hello christine, my one reader :) well, the past few days were rough. but i think i've broken through the wall. i doubt i will get home before christmas. strangely, i am struggling to think of anything to say, even though i am "so busy" because all i do is work. don't know where things are with k but i really don't care anymore - i can't. so ( Read more... )

wow. i can't believe how dumb i am. i think i am moving into the acceptance phase that i will never be with k. i just wish i knew what the hell was going through his head the whole time. of course, i have to use all the self-discipline i have to now email or call him, and i'm pretty sure that i won't hear from him. actually, i might, but what ( Read more... )

i just wrote a whole long entry and then the page didn't update :(

well, i am working on howard dean's campaign in new hampshire.

k is driving me crazy.

my mom's school is closing in december so she needs to find a new job.

saw ian last night which was nice.

RE: Howard Dean ( Read more... )

got up at 8:45 to begin communte to lexington
had breakfast with yelena and tanya to talk about Columbia
made 20 contacts!
saw janice - doing better
helped ian with micro-economics
watched the sox beat the yankees!

i need a picture for my lj and friendster - yes i cracked and joined

i am...happy and lonely ( Read more... )

i feel like i am just getting to know myself and i like a lot of things but there are also things that i don't like. i feel like i am letting a lot of people down right now including myself. to begin with i don't have he boundless energy that i used to? or did i ever? i have been feeling really shitty healthwise quite a bit lately and i just ( Read more... )

ohhhh, today was so nice. i got to sleep as late as i wanted. and i got some stuff done (though not as much as there is to do). and now i am smoking just a tad before going to work. just feeling content at the moment. i haven't written in a while because i don't really think anyone is reading (rix, rachel) and because i am NEVER in front of my ( Read more... )

last night was full of crazy dreams ( Read more... )