( ooc ) secret reports
Got this lovely idea from Zia. These are all the secret reports written by and about Xion! I've separated them as so.
=====Day 50: Strange Feeling=====
Roxas woke up today. I think he was dreaming the whole time.
Being with him feels strange. Familiar. Like listening to the waves crash up
against the shore. But why?
=====Day 73: What Now?=====
I lost the ability to use the Keyblade, and I have no idea why. I don't know
what to do about it. About anything.
It happened suddenly, after Roxas woke up. If I can't collect hearts anymore,
the Organization has no use for me. This is terrible.
=====Day 75: Gotta Do Something=====
Roxas has been coming along on my missions to help out, since I can't use the
Keyblade. Axel is covering for me, so I should be safe for now. But what am I
going to do if I never get the Keyblade back? I can't lie forever.
=====Day 95: My Past=====
Neither Roxas or I have any memory of our human lives. I don't even remember
my first days as a Nobody.
Roxas said he was the same, but I'm not so sure. For me, it's a total blank.
I can't even remember the day I met Roxas, or Axel. It's all a blur.
=====Day 149: He's the Sham=====
That man wearing the Organization's coat - that jerk! He's too powerful. I
can't beat him unless I get stronger.
And I'm not a sham. I'M NOT. He is. He's the one pretending to be something
he isn't!
=====Day 151: Those Dreams=====
I wasn't ready to see Roxas again. I can't help but compare us. We both use
the Keyblade, but we're so different.
Does he dream? It seems like that's all I do anymore. Last night I dreamt of
the ocean. I was drowning.
=====Day 193: Dreams, or Memories?=====
I finally wake up, just to pass out again? Why? Because I'm a failure? I dreamt
the whole while I was out. It was something nostalgic, but what? Why can't I
remember? It could be a key memory from my human life. All I can remember is
the sound of waves, gentle, in the distance.
=====Day 225: Secrets About Me=====
My body feels heavy, and my head aches. I'm too busy dreaming to get any rest
from sleep. Axel knows something. He's hiding some secret. It must be in
Castle Oblivion. That's where I was born.
=====Day 300: Us and the Sunset=====
We watched the sun set today. The three of us. I didn't think we'd ever be
able to do that again. It's like that dream I had - the one where I was by the
shore with Roxas and Axel, watching the sun set over the water. I just want to
stay with them. But how? What should I do?
=====Day 321: My Place=====
Axel's always helped me out, so I just assumed he would again. How long has he
known about me? Maybe since long before we met in Castle Oblivion. But he told
me to think for myself. I was so happy. But now, as I get stronger, Roxas
keeps getting weaker.
I shouldn't exist anymore. They say that Nobodies were never meant to exist,
but I'm the real affront. But before I'm gone, I want to help Roxas and Axel.
Even just a little. I think the boy I saw today is the same Sora from my
memories.
=====Day 352: What I Must Do=====
Riku gave me this time. Axel told me to spend it thinking for myself. The
organization is determined to erase either me or Roxas. They'll never allow us
to coexist. I love Roxas and Axel. I'm sure Saïx would scoff at that. Call it
a trick of my artificial memories. But the time I spent on that clock tower
were real.
I wish the three of us could stay together, just like this, forever.
But I have to end this. I'll never forget today's sunset. Even if Roxas and
Axel do, I won't forget.
=====Day 354: Where I Belong=====
I wanted to see Roxas one more time, but couldn't. What would I say? Did I
ever really exist? Even if not, I just hope that those times we spent watching
the sun set were real. I know Namine will tell me how to get back where I
belong. I should hurry to see her.
=====Day 7: Meaning=====
A name defines an object. Describes the span of it. Gives it purpose.
We embarked upon the Replica Program to ensure our new power stays ours. Now,
our shadow puppet, "No. i", lives. It needs a name. Something to define it.
To give the hollow vessel purpose.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 9: On Track=====
Xion is being monitored. Roxas, meanwhile, has begun his training exercises.
It is imperative we keep Xion from having undue contact with Roxas until we
are certain it will perform as expected - which will take another 10 days, if
Vexen's convictions are to be trusted.
As for the Keyblade master, Marluxia will no doubt be keeping an eye on him.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 23: Research Entry 326=====
The Program is largely on track. No. i, my finest Replica, has proven an even
greater success than anticipated.
I intend to take the other vessel - judged unfit for number status - to Castle
Oblivion, where I will subject it to further testing.
One thing is clear: should these Replicas not be classified as a special sort
of Nobody?
Report Author: Vexen
=====Day 74: Xion's Face=====
Honestly, I never got why Roxas was so crazy about Xion. I know they both
joined up around the same time, and they're both rookies, but how do you get
close to somebody who hides their face all the time?
Well, I saw it today. All of a sudden, No XIV up and takes off... her hood.
Xion is a girl, and she looks just like Namine.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 96: Friends=====
Xion regained her ability to wield the Keyblade. I don't know how or why.
Maybe there's more to the Keyblade master they're not telling me about.
I feel like I've been spending more time talking to Roxas and Xion lately
than my old friend, Saïx. This has to have been what it was like, friendship.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 150: Dealing with Xion=====
As expected, the Duplicate is starting to show its limits. The Program showed
promise, but a puppet is just a puppet: something to be toyed with until it
breaks.
I am utterly at a loss as to what Roxas and Axel see in that thing. How best
to dispose of it merits my consideration going forward.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 152: Like a Real Person=====
Roxas and Xion must have had it out over something. Knowing them, it's
something dumb, but still.
Watching them, it's like they're human. It's messing with my head.
I kind of wonder if Roxas understood all that about the wrong buttons.I get
the sense a lot of it went right over his head.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 171: The No. i Project=====
Xion failed to complete its mission. If this continues, destroying it and
using the next Replica as the Duplicate would undoubtedly yield a higher-grade
copy.
No. i was among the initial lot, which naturally raises questions about its
capabilities. At present, it is nothing short of broken. I cannot fathom why
Xemnas would want to keep it.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 172: Meaning Behind the Words=====
There has to be something to what Saïx said. Why isn't Xion qualified to be
one of us? He said to just look at her, but at what? The fact that she looks
like Namine?
Xion and Namine must be connected. Whose Nobody is Xion, anyway? What is Saïx
hiding?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 174: Just a Replica=====
Xion continues to sleep. All analysis on its function suggests no marked
change. The copying appears to be working, but a Replica is a Replica. My
latest report to Xemnas on this net me no clear answers. He simply stood,
smiling. At times I find his thinking impenetrable.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 194: The Replica=====
I thought I'd never see the word "Replica" again. Any rational man would
realize the Riku Replica was not likely unique, but I'm the only one in the
Organization who knew of his exceptional copying functionality, and that he
ultimately formed a sense of self. The fact that I knew all that and still
never noticed the truth about Xion speaks to how remarkable a Replica she
must be.
But my questions remain unanswered. Who is she a Replica of? Namine? Kairi?
Or perhaps someone entirely different? Why did the Orgnaization admit her into
this membership? And why would such a fine Replica fall unconscious or
sporadically lose its command of the Keyblade?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 224: Xion=====
Even if Xion is a Replica - a puppet - she's still Xion. I understand that in
my head, but how do I interact with her now? Riku-Replica was just a tool, but
I can't just use Xion. No, I was wrong to have just used Riku-Replica in the
first place. How is a man-made puppet any less worthy than a Nobody that was
never meant to exist at all?
They're both ambiguous. Tenuous at best. And she's my friend. Even if neither
of us should exist, that doesn't invalidate the bonds we form. Next break we
get, I told her we'd all go to the beach. I hope we get the chance. Our little
summer vacation. I know if we can get together and laugh about stupid stuff,
this nagging doubt will go away.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 255: Final Stages=====
Xion's appearance should vary based on the relation of the viewer to her.
Saïx sees her simply as a puppet. The program approaches completion. Through
Roxas, Xion is assembling a copy of the hero of the Keyblade. As proof, she
sometimes appears to take on his form to my eyes.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 256: Who We Each See=====
Xion's dissaperance is fascinating. If she really is breaking from our control,
it's a sign of her approaching the essence of the hero. It seems Saïx doesn't
truly "see" her. I'm curious to know how she appears to the others. I see her
as... him, though I suspect that Xemnas sees entirely something else in her.
Report Author: Xigbar
=====Day 276: Behind the Truth=====
Xion is gone. Roxas still doesn't know anything, but Xion found out. That's
why I need to find her. We don't have hearts, so we accept the facts we're
given as the truth. But something far more important lies behind that truth.
Saïx would laugh at people with no hearts calling one another friends, but
that doesn't make it not so.
As the Nobody of the hero of the Keyblade and the Replica of that Nobody,
these two are special. Unique in every since of the word. But that doesn't
change the fact that we're friends. Nothing will. Got it memorized, Xion?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 277: True Agenda=====
Axel and Roxas are up to something. No plot they concoct will change the fact
that the Organization has cast off Xion, though. Our plans have split,
diverged, and advance now to the next stage. The No. i project and Replica
program merely paved the way. Our true goals lie elsewhere.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 297: Contact with Riku=====
The man they're calling the imposter, that fake Organization member? It's Riku.
Roxas could very well remember that, somewhere deep in his memories. Still,
it's too soon to report this. I need to know why Xion was with him first. If
she's siding with the hero, it could easily mean her erasure. What are you
planning to do, Xion?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 298: Change of Plans=====
Axel failed to report that the imposter and Xion are working together.
Instead, that news came from Roxas. The boy is far more easily handled than
Axel, but now Axel has captured Xion and returned her to us. his motives are
impossible to read. Our plans can be altered if necessary, but doing so can
only delay their realization.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 299: The Value of a Lie=====
Roxas doesn't trust me after the whole Xion incident, but I can't tell him the
truth yet. So I keep lying. It's no big deal when you're a Nobody. There's no
guilt, no feeling at all. So why does it still sting, just a little, when I
lie to him? All my dealings with Roxas give me this bizzare illusion of
humanity.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 301: Xion or Roxas?=====
Xion is burning through missions at full tilt. She seems frantic. Why, I don't
know. And speaking of, I still don't know what to say to Roxas. Even without
my orders from Saïx, I'd do anything to stop Roxas from being erased. I just
don't know if I can stand by and let that happen to Xion, either.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 322: The Plan=====
Be they a puppet or the hero's Nobody, we merely need a functional Keyblade
master. The details are unimportant. The puppet has developed to a point where
the hero of the Keyblade may be entirely redundant. Indeed, perhaps we ought
never allow Sora to awaken. He cannot be controlled. He will rise up against
us. We must move our agenda ahead with that firmly in mind.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 353: A Future That Never Was=====
I couldn't tell Xion she was wrong, and I can't bring myself to end her. But
it's either that, or I have to erase Roxas. There's no future where the three
of us can sit around and eat ice cream. I know Roxas will never understand. I
don't want to acknowledge it myself.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 357: To My Best Friend=====
Roxas left. It's so like him to just leave that WINNER ice cream stick behind.
Come tomorrow, I'll probably get the order to hunt him down, but leaving that
here makes it feel so permanent. I wish the three of us - three? No. That the
two of us could share some ice cream again someday. That's what it is to be
friends.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 50: Strange Feeling=====
Roxas woke up today. I think he was dreaming the whole time.
Being with him feels strange. Familiar. Like listening to the waves crash up
against the shore. But why?
=====Day 73: What Now?=====
I lost the ability to use the Keyblade, and I have no idea why. I don't know
what to do about it. About anything.
It happened suddenly, after Roxas woke up. If I can't collect hearts anymore,
the Organization has no use for me. This is terrible.
=====Day 75: Gotta Do Something=====
Roxas has been coming along on my missions to help out, since I can't use the
Keyblade. Axel is covering for me, so I should be safe for now. But what am I
going to do if I never get the Keyblade back? I can't lie forever.
=====Day 95: My Past=====
Neither Roxas or I have any memory of our human lives. I don't even remember
my first days as a Nobody.
Roxas said he was the same, but I'm not so sure. For me, it's a total blank.
I can't even remember the day I met Roxas, or Axel. It's all a blur.
=====Day 149: He's the Sham=====
That man wearing the Organization's coat - that jerk! He's too powerful. I
can't beat him unless I get stronger.
And I'm not a sham. I'M NOT. He is. He's the one pretending to be something
he isn't!
=====Day 151: Those Dreams=====
I wasn't ready to see Roxas again. I can't help but compare us. We both use
the Keyblade, but we're so different.
Does he dream? It seems like that's all I do anymore. Last night I dreamt of
the ocean. I was drowning.
=====Day 193: Dreams, or Memories?=====
I finally wake up, just to pass out again? Why? Because I'm a failure? I dreamt
the whole while I was out. It was something nostalgic, but what? Why can't I
remember? It could be a key memory from my human life. All I can remember is
the sound of waves, gentle, in the distance.
=====Day 225: Secrets About Me=====
My body feels heavy, and my head aches. I'm too busy dreaming to get any rest
from sleep. Axel knows something. He's hiding some secret. It must be in
Castle Oblivion. That's where I was born.
=====Day 300: Us and the Sunset=====
We watched the sun set today. The three of us. I didn't think we'd ever be
able to do that again. It's like that dream I had - the one where I was by the
shore with Roxas and Axel, watching the sun set over the water. I just want to
stay with them. But how? What should I do?
=====Day 321: My Place=====
Axel's always helped me out, so I just assumed he would again. How long has he
known about me? Maybe since long before we met in Castle Oblivion. But he told
me to think for myself. I was so happy. But now, as I get stronger, Roxas
keeps getting weaker.
I shouldn't exist anymore. They say that Nobodies were never meant to exist,
but I'm the real affront. But before I'm gone, I want to help Roxas and Axel.
Even just a little. I think the boy I saw today is the same Sora from my
memories.
=====Day 352: What I Must Do=====
Riku gave me this time. Axel told me to spend it thinking for myself. The
organization is determined to erase either me or Roxas. They'll never allow us
to coexist. I love Roxas and Axel. I'm sure Saïx would scoff at that. Call it
a trick of my artificial memories. But the time I spent on that clock tower
were real.
I wish the three of us could stay together, just like this, forever.
But I have to end this. I'll never forget today's sunset. Even if Roxas and
Axel do, I won't forget.
=====Day 354: Where I Belong=====
I wanted to see Roxas one more time, but couldn't. What would I say? Did I
ever really exist? Even if not, I just hope that those times we spent watching
the sun set were real. I know Namine will tell me how to get back where I
belong. I should hurry to see her.
=====Day 7: Meaning=====
A name defines an object. Describes the span of it. Gives it purpose.
We embarked upon the Replica Program to ensure our new power stays ours. Now,
our shadow puppet, "No. i", lives. It needs a name. Something to define it.
To give the hollow vessel purpose.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 9: On Track=====
Xion is being monitored. Roxas, meanwhile, has begun his training exercises.
It is imperative we keep Xion from having undue contact with Roxas until we
are certain it will perform as expected - which will take another 10 days, if
Vexen's convictions are to be trusted.
As for the Keyblade master, Marluxia will no doubt be keeping an eye on him.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 23: Research Entry 326=====
The Program is largely on track. No. i, my finest Replica, has proven an even
greater success than anticipated.
I intend to take the other vessel - judged unfit for number status - to Castle
Oblivion, where I will subject it to further testing.
One thing is clear: should these Replicas not be classified as a special sort
of Nobody?
Report Author: Vexen
=====Day 74: Xion's Face=====
Honestly, I never got why Roxas was so crazy about Xion. I know they both
joined up around the same time, and they're both rookies, but how do you get
close to somebody who hides their face all the time?
Well, I saw it today. All of a sudden, No XIV up and takes off... her hood.
Xion is a girl, and she looks just like Namine.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 96: Friends=====
Xion regained her ability to wield the Keyblade. I don't know how or why.
Maybe there's more to the Keyblade master they're not telling me about.
I feel like I've been spending more time talking to Roxas and Xion lately
than my old friend, Saïx. This has to have been what it was like, friendship.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 150: Dealing with Xion=====
As expected, the Duplicate is starting to show its limits. The Program showed
promise, but a puppet is just a puppet: something to be toyed with until it
breaks.
I am utterly at a loss as to what Roxas and Axel see in that thing. How best
to dispose of it merits my consideration going forward.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 152: Like a Real Person=====
Roxas and Xion must have had it out over something. Knowing them, it's
something dumb, but still.
Watching them, it's like they're human. It's messing with my head.
I kind of wonder if Roxas understood all that about the wrong buttons.I get
the sense a lot of it went right over his head.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 171: The No. i Project=====
Xion failed to complete its mission. If this continues, destroying it and
using the next Replica as the Duplicate would undoubtedly yield a higher-grade
copy.
No. i was among the initial lot, which naturally raises questions about its
capabilities. At present, it is nothing short of broken. I cannot fathom why
Xemnas would want to keep it.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 172: Meaning Behind the Words=====
There has to be something to what Saïx said. Why isn't Xion qualified to be
one of us? He said to just look at her, but at what? The fact that she looks
like Namine?
Xion and Namine must be connected. Whose Nobody is Xion, anyway? What is Saïx
hiding?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 174: Just a Replica=====
Xion continues to sleep. All analysis on its function suggests no marked
change. The copying appears to be working, but a Replica is a Replica. My
latest report to Xemnas on this net me no clear answers. He simply stood,
smiling. At times I find his thinking impenetrable.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 194: The Replica=====
I thought I'd never see the word "Replica" again. Any rational man would
realize the Riku Replica was not likely unique, but I'm the only one in the
Organization who knew of his exceptional copying functionality, and that he
ultimately formed a sense of self. The fact that I knew all that and still
never noticed the truth about Xion speaks to how remarkable a Replica she
must be.
But my questions remain unanswered. Who is she a Replica of? Namine? Kairi?
Or perhaps someone entirely different? Why did the Orgnaization admit her into
this membership? And why would such a fine Replica fall unconscious or
sporadically lose its command of the Keyblade?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 224: Xion=====
Even if Xion is a Replica - a puppet - she's still Xion. I understand that in
my head, but how do I interact with her now? Riku-Replica was just a tool, but
I can't just use Xion. No, I was wrong to have just used Riku-Replica in the
first place. How is a man-made puppet any less worthy than a Nobody that was
never meant to exist at all?
They're both ambiguous. Tenuous at best. And she's my friend. Even if neither
of us should exist, that doesn't invalidate the bonds we form. Next break we
get, I told her we'd all go to the beach. I hope we get the chance. Our little
summer vacation. I know if we can get together and laugh about stupid stuff,
this nagging doubt will go away.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 255: Final Stages=====
Xion's appearance should vary based on the relation of the viewer to her.
Saïx sees her simply as a puppet. The program approaches completion. Through
Roxas, Xion is assembling a copy of the hero of the Keyblade. As proof, she
sometimes appears to take on his form to my eyes.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 256: Who We Each See=====
Xion's dissaperance is fascinating. If she really is breaking from our control,
it's a sign of her approaching the essence of the hero. It seems Saïx doesn't
truly "see" her. I'm curious to know how she appears to the others. I see her
as... him, though I suspect that Xemnas sees entirely something else in her.
Report Author: Xigbar
=====Day 276: Behind the Truth=====
Xion is gone. Roxas still doesn't know anything, but Xion found out. That's
why I need to find her. We don't have hearts, so we accept the facts we're
given as the truth. But something far more important lies behind that truth.
Saïx would laugh at people with no hearts calling one another friends, but
that doesn't make it not so.
As the Nobody of the hero of the Keyblade and the Replica of that Nobody,
these two are special. Unique in every since of the word. But that doesn't
change the fact that we're friends. Nothing will. Got it memorized, Xion?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 277: True Agenda=====
Axel and Roxas are up to something. No plot they concoct will change the fact
that the Organization has cast off Xion, though. Our plans have split,
diverged, and advance now to the next stage. The No. i project and Replica
program merely paved the way. Our true goals lie elsewhere.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 297: Contact with Riku=====
The man they're calling the imposter, that fake Organization member? It's Riku.
Roxas could very well remember that, somewhere deep in his memories. Still,
it's too soon to report this. I need to know why Xion was with him first. If
she's siding with the hero, it could easily mean her erasure. What are you
planning to do, Xion?
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 298: Change of Plans=====
Axel failed to report that the imposter and Xion are working together.
Instead, that news came from Roxas. The boy is far more easily handled than
Axel, but now Axel has captured Xion and returned her to us. his motives are
impossible to read. Our plans can be altered if necessary, but doing so can
only delay their realization.
Report Author: Saïx
=====Day 299: The Value of a Lie=====
Roxas doesn't trust me after the whole Xion incident, but I can't tell him the
truth yet. So I keep lying. It's no big deal when you're a Nobody. There's no
guilt, no feeling at all. So why does it still sting, just a little, when I
lie to him? All my dealings with Roxas give me this bizzare illusion of
humanity.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 301: Xion or Roxas?=====
Xion is burning through missions at full tilt. She seems frantic. Why, I don't
know. And speaking of, I still don't know what to say to Roxas. Even without
my orders from Saïx, I'd do anything to stop Roxas from being erased. I just
don't know if I can stand by and let that happen to Xion, either.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 322: The Plan=====
Be they a puppet or the hero's Nobody, we merely need a functional Keyblade
master. The details are unimportant. The puppet has developed to a point where
the hero of the Keyblade may be entirely redundant. Indeed, perhaps we ought
never allow Sora to awaken. He cannot be controlled. He will rise up against
us. We must move our agenda ahead with that firmly in mind.
Report Author: Xemnas
=====Day 353: A Future That Never Was=====
I couldn't tell Xion she was wrong, and I can't bring myself to end her. But
it's either that, or I have to erase Roxas. There's no future where the three
of us can sit around and eat ice cream. I know Roxas will never understand. I
don't want to acknowledge it myself.
Report Author: Axel
=====Day 357: To My Best Friend=====
Roxas left. It's so like him to just leave that WINNER ice cream stick behind.
Come tomorrow, I'll probably get the order to hunt him down, but leaving that
here makes it feel so permanent. I wish the three of us - three? No. That the
two of us could share some ice cream again someday. That's what it is to be
friends.
Report Author: Axel