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[reciprokate]

I understand now...

Four years ago, an acquaintance-turned-friend phased me out of her life. We had a couple of tense conversations, a few more guarded attempts at dinner. I was finally dismissed. And the truth came out...she couldn't be friends with a stranger, a double life. She reminded me of who I said I was, and put a mirror up to what I was

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[anonymous]

sounds complicated

[reciprokate]

It does. But it's not.

The thing is...I can love someone and accept them for who they are, providing they own their actions and live accordingly - across the board. But when someone says that they are one thing, then chooses to secretly live an entirely opposite lifestyle, thereby becoming the epitomy of hypocrisy, I am disgusted.

I have done this. When I have, I disgusted myself. My relationships were pointless because I was lying to everyone. Now that I am past this, I don't want my current and future friendships to be based on lies and excuses. I'm ready for authentic, honest interactions.

[anonymous]

Well, you were always way more complex than me, and I sort of envied you for that. For a long time, I would just call on my brothers or my cousins whenever somebody did me wrong, and they would go under the cover of darkness and burn down a barn or something. But, like you, I have left that life behind and I am trying to act more like a regular human and not hold grudges so hard. I guess you and me are both maybe changing for the better. HDH