So much on my mind today, I forgot to record the service... anyway here's what came out on paper ( Read more... )

Sick of wasting time on people who aren't there. Can't stand to stand here and watch you walk away, so turn around to see my silhouette fading with the day. Thought I needed you like I need air. No debt to be paid, nothing owed, you gave them up along with me. Blue skies but it's raining, you're gone but I'm still here singing. Look the other ( Read more... )

I had noticed she hadn't been herself lately. Drastic mood swings were par for the course for her, but nausea was like a phantom visitor, returning unexpectedly. I had never seen a single tear in her eye, yet a few days ago she looked like they might start pouring out of her. I recall her murmuring a few words about having a lot to think about, ( Read more... )

What do I wait for?  What holds me back?  Something real, something touchable and long-lasting.  Tired of fleeting chances blowing away with the slightest breeze or the tiniest crack in the sidewalk.  I want something to help me repair the sidewalk...  HELP is what I want.  Tired of being let down, let out spiraling down this drain to wind up wind ( Read more... )

I've decided I don't like getting older. I was sitting on my front porch swing today and the thought crossed my mind that this will very likely be my last summer at home, with my friends. I'll probably get a job somewhere near Sheffield. Of course, that won't be TOO far away, but just far enough. Close to rest of the McWilliams clan, however. ( Read more... )

Why do we all seem to be, deep down, gluttons for punishment? Putting ourselves in situations we know to be hazardous, thinking this time we'll be able to pull ourselves out of the mire before we get too deep. Then we don't think about it again until the quicksand closes over our heads and it occurs to us "oh, maybe I was wrong...". But of ( Read more... )

Just some thoughts that came to me during the morning service...

Why must you - all of you - strive without ceasing to create strife among yourselves and drag me down into it as well?  Mindless bickering seems to be the heart's chief desire.  Life is a gift; why do you abuse it as you do?  Forming cheap bonds then wrecking them as the paint dries ( Read more... )

Found this written on the back of an old sermon outline from church while I was cleaning my room today. Can't remember exactly what I was thinking about but it was probably a girl ( Read more... )

She's a little shady, little reckless ( Read more... )

Take things one day at a time. If things aren't going the way you want them to, don't break down and panic. Work towards your dreams. If it turns out your dreams aren't meant to come true, well, sometimes that happens. As for me, I'm still working, and praying. Who knows if my hopes will come full circle? But as a dear friend of mine said to ( Read more... )