villain, always the enabler. Thanks.
This piece'll probably always be near and dear to my heart. I don't know. It was a struggle, yeah, but these were all my real feelings, and I'm glad I decided to stick with it. I also love Kikwang and Hyunseung together; it was legit. Sorry I'm always asleep when you're not. That may not be the case this time around, however.
Sorry that you spent time reading over this. Haha, it's ridiculously long-winded, as per usual, but I guess that's just me ^^
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